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we as a society don't have enough aaron x kenji fics, like pls tell me I'm not the only one who sees it anywayyy warnimoto 4 life

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WHERE WAS "you here to finish me off, sweetheart?" PEETA??? HUHH

as much as i love the movies i will forever be mad that they erased how flirty and charming peeta was beyond the capitol interviews.

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im so sick of people saying Sabrina's new album cover is misogynistic or "male gaze-y" or that she's trying to portray herself as submissive. it's so obviously critizicizing how men view their wives and girlfriends and how they treat them as dogs, I mean that's what the album is named, "Man's Best Friend". Not to mention that her new song "manchild" was about male weaponized incompetence, so why would she release an album with the exact opposite message? I guess I can understand how it was difficult to comprehend but come onnn do we lack critical thinking skills..

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MORE WATCH ME MEMES BECAUSE THESE GUYS LIVE RENT FREE IN MY HEAD SINCE APRIL 15TH!!

No spoiler warning here because it's been almost 2 months now, we read the book

Part 1 of these memes

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tahereh mafi probably hates all the ai "fan art" in the shatter me fandom (tabbiesart, I hate it sm)

One of the best things mother Mafi could've done in this book is be anti ai and make Aaron anti ai and that's exactly what she did

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The crux of the anti trans movement is a war on bodily autonomy. They don't want you to have any agency over what you look like, how you dress, who you date, whether to have kids, etc.

They want total control over you. Not just trans people. Not just queer people. You. Everyone.

Trans people are just a scapegoat. They want total control over everyone's self expression. They want the right to mold you into their perfect little cog in their dehumanizing machine.

Happy Trans Day of Visibility. Our rights are your rights. Our destruction is your destruction.

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The mockingbird, the jabberjay and the mockingjay 🕊️ inspired by this post by @fromevertonow

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AHHH MY BABIES LOOK WHAT JUST ARRIVED

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HAS ANYONE HERE READ SEE ME ON WATTPAD 😭😭 CUZ IT JUST ENDED AND IM NOT OKAY 😭😭

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haymitch seeing a bunny: "how could I possibly kill a creature that brings to mind my girl?" 🥺

snow seeing mockingjays:

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meanest girl in town

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Quote from Catching Fire.

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A new snippet of WATCH ME (via Tahereh Mafi on Instagram)

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Republicans deliberately use coded language to trick people to vote for them and radicalize their group. Many don't even realize they're radicalized or what they're saying is even racist. This is why they think the Left is "over reacting" because the either know they're using coded language and don't care, or they don't know anything at all.

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AHH A SNEAK PEEK OF WATCH ME

(JAMES AND WARNER!!!!)

I’m actually going to cry 😭 Aaron actually loves James so much ahhhhhhh!!!!

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oh my god?? this is soo good

i have some weird obsession (ANGST!!) with all the supreme commanders and anderson's backstory and HOW they came to be the way they are, like more details than what was provided for us in the sm series

i really hope that in Watch Me learn a bit more abt Anderson's backstory somehow through James

Anderson's backstory - headcanon

Warning: CW real life abuse story as inspiration/light bulb moment. Some real medical horror. Tons of Spoilers, obviously.

This is the headcanon that I’m using for my fanfics. I thought I’d share before Watch me drops Anderson trivia that would upheave everything I ever worked for :')

Some backstory to the backstory headcanon:

When I read Imagine me and I understood that we were going to be spending a lot of time with Anderson, I was stoked. Finally, would we be getting some backstory to him?!

Then we got to this bit:

“My mother used to force bleach down my throat. Ammonia. Whatever she could find under the sink. It was never enough to kill me”, he says, […] “Just enough to torture me for all eternity.” […] “You might say that I lost my appetite.”

It horrified me (and kind of excited me, because ANGST). It reminded me of The child called ‘It’ (which is a completely made up story apparently, in case you didn’t know, but still pure nightmare fuel). I didn’t really think about the implications though. I made Anderson put a padlock on the cupboard beneath the sink in all my contemporary fics. That was it.

Then, in 2023, there was a child abuse case in the news here in Sweden. The short version is that a young girl had been forced by her parents to drink vinegar. The strong kind. The damage was so severe her stomach has had to be surgically removed.

And that’s how I found out how truly horrible this injury is. In case you didn’t know (And I'm warning you again, real life medical horror): If you drink acid (what have you, bleach, vinegar), it can literally melt your esophagus all the way down to your stomach. And if you survive, you don’t get a new one. Instead, you have surgery to have your small intestine connected to your esophagus. Apparently people can usually eat normal food after recovering, but in small portions and more often.

So here’s what I came up with for Anderson:

Paris Anderson is raised by his single mother. He has two siblings, one older and one younger. The eldest, a sister, is favorized by the mother the point where she abuses Paris and the youngest sibling, but thinks the eldest is perfect in every single way possible.

Paris' mother forces him to drink bleach and ammonia regularly. At first, it doesn’t hurt him enough to require a hospital visit. At school, his symptoms can be passed off as a cold. But one day, Mrs. Anderson goes too far, and Paris is rushed to the ER.

It’s there that the years of abuse come to light. His esophagus and stomach are so badly damaged that he needs extensive reconstruction surgery. (That’s what I talked about further up.) He’s placed into the care of social services and never sees his mother or siblings again.

Paris grows up in foster care, bouncing between homes for a while. Eventually, he ends up with a strict foster father—let’s call him Johnsson. A military veteran who runs a bootcamp for all the boys in his care. Unlike some other foster parents, Johnsson treats Paris no differently than the others despite his medical condition, and Paris thrives. He loves the routine, the discipline, and the way he and the other boys are constantly pitted against each other. Paris isn’t the biggest nor the strongest, but he is fast and calculating.

When he turns of age and is forced out of foster care, Paris, following Johnsson’s advice, applies to the military. Training is the only life he knows, after all. But his medical history gets in the way, and he’s rejected.

Undeterred, Paris applies for an experimental study aimed at improving transplant success rates. (They clone organs. That's it.) It’s there that he meets Maximilian, a PhD student in genetic engineering from New Zealand, who’s in the US because of the country’s more lenient laws regarding experimental treatments. As they work together on the project, they become close—arguably best friends. (But Paris would never admit to that…!) Thanks to Max’s genius, the treatment is a success, and Paris receives a new esophagus and stomach.

Paris doesn’t give up on his military dream. With his new body and renewed determination, he reapplies, excels in training, and rises through the ranks. He makes the right connections and becomes an elite soldier.

But despite his success, Paris hasn’t confronted the trauma of his past. Now that the physical marks of his abuse have healed, he finds himself turning to alcohol. In a strange moment of reflection, he realizes that the burn of alcohol on his throat reminds him eerily of the ammonia he was forced to drink.

He keeps his relationship with Max, and is soon allowed into the world of the RE, where he quickly proves his worth by finding the classified files of the military. He becomes their attack dog, taking care of anything (or rather, anyone) that will stand in the way of the success of the RE.

It doesn’t take long before he is matched/eloped with Leila Warner. They have a son, Aaron. They allowed the baby to be genetically modified by Evie. (Which is why, later in life, Paris is convinced there’s something genetically wrong with Aaron. That Evie somehow programmed him to fall in love with Juliette.) Paris is ecstatic. His son will never experience the hardships of his own childhood. No, Paris will make sure he is strong.

However, something is still missing from his life. Paris wants to be loved. He doesn’t love Leila. She’s a means to an end: a son; an heir. Somehow, somewhere, he meets Ms Kent (I like to name her Catherine in my fics). The romance is intense. Finally, Paris feels completed. Ms Kent is his other half. He doesn’t want kids though, because as it was decreed from his own childhood: You cannot love more than one child. – Because at the end of the day, Paris does think that he loves Aaron. In his own twisted way.

We all know what happens once Ms Kent dies. Paris goes off the rails in grief. He becomes an alcoholic. - Before he drank to cope with his childhood trauma, but Catherine's death sends him into a new kind of darkness. - He starts abusing Adam. Continues his work with the RE and they get into office, then once Juliette accidently kills that child Paris orchestrates the most dramatic love triangle known to mankind.

And that's it. What do you think? :)