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you know its dire when i’m considering calling my estranged father

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people are harassing that poor tumblr user over the Artfight Has A Misogyny Problem video which is so fucking stupid because if you just looked with your eyes you can SEE the disparity just by observation. you dont even need hard data for it. i have eyes. like why is anyone surprised the art community has a misogyny problem the entire world has a misogyny problem and we’re gonna pretend it doesnt happen during artfight……? okay let’s all just be stupid on purpose then.

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AND THEYRE AUTISTIC. ☝️

everyone in deltarune is transfem and theres nothing anyone can do to stop it

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everyone in deltarune is transfem and theres nothing anyone can do to stop it

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"you can't headcanon ralsei as a trans girl because he's feminine and that's stereotyping" and "you can't headcanon susie as a trans girl because she's masculine and that's stereotyping" are statements that were dreamed up by people who really don't want you to think of any characters as transfem. for some reason

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hello new followers. you have assumed i frequently post bangers, but you are mistaken. i have fooled you. this is my personal insanity diary. good luck.

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more people should be paying attention to what goes on in louisiana cause saying it’s “bad” does not do the top down complete utter corruption from state to parish to town level justice. EVERYTHING is awful. the louisiana government, every single one in charge, needs to be drawn and quartered.

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getting farther into the book and feeling sick after reading this paragraph and realizing this is not a tale of something that happened just in the 1880s but an account of an event still happening today in angola prison, currently, as in right now the prison still host these events annually in which black prisoners participate in violent events because of the chance to get $500 dollars as a reward, as most only earn 2 cent per hour of work

70% of the prison population at angola is black, and angola prison is one of the largest “convict leasing” prisons in america, as it was formerly a plantation, every liscense plate in louisiana is made by angola prisoners, louisiana also has the highest rates of wrongful conviction in america, with 78% of those wrongful convictions being found to be due to police not giving truthful information during ongoing cases, almost all of the money raised by visitors and tourist to see these events or go to the angola gift shop never even get touched by the prison population, shareholders still pushing convict leasing keep the money for themselves, a literal live minstrel show and factory still running just as it did from its creation, where only the owners and correctional team (which is 80% white) see profit

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love my bus driver. shoutout mr kevin

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i am very adamant about dying on this particular hill because i do think it is every adult’s responsibility to make the internet a safer place for the children that access it, because i have seen and been through what happens when that responsibility is not taken seriously.

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it's really irritating that any nuanced discussion of depictions of CSA in media has been boiled down to people's right to jack off to it. like. i am the kind of person where stories about CSA (in the case that they are well-written) personally resonate with me, for reasons you can probably extrapolate. i am not saying these stories don't deserve to exist, because i hold the strong opinion that they should, and i disagree with the notion that it shouldn't exist at all. but there is a stark difference between stories like Lilya4Ever and Lolita which ask you to analyze the circumstances that lead to CSA and asks you to sympathize with the victims and pure jackoff fantasies posted on AO3. and people die on peculiar hills to argue that "fiction doesn't affect reality" when it's been constantly proven over and over that it does, in many different scenarios. (an example would be racist propaganda. yes, in that case, "fiction" does affect reality. to make the claim that fictional works do not influence the world they are made for is in itself ignorant and shows a lack of understanding of. most things to be honest.)

in the specific circumstance of what i will call "fictional child porn", drawn or written depictions of children in sexual situations, it is frequently and often used to normalize adult/child relationships with real children on the internet. source: it happened to me. and anyone else that has been groomed online by predatory adults using this material can attest to it. positive depictions of children in sexual situations, or children in relationships with adults, or what have you can and is used to "normalize" the idea of child/adult relationships within a vulnerable child's mind. this leads directly to that child being preyed upon, because the boundaries between children and adults start to break down, and that child will start to believe that this kind of dynamic - where an adult can and should have sexual relationships with children - is fine and normal and nothing's wrong. anyone who acts like this does not happen lives in a fantasy world. if you produce "fictional child porn", whether written or drawn, you are in fact directly complicit in this. take some responsibility for it. (but you won't.) i think the mechanisms to which fictional child porn is used to damage real children is not discussed enough nor in enough detail.

to conclude, this website has a genuine child predator problem and some of you need to be taken out back and shot. if you produce and encourage the production of fictional child porn i do not fundamentally respect you as a human being, because you would rather put your own "right" to masturbate to the idea of children in sexually exploitive situations over the safety of real kids on the internet. full stop, that's the end of the argument - the people that product this content do not actually care about the safety of children in any capacity, even if they want to pretend that they do, and are actively contributing to the harm of children on the internet.

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i was talking to my girlfriend about this some time ago. i dont really speak to my mom anymore. for obvious reasons. but there are alot of things that rubbed off on me. i know alot about basic first aid and cpr. i know alot about the nitty gritty of the reproductive system, of the endocrine system, of anatomy and organs and just. the works. i read medical textbooks for fun as a child. i havent had to put any of it into practice, but i remember what she taught me. i once knew how to operate an x-ray machine. i’ve forgotten since.

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yesterday was the peak of the heat wave for us. i was close to tears and had to watch a manager kick a homeless woman out for taking shelter. i wish i couldve done anything to stop it. but then i saw a random customer, a mom with a young kid, helping this other homeless woman. i watched her help pay for her groceries. i watched as she brought them to her car - she was giving her a ride this whole time. i overheard her advising this lady on cheap apartments, where they are, what the requirements are. i could hear the tenderness and care in her voice when she said it’s too hot for you outside. and i started bawling on my break seeing this. g-d there is cruelty in your world but there are angels too and they come in the form of this random interaction between two strangers.

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I wanted to share something i realized in therapy which is that everything i like actually fits together into a coherent category of good things while everything i dislike and think is bad also shares the same coherency, as if there are two superimposed worlds of good things and bad things, each fluently interconnected within its respective moral alignment, but never intersecting, such that each remains pure. for some reason only me and my friends able to discern between them but it will be okay as long as everyone instantly accepts everything i say as true. by the way i wanted to ask that no one tag this as a fictional character or public figure that they are psychosexually fascinated with as it is my unique subjective experience and very personal to me so saying it's like someone from a tv show or podcast or something attacks my basic sense of self and reality and it very often sends me into a paranoid spiral when i see these comments. Ok thanks

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same with having a lazy eye. like. does anyone understand. what alot of people think of as “weird” “scary” character design they think of people who look exactly like me sometimes :(

i kind of hate that most people are judgmental about teeth. i see it with character designs where “evil” and “scary” characters have teeth that. look like mine. that are crooked, or grow in differently, or have cavities. like. im not going to lie. it really, really does get to me. when people think of “ugly” teeth they think of something like mine.

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i kind of hate that most people are judgmental about teeth. i see it with character designs where “evil” and “scary” characters have teeth that. look like mine. that are crooked, or grow in differently, or have cavities. like. im not going to lie. it really, really does get to me. when people think of “ugly” teeth they think of something like mine.

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Billions will die in the fruitless pursuit of me lucky charms