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I feel like this was you saying you’re gonna get piercings but my immediate thought was that you were going to like sweeny Todd me but with piercings

Bro I wish I would’ve been allowed to get more piercings over the summer cause I think it would’ve been really funny if I showed up to school the first day with like twelve new holes

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this is how it feels to get reblogged by rp blogs

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Bro I wish I would’ve been allowed to get more piercings over the summer cause I think it would’ve been really funny if I showed up to school the first day with like twelve new holes

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I thought we all already know Satan couldn’t spell for shit

I'm actually just an evil femme-boy twink trapped in a teenage girls body

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why do the words caregiver and caretaker mean the same thing. Shouldn't they be rival jobs that undo each others progress

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before you beat yourself up for not cleaning, ask yourself:

is there a proper place to put the things you're tidying up?

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satan, you should do a note game!!

I'm scared to but sure uhm uhm uhm

100 notes - I'll learn another song on piano

300 notes (I'm skipping 200) - I'll try to drink water more often (this seems like a popular thing to put)

500 - I'll ACTUALLY try and to stuff about OC world building and all THAT PAZAZ

1,000 - I'll share all that OC stuff

5,000 - I'll clean my room

10,000 - I'll CLEAN my room

It's really short and I have no hope

Go chat go..?

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I miss my husband

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i just think remus and janus fist bump way too much. one makes a comment the other likes ? fist bump. one makes a joke ? fist bump. they cause a little chaos ? fist bump.

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Cw: Talks about depression, anxiety, sleep deprivation, insecurity (general and around asexuality)

Hey y’all

I’m genuinely going insane and i can’t talk to anyone cause everyone else is a sleep so this is going into the tumblr void 😀

I’ve felt just generally pretty bad recently. I think a big part of it is the fact that I just haven’t been able to fall asleep. It’d been going on for like three weeks, I think I only stayed up all night a few times but in cases where I am sleeping I’m getting to bed at like 11 and I’m actually falling asleep at like 4 am. Idk why this is happening I literally changed no part of my routine. The only thing is that I wanted to fix my sleep schedule before the school year but I wasn’t able to shift shit at all since I can’t fucking sleep.

It hasn’t even done anything to me that I’ve noticed whic worries me cause knowing how much my body fucking hates me the lack of sleeps gonna kick me right in the nuts once school actually starts up.

For the most part shit like my depression hasn’t even been worse. It was bad on Saturday (I don’t remember if it was this week or last week everything is blurrring together lol) but it hasn’t been bad outside of that. I’m not even like tired at all and I’ve tried taking shit to make me sleep it’s not helping. I was tired for the first time in a while today at like 8:30 but I tired to sleep and still couldn’t.

My anxiety’s been worse. Defiantly noticed that lol. I think part of it is that I’m mainly texting people and anyone one who know me can attested to the fact that my anxiety is so insanely bad when I text people.

I’ve also just been really insecure lately which has been fun. I think part of it was just a convo I had with someone really close to me but I also think the exhaustion is making it hit a lot harder lol. Also I was randomly like freaking out about my asexuality and like how the people in my life feel about it which was so fun. There was literally no reason for my brain to do that but i think since its just another thing I’m already insecure about my brain figured it’d be a good time to just throw it at me and see what happens lol.

I don’t even know what I can do at this point outside of just like exhausting myself to the point where my body and brain have no choice but to let me sleep. Idk it feels like my body’s on the brink of collapse but I still can’t sleep. It’s not even like I have racing thoughts or anything I just can’t sleep. I feel like I’m just waiting for my depression to figure out I’m not functioning so it can start yelling at me too. Idk what I’m gonna do. I hate everything. I don’t know what my brains gonna do to me. I might go radio silent for a while but I doubt that’ll help anything.

sorry if I ruined anyone’s day but I needed to tell someone. I just I can’t do this shit right now.

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loser

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YA I ONLY PISS ON BILLIONAIRES

I am SICK and TIRED of seeing so much hate towards Al! Al hasn't done ANYTHING to hurt ANYONE! Al is harmless!

But I can already hear the Al haters out there!

"Al isn't original!" No shit, Sherlock! That's what we love the most about Al.

"People aren't supposed to look like that!" That sounds like a problem between you and God, and frankly, plenty of people like the way Al looks.

"Al is just too WEIRD!" Have you ever thought that you might be to NORMAL to actually appreciate Al?

I think you all need to apologize to Al right now!

APOLOGIZE TO HIM

APOLOGIZE TO WEIRD AL RIGHT NOW!

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Ohhh that makes more sense

I think it’s so funny when my husband freaks out on faer autocorrect. Like it’ll change what fae said into something foul and fae’s quick to freak out and correct it and it’s like dude, my dyslexic ass read it as what you meant so it’s chill. I didn’t realize it fucked up until you said something lol

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Dinner -w-

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Like I said I read it as sweaty and I didn’t realize it was wrong till like way after you corrected it

I think it’s so funny when my husband freaks out on faer autocorrect. Like it’ll change what fae said into something foul and fae’s quick to freak out and correct it and it’s like dude, my dyslexic ass read it as what you meant so it’s chill. I didn’t realize it fucked up until you said something lol

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I like mommy long legs and gum disease :)

Oh you're a queer kid? what's your fav music artist? and don't say...

will wood

will wood and the tapeworms

Tally hall

Miracle musical

mitski

jackstuber

joe hawley

that handsome devil

chonny jash

tom leher

ghost and pals

maretu

6arelyhuman

odetari

penelope scott

rio romeo

cuarteto de nos

riki musso

santiago tavella

laufey

taylor swift

radiohead

marina

weezer

the beatles

tv girl

billie ellish

milk in the microwave

bo burnham

fish in a birdcage

toby fox

lemon demon

sarah and the safe word

asteria

artic monkeys

they might be giants

my chemical romance

green day

gorillaz

ado

melanie martinez

the strokes

evanecense

glass animals

soddiken

the scary jokes

whatever Your favorite martian was smoking

tyler, the creator

the crane wives

the living tombstone

cavetown

mindless self indulgance

the orion experience

hamilton (yeah ik its a musical)

heathers (yeah ik its a musical x2)

ride the cyclone (YEAH IK ITS A MUSICAL x3)

steam powered giraffe

kiuko (i dont remember how its spelled)

21 pilots

Sir Chloe

hazbin hotel soundtrack

paparrapa the rapper soundtrack

sonic soundtrack

or the omori soundtrack

edit: just to make clear that i don't know every queer band on existence

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I think it’s so funny when my husband freaks out on faer autocorrect. Like it’ll change what fae said into something foul and fae’s quick to freak out and correct it and it’s like dude, my dyslexic ass read it as what you meant so it’s chill. I didn’t realize it fucked up until you said something lol