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I'll never lose my position

I will always be Your child

That's all that matters

- Worst Days, by CalledOut Music

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Though you know that what's inside my heart is a love that wants to give every room to you; you know as well that I simply can't yet, and this "yet" has been taking forever - and it aches my heart to see you just accept this, and it pains my spirit to see you even like and accept this scenario with compassion

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Help me see, that you are always here helping me

Both in gentle subtle ways, and in active grand ways

That you are always with me

Whether I sense you or not

Whether in the light or in the shadows

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Five years ago, he gifted himself to go to a retreat. During the final stretch of the program, they were asked to draw something: "Make believe, if you could move the clouds, where would you want the sun to shine in your life?"

Like a sequel to the previous activity drawn & colored, this piece was born - made from the setting of hoping & waiting.

Five years fast forward, the answer, still the same - "Give thanks to the Lord for He is good, His love endures forever". Salamat sa buhay, sa pamilya, sa mga kaibigan, sa mga napuntahan, sa mga nakasama; salamat sa pagsama, sa pananatili, sa lahat 🙂 Thank you for shining sun on our lives

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it really doesn't matter

been with you despite the "whether or nots" or "even ifs"

regardless. this staying, I choose over & over

thank you for staying as well

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be not afraid.

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as the gates were opened

understanding drew closer

tears kept falling

sorrow more real

at the same time

joy finally welcomed

heart found its place

felt a warm embrace

this might be grace

thank you.

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More or less two decades back, every morning, after getting off our school bus, before proceeding to our section's line for assembly - I find myself in front of you at the main church - praying with you, to God random things. Usually at the rearmost pew, with all my heavy books in my backpack, filecase held at my right - I silently utter long list of prayers - memorized ones, wishes for loved ones, hopes for the day. It's been years, and I am still very thankful for these small moments 🙏

I just pondered just now, that you have been a great influence to who I am now. You were the one who taught me to show peace, to seek peace, and to strive to create peace. Though not perfect, many times, I confuse this peace to comfort and escape from conflict - and it has been a long and quite difficult journey with these.

Tonight, in this small altar of mine, I pray with you, with my heart - just as I have had with my life - to hopefully be an instrument of peace - peace that is true, full & life-giving; enduring, willing to embrace every difficulty - because of the trust that we're always being taken care of. Still a long journey ahead, continue interceding for us. 🙏

Belated Happy Feast Day, St. Francis! Pray for us🕊🙂

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Sana'y 'di dumaplis sa paningin

Sana'y 'di lumagpas saking pansin

Sana'y 'di ka makasalisihan

Sana'y laging madatnan

Saanmang sulok, sigwa, silong.

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Kumilos man o hindi,

kusa akong tinutulak ng daigdig na dumerecho - gamit ang pag-ikot nito,

tinataguyod ng hangin upang tumungo sa nararapat patunguhan,

inaakay ng pag-ibig - papunta sa destinasyong dapat kalagyan -

pag-ibig na hindi lamang mula sa aking kinatatayuan, ngunit maslalo pa, galing sa mga mahal sa buhay, sa sarili't sa 'Iyo na tunay na pinagmulan

Wala man akong gawin, pinakikilos mo ako -

Wala man akong ipusta, sinasamahan mo pa din ako tungo sa kung saan man ay nararapat -

May pinagdadaanan mang mabigat, o wala -

May kinakatakot man, pinagtataguan, tinatakasan, o wala -

Ang pagmamahal mo na hindi nagbabago, na punung-puno, ay di tumitigil na ako'y ipaglaban, samahan - kahit pa ramdam kong ako'y kulang na kulang.

May excuse man o wala, may kapalpakan man o pagka-ewan, ang 'yong puso'y nasa aking puso, hindi napapagod - buhay, hindi nagtitiis - hindi kelanman ako'y "pinagtiisan" o pinagtiyagaan lamang.

Pagmamahal mong hindi kailanman maintindihan kung bakit, pawang umiibig lamang.

Kumilos man o hindi, sana'y unti-unti, sana'y dahan-dahan, sana'y kahit papaano'y makaabot ako sa ako na walang takot sumukli, kahit pa hindi mo ako nirequire kelanman sumukli, pero para man lamang makapagpasalamat at makapagpugay, ng tama at naaayon sa 'yong walang hanggang kabutihan.

salamat

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Five years ago. Started this journey of brisk walking, then jogging, eventually slow running. Discipline, repetition, holding-on - in the end, realizing that I somehow levelled-up. Despite all the resistance from the discomfort of running, from studying, from loving - in the end, I'm repetitively being reminded, that it will all be worth it. Thanks for this

34/365 Not too fast. Hindi parang RPG game na naglelevel-up tas may fireworks na lalabas pag agad agad nagfocus-effort, pag ginanahan mag aral o magexercise. Kelangan slowly but surely, tuluy-tuloy, paulit-ulit, disiplinado tas kumakapit lang. Pag nagstick to the plan, pagnaglook-back next year, marerealize na: wow naglevel-up pala ako. Wala mang paputok, pero at least kitams ang pagbabago.

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in the midst of the questioning and pessimism, here you are speaking, opening the recesses of the heart, allowing tears from within to gush out, allowing the fears reveal themselves again - mga takot na pilit itinago, tinapalan, binaon, iniwasan.

"Buksan ang 'yong mga mata, paligiran ng aking liwanag, hindi ka nag-iisa, pinaglalaban kita, hindi ka mag-iisa"