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Cell service

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Sunning

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Calle de l'Era, La Torre de l'Espanyol, Tarragona, Catalonia.

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Kyiv. Left Bank by Volodymyr Sydoruk, 1975

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Gertrude Abercrombie (American, 1909-1977), Wires Down, 1943. Oil on board, 7 15/16 x 10 1/16 in.

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Man... What to do. I've been reflecting on that.

I was preparing for the lineman program and stressing pretty hard about it for the past few months. I was getting into shape, studying the CDL manual, looking for housing, and feeling doubtful the whole time. I worried I might fail and humiliate myself in a spectacular way once I got there, but I worried more about whether I was doing the right thing.

I really like drawing, and writing, and making music. Lineman is more of a lifestyle than a job. Would I have time to do both? I think the closer it came to the semester, the more it seemed like I'd have to give up art and I don't want to. I think I'd be giving up my soul if I gave up art. It sort of pained me to admit that, because I feel like I have a lot to prove to a lot of different people.

But I'm told by reliable sources that I should do what's best for me, so I'm going to look for a less time consuming job. My plan B if the lineman thing didn't work out would be an industrial maintenance electrician (hopefully with an emphasis on motor controls), so I'm going to pursue that.

While I whip up my resume, I'll be doing my art stuff and trying to remind (or convince) myself that I made the right choice.

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update:

i dropped out of college... to go to a different one. when it caught up to me that my initial major was dead, i totally lost all motivation and began to fail my classes. so instead of wasting my time any further (im not getting any younger here), i dropped them and i found a different school which has the program im really looking for - lineman program!

i was going to start in the spring, but a medical emergency came up that requires me to have surgery in january. i won't be healed up completely by march, so i'm going to do it in the summer (i'm not... getting any younger... whatever.)

it's going to be hard. i was told they test your fitness. i got a prescription refill on my inhaler, just in case.

that's me now. i'd like to open commissions soon - something easy. sketches and 1 character prompt type drawings. i can't be bothered with large projects (with 2+ characters + background... what a nightmare)

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Axes

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from motor controls.

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Acadia Street

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what is this?? (found on google maps)

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