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congratulations me!

I'm about to do something, I don't often do. Just a little bit of self pimp and congratulations to me:

Just checked my Ao3 stats. As of this moment I have 8600 kudos. Now for some of you, with the amazing stories with that many and more kudos for one story, that doesn't sound like a lot. Considering I've not posted anything new since 2/21/22 and prior to that was 4/09/2021, I am damned happy with that with that 8600 kudos count.

Thank you and good night.

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HP longer fics recs : more than 200k words

Here are a few longer fics recs. Posted in alphabetical, order as always.

Black, in the Smothering Dark by @lol-zeitgeistic [101k]

Harry Potter is rescued from the Dursleys and spends the summer with his god…father? This is the prequel to The Hush of War. Beta’d by giesha_kitten/laureen.

The Hush of War by @lol-zeitgeistic [351k]

Voldemort has made a bargain with Harry to stop killing muggles and muggle-borns (when at all possible, of course) in exchange for Harry’s cooperation. While Harry thinks he’s using the time to find a way to defeat the Dark Lord, he will realize that Voldemort is always one step ahead, and so long as he isn’t killing anyone…what’s the big deal? He has bigger things to worry about now, anyway. Includes dementors, pureblood culture, the prophecy, what exactly happened with Lily’s sacrifice, magical breakthroughs, children Death Eaters, and portraits of family. Final pairing: H/D. Sequel to Black, in the Smothering Dark.

Can’t Get You Out of My Head by @femmequixotic [14k]

After he sees Harry Potter naked in the Auror showers once, Draco can’t stop thinking about him.

Lost In Your Arms by @femmequixotic [257k]

Three months after their brief encounter, Draco has almost forgotten about Potter–or so he tells himself. Then a Dark wizard shows up on the Auror radar and all hell breaks loose. Draco will have to choose between everything he holds dear–everything he’s worked so hard for–and a few stolen moments of passion with a certain green-eyed Inspector, once his sworn enemy and now something rather different entirely. He’ll make the right choice, won’t he?

Who is he kidding? He’ll ruin everything, as per usual. Bad choices and the name Malfoy go hand in hand.

These Secrets In Me by @femmequixotic [357k]

Auror Special Branch team seven-four-alpha–Sergeant Draco Malfoy, Constable Pansy Parkinson, and Constable Blaise Zabini led by their SIO, Inspector Harry Potter–must handle personal and political fallout from the implication of Ministry employees and Aurors in the scandal around escaped Death Eaters and a Dementor uprising at Azkaban. On top of that, their original target, Antonin Dolohov, is in the wind.

With all the ruckus, it’s a good thing they have help from Unspeakable Hermione Granger, American Unspeakable, Legilimens, and Harry’s recent ex, Jake Durant, Blaise’s legendary necromancer grandfather, Barachiel Dee, and his potions expert mother, Olivia Zabini. What could possibly go wrong with an army of best friends, ex-lovers, and family? Especially when you add the strong-willed Parkinson clan to the mix.

Meanwhile, troubling new leads arise, taking Our Team in a surprising direction.

And Draco, still hiding his relationship with his SIO from the upper echelons of the Auror force, is definitely not falling in love with Harry Potter along the way. Not at all. Don’t be ridiculous.

Dare To Think by @femmequixotic [388k]

After recent events in New York, Seven-Four-Alpha are set to return back to London. They’ve captured their primary target, but by no means settled their case. They’ve still got rogue Dementors at Azkaban, prying investigators from Luxembourg, and a far larger Death Eater threat to manage, not to mention pressure from their own higher ups. Draco is reeling from his loss, and Harry is trying to be the best boyfriend he can, which may mean not being Draco’s guv any longer. Harry’s uncertain what his team’ll find as they press deeper in the investigation, but he knows they will all be tested, perhaps more than they can bear.

But they haven’t a choice, have they? It’s the bloody Death Eaters, after all, and the political integrity of Wizarding Britain and their magical allies hangs in the balance.

Set Me Free by @femmequixotic [196k] *Incomplete

Seven-Four-Alpha are back in London with available resources of the Ministry tracking their every move. Draco Malfoy remains lost, last seen in Thibodaux, Louisiana, as MACUSA was closing in. Harry is raging, barely in control of his magic, and the rest of the team are battered and unsure. Their recent failure haunts them, as does the spectre of a MACUSA-Ministry alliance under the control of the Quahog administration and its shadow puppetmaster, Aldric Yaxley. The Dementor crisis with Luxembourg is brewing in the background, as is a conflict with Rodolphus Lestrange. And that’s not even mentioning the bargain Blaise struck with Death to return his cup. The team have very little energy or resources for one fight, much less several of this magnitude simultaneously.

Should they fail, though, political tyranny will grip both sides of the Atlantic and evils recently banished may return. Each of them is fighting for something they hold dear, but no victory comes without a price. Still, desperate situations call for desperate measures, and desperation appears to be all they have.

Changing of the Guard by Lomonaaeren [210k]

Need a perfect stranger? Ask Metamorphosis. Harry Potter runs the business secretly and becomes whoever’s needed for each occasion. He’s not sure whether he should be more surprised, worried, or amused when Draco Malfoy comes to Metamorphosis and requests an actor who can play his boyfriend so that his parents will disown him. Yet Harry has even more dangerous choices after he creates Brian, Draco’s “perfect” boyfriend. Draco doesn’t know who Brian is, but he’s trying to find out—and now so is Harry.

Double Edged Sword by @romaine2424  [554k]

Harry thinks his life has been planned out, but the night he comes of age changes everything.  Now there are decisions to be made and a path to be chosen, and the choices before him will change the lives of everyone he knows.  But when destiny calls, Harry finds himself ready to listen.

This is an epic story of the love between Harry and Draco.  Join them as they journey through their life together, through the good times and the bad, facing obstacles both external and internal, and see how they come to be who they were meant to be.

Eclipse by Mijan [287k]

“You’re dead, Potter… I’m going to make you pay…”

Draco swore his revenge on Harry for Lucius’s imprisonment, and Harry all but laughed at him. But Draco is planning more than schoolyard pranks this time. The old rivalry turns deadly when Draco abducts Harry for Voldemort. It’s the perfect plan, guaranteeing revenge, power, and prestige, all in one blow. But when Draco’s world turns upside down, the fight to save himself and Harry begins, and the battle will take them both through hell and back. If they come back.

Left My Heart by @emmagrant01 [85k]

Auror Draco Malfoy has disappeared, and Harry Potter has been sent to San Francisco to find him. (Post-Hogwarts, set in February, 2004. Written before Half-Blood Prince was released.)

Surrender the Grey by @emmagrant01 [151k]

Draco Malfoy returns to London after five years of self-imposed exile to start a new life with Harry. But will the secrets of the past destroy everything they’ve worked for?  Sequel to “Left My Heart”.

Men Who Love Dragons Too Much by @fencer-x [479k]

[Extensive  re-telling of Deathly Hallows] As in Half-blood Prince, Draco is charged by Voldemort with killing Dumbledore—only instead of trying to  do his best with the challenge, he realizes he’s been set a futile task  and focuses on finding a way to save both himself and his parents. He  eventually decides to spend his sixth year studying Animagecraft,  convinced it’s his best shot at escaping the impossible situation he’s  found himself in. But just his luck, his Animagus form turns out to be a  dragon, and a rather randy juvenile at that, intent on finding its  mate: one Harry James Potter.

Objects of Desire by Azrael Geffen [400k+]

The dream team sign a magical contract promising to lose their virginities within the year, they soon fix on the objects of their desires, but will the bitterness left in the wake of the war prove too hurtful for love to exist?

Per Solum Lacuna: By Words Alone by Azhure [560k]

A set of enchanted journals bring solace to two very unlikely lost   souls. Whoever said the art of penmanship was lost? This is a wizarding twist on the old fashioned art of correspondence (or the modern art of Internet chatting). What will happen when the mystery writers finally   discover the identity of their counterpart? Join this star crossed pair as they obliviously chat to each other; along the way learning about   life and love. Find out what will happen when their own voyages of self discovery lead them to the most unlikely of places. This is eventual   HP/DM, but other pairings for the protagonists along their journey.

Reparations by Saras_Girl [87k]

Harry is about to discover that the steepest learning curve comes after Healer training, and that second chances can be found in unexpected places.

Foundations by Saras_Girl [236k]

When one door closes, another one opens – with a bit of a push. Life, love and complications. [sequel to Reparations]

Turn by Saras_Girl [306k]

One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.

Twist of Fate by Oakstone730 [302k]

Draco asks Harry to help him beat the Imperius curse during 4th year. The lessons turn into more than either expected. A story of redemption and forgiveness.

Underwater Light by Maya [200k+]

Featuring  an extremely depressed Harry, in a war-torn wizarding world, about to get the shock of his life when he discovers that Draco Malfoy is slightly more important to him than he would have ever guessed.  Including a very odd friendship, lots of angst, suspicions, conflicted  loyalties, clueless Ron, on-the-warpath Hermione and two very messed-up  boys.

I hope you enjoy these stories as much as I did!

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@romaine2424, thank you for the tag. Sorry I’m late in replying, and sorry I may have gone a bit deep in my self-reflection and ‘author notes’

First lines of WIP’s

Tears mixing with the rain that dripped down his face and hair, Scorpius stood in front of the door before he reached up to knock.  (James/Scorpius)

Albus pushed open the door, the bell that hung over it tinkling as he walked into <i>Time after Time </i>. (Draco/Albus)

“Harry, have you seen Draco?”  Ron, the Alpha asked.  (Dronarry)

Harry pushed open the door to the Hogshead. (Harry/Dennis/Colin)

“Are you sure?”(Draco/Albus)

Motionlessly the man watched from his usual place, as the young man writhed on the bed, in pain and agony.   (Harry/Snape) (Harry/Draco) (Harry/Draco/Snape)

I have about 8 more fics in progress, but these are the only ones  that actually have more written words to add. I’ve a lot with notes and ideas and things to be sure and include, but no words yet. Also the posted fics that are TBC, there are no new words to any of those either. I’ve been in a real writing slump now for many months, years even.  All I can successfully manage is to move the words around, substitute one word for another, but there’s nothing new.

I’ve been MIA from Tumblr for about 2 months now. It had just become a place that wasn’t bringing me a lot of joy.  I hesitated to respond to the tag, but @romaine2424 did actually name me in the tag and it wasn’t one of the blanket “if you’ve not done this, consider yourself tagged” sorts. I have a real issue in responding to those types. Always feel I’m crashing a party I wasn’t really invited to.

Fandom and finding my place in it has been a struggle for the last few years. Who am I kidding, its’ been a struggle for a lot longer than that. I don’t feel I seem to fit anywhere. I’m not a prolific writer, nor an exceptionally good one. Not necessarily bad, just don’t seem to fit into the current popular fandom place of Tumblr, though I do continue to receive kudos on a daily basis on Ao3. They are seldom, if ever from anyone I know on Tumblr.  I don’t do recs. Hell, I barely even comment, which I know is not the way to ‘make friends and influence people’. . Only every time I try to comment or think of doing any sort of rec, my brain becomes filled with things like: ‘Gah, what a lame comment to leave’, or ‘someone else already said that, and said it a lot better’ and one of my all-time favourites, ‘no one wants to hear what you have to say’. All ridiculous thoughts, I realise but I haven’t been able to push past them. 

my turn to add tags, tagging @ladderofyears,@reliand, @citrusses, @astridastrolabe, @hey-flynn, @firethesound, and of course, 'anyone who wants to play'

10 First Lines Tag Game

Thanks, @the-francakes! You should peep her list, especially I WANNA SEE SOME ASS

Rules: share the first lines of ten of your most recent fanfics and tag ten people. If you have written less than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway

Extra Rule Vuk Added for Herself: Only use first lines from unpublished WIPs. For spice.

Something is following me home from St Jerome’s graveyard. 

Draco eased the car to a stop, frowned, and muttered the street names under his breath.

"Black coffee, no room for-"

“Heralds!” Queen Zenobia’s hand, a spearpoint of sun-bronzed skin, pointed at the splintered gate of Alexandria.  “Go!”

There surely existed a molecular weight to consciousness, Draco mused.

Astoria Athena Greengrass was created for war, conceived to protect her darling older sister.

January 2nd, also known as Hair of the Crup Day in Wizarding London, was fast becoming Fall Asleep on Your Desk Day in Harry’s office.

"So," Ron said, setting a pair of beer bottles on the table, "when are you gonna make an honest man of him?"

"I'm gay."

10. The Shrike Sylvia Plath When night comes black Such royal dreams beckon this man As lift him apart From his earth-wife's side To wing, sleep-feathered, The singular air, While she, envious bride, Cannot follow after, but lies With her blank brown eyes starved wide, Twisting curses in the tangled sheet With taloned fingers, Shaking in her skull's cage The stuffed shape of her flown mate

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Tagging @mintawasalreadytaken @oknowkiss @kbrick @peachpety

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People seem to not know how old writers are when they make their stories.

Stephanie Meyer wrote Twilight in 2003, at age 29

Cassandra Clare started writing Mortal Instruments in 2004, at age 31

Rick Riordan published Percy Jackson & the Olympians, the book about 12yrolds, at age 41

George R. R. Martin published A Game of Thrones, at age 48

You can’t even use the “but fanfiction isn’t real writing” argument because of how many fanfiction turn movies there is. They are clearly enough of a story to be made into published books.

Anna Renee Todd’s After series was a Harry Styles fanfiction, which was published in 2014, when she was 25

E.L. James Fifty Shades of Grey series was a Twilight fanfiction, which was published in 2011, when she was 48

Mortal Instruments was a Harry Potter fanfiction.

Why must they act like After someone turns 20 their life ends, like people can’t have hobbies???

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Nobody tells you that 90% of being a fic writer is telling yourself sternly that you CANNOT start a new wip until you finish one of the old ones, and then failing to write anything at all as your brain sulks like a toddler.

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i want to see old men with full beards learning ballet and i want to see terrible art from people in their 30s who have only just got their first tablet and i want to see mothers picking up their old hobbies from before they were told it wasn’t okay to have hobbies and i want to see people in their early 20s figuring out how to be alive by making bad music in their bedrooms and i want zines to be handmade paper pamphlets of devotion and i want creation to be fun again instead of a competition where we all have to monetise joy until we lose the invaluable currency of unashamed love again

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For @drarrymicrofic’s prompt ‘truth’. And for @nv-md @lou-isfake and @academicdisasterfic

Melting Draco/Harry Rated: G (I know right?) Words: ~235 Draco lingered by the fire, and Harry stood on the deck, faced away, looking out. Draco watched him through the glass. Watched him stand tall, having gained an inch of height here somehow, away from the city, from work, from Grimmauld, from the Manor, the country itself, all of it. He stood there for a long time, and Draco wondered what he was thinking, watching the movement of grey and then gold clouds over a lake at once pristine and then murky and then more clear and true than it had been in the first place. The snow sat on the pines, a silent, white insulation, dropping here and there under its own weight, a new splash of sun. The melt was slow, asymmetrical. Draco sometimes startled from it, great bundles of snow falling from the high eaves. Harry didn’t. Draco prodded at the fire with the poker and shivered with warmth. His gaze travelled back to Harry, his brightness, his bold, quiet presence. And this time, Harry felt it, pivoting around, away from the view and whatever his thoughts had been. He met Draco’s gaze through the glass. His lips did that thing. The thing that turned Draco’s heart, like Harry held it in his hand. Draco warmed still more, from the centre of his body out to his fingers. Harry stood smiling at him, tall and true, and Draco let himself be loved. (Also on AO3 if you like.)

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There is NOTHING I love better than slutty Harry.

I almost never post snippets...

But I wrote a lot today and I am so excited about this one.

So many people tagged me so conisder yourself tagged back in any meme you wish to do (I am completely serious about this). 

This is a new thing I’ve started, Drarry endgame, but a very different Harry from the way I usually write him. I’m thinking this Harry is going to be messy (meaning this snippet references him sleeping with other people so if that’s not your jam, feel free to look away!) Also this is SOOC, aka not really edited AT ALL so who knows what the final product will look like?!

“Malfoy,” Potter says and lets his head tilt back to rest against the wall. “I assume you have a reason for barging in at the crack of dawn?”

“Dawn was two and a half hours ago,” Draco says, “and management has called you in for ten o’clock. You need to sign this MB-NDA, and then we need to get you cleaned up,” here he casts a considering eye over the way Potter is slumped against the pillows. “Sobered up,” he amends, “and then cleaned up and dressed so we’ll be on time. Pansy will meet us there.”

Potter frowns and runs a hand over his bare chest. Draco heroically does not stare. 

“What? Why does management want me to come in?”

Draco glances around the messy room and then at the man sitting next to Potter, listening avidly.

“Oh, I don’t know,” Draco says sarcastically. “Maybe it has something to do with the fact that you fucked a member of a team you are not only in direct competition with but are actually playing against in three fucking days. Not to mention the fact that you were filmed leaving the Gilded with both said competitor and Myla Barnes, for what the public will most assuredly assume was a wild and debauched threesome.”

“Yeah it was,” Heikkinen mutters, as Potter winces.

“Okay, yes, I can see why they might have some concerns about how it looks.”

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Exactly. Let them be as evil as they want. They ain't real.

“apologist.” “critical.” y’all are doing too much. when my favorite characters do evil reprehensible shit I simply don’t fucking care cause it’s not real

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Sending Hate Hurts Fandom

I don't really care if you like me or not. I don't care if you think others are better than me. You are entitled to your feelings. And while I think there's a better use of your time than sending me (and others) hate and bullying people, that's not why getting hate infuriates me so much.

When you send hate you actively make fandom an unsafer place for everyone. Not just for me. For everyone.

Every new writer, every new artist, every lurker, every reader, every shy person and everyone who doesn't feel secure is going to see the words you say. Those words make it sound like this is what this fandom is like. People are going to take your words to heart. People will leave fandom. And you are responsible for that.

You may be jealous or insecure yourself. Or have something else happening that causes you to lash out. But this is not the way to deal with that. All you achieve is making this fandom into an unsafe space for people where they feel only a certain group of people and only certain kinds of people can belong in fandom. And that's going to hurt fandom. So maybe reconsider what you are trying to achieve here. If you want more praise, keep in mind at some point there will be no one left to praise you. If you want to see more fics and more art, make sure people will continue to want to make art. And not just the people you have deemed worthy.

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These are stunning.

i feel like we don’t talk about things like this enough

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some of y’all deadass forgot that the dark mark is a hate symbol…why tf are y’all treating it like an aesthetic my dude that shit legit represents blood purity are y’all that horny for a white twink that would spit on you if given the choice up until he was 17… like?? how fucking delusional does one person need to be to make excuses for a racist blood purist who would have to go through YEARS of self-reflection and consciously attempted growth before he would even be capable of making amends with the people he quite literally bullied for fucking years. like be so fucking honest with yourselves and THINK for longer then five fucking seconds and realize that this is not just a fucking little fantasy wizard book. this is a story that has comparisons to a real world system of oppression that the author had no idea what to do with. y’all like to treat it like draco said “oopsies i joined a facist group im so silly 🤭 but now they’re making me kill ppl and i don’t want to do that 🥺😩💔” when in reality this motherfucker was fully aware of the choice he was making and up until he realized he was a little bitch who couldn’t stand on what he said, he sure as hell talked his blood purist rhetoric until his pale ass face turned blue. i think y’all need to really take a moment to realize that for draco and harry to be together, draco has to do a lot of fucking growing and has to change. harry does not have to accept draco’s DE past as a part of him to the point of kissing a, once again, LITERAL HATE SYMBOL, because draco should be ashamed of that nasty ass fugly tattoo and cover it, the same way that in the real world u best not expect my jewish ass to kiss a fucking swatsika and instead expect the pasty ass motherfucker who got that tattoo to cover it up if they were really ashamed of it. whether you like to engage with canon or not, there are some things that cannot be removed from this story. jkr is a fucking dumb bitch who did not know what to do with the allegory she accidentally wrote into her story, but she became fully aware of the comparisons between DE blood purity and nazi rhetoric, so y’all need to be so fucking for real rn and get it together and realize that if you diminish draco’s choices and actions and culpability you are actively doing something harmful. thank y’all for nothing. goodnight.

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There are some things you can’t share without ending up liking each other, and defeating a dark lord is one of them…

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i love how delusional some articles of clothing are, like you read the tag and its like “hand wash only/tumble dry on low” son you are a cotton tshirt. youre going in the warsh and whatever happens in there is in gods hands

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