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when they jonas brothers were like “i came from the year 3000..not much has changed but they live underwater..” that was a politically charged remark about climate change and we all ignored it

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All. The. Time.

1. When was the last time someone saw you naked? April 28

2. If you could bring someone back from the dead and spend an hour with them, who would it be and what would you do/say? My Grandmother. I would drive her through the car was and let her pick out an ice cream, like she always did for me and my sisters. I would tell her I got straight A’s last semester, the semester she encouraged me to go back to college. I would say I love you.

3. What is the greatest loss you’ve endured? Certainly my grandmother. 

4. How would you describe your current mood? Exhausted. Heavy.

5. When was the last time you did something you were embarrassed by? Last night I was so loopy and awkward around my boyfriend, which I shouldn’t feel embarrassed around him but I do. I made it worse by telling him I felt embarrassed about being nervous and that took it up to the 1000000000th knotch

6. What was the last thing you lied about? When someone asked “How are you”

7. Where is your favorite place to have sex? Only place I have done it is a bed, I have nothing to compare it to. I’ve always wanted to have sex in a car though

8. What is your earliest memory? Tall carpet and a step down ledge. there was one loose brick in the driveway that i had to make a sharp turn to avoid as I was riding on my big wheel trike. 

9. Do you ever drink or get high alone? Frequently

10. What type of a drunk are you? Eccentric. It’s a silly spiral

11. What song (or a few songs, whatever) means a lot to you and why? Whatsername by Green Day - It’s always had a magical affect on me; as soon as I hear the song start it puts me in a trance and every sense in my being is directed on its sound.

This is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco - His voice, ohh his voice. My angel, saving me from myself. This song is empowering, it is my anthem.

12. When was the last time you revealed your feelings for someone? Were they accepted or rejected? Revealed my feelings? I told someone I’m hungry today, does that count? As far as professions of love go, it was a few months ago and these feelings were accepted.

13. What was the reason behind your last visit to the hospital? Negative reaction to IUD removal. Menstruation sucks. I honestly just might get my tubes tied.

14. How do you tend to deal with a breakup? I make rash decisions with my hair, get drunk, listen to emo songs, go out all night, make out with strangers.

15. What is the “worst” drug you’ve done? Are there any you will never try, or any you want to try? “Worst?” Like worst experience? Or most unhealthy? As far as damaging I’ve done ketamine, probably shouldn’t have mixed that with pot. I probably won’t go down that road again. My worst experience was the first time I did shrooms, I was paranoid af and I messed myself up

16. What is something you’ve done that you truly regret? Breaking up with my high school sweetheart. It was painful. It’s not like I wish we were still together; the break up needed to happen. It was time. It still hurts that I did it though. I still care about him. I don’t want the negativity of the break up to overshadow all the good times in his mind. I don’t want him to be bitter. He deserves to be happy. 

17. What does it mean to you to be a good person? Do you feel you are a good person? A good person is empathetic. A good person does good for the sake of doing good. I feel I do my best to be a good person, and while my efforts may not yield optimal results, I am a good person at heart.

18. What is your philosophy on life/how do you generally choose to live or conduct yourself? LOL. I live my life in Panic. I aim to live my life in Panic! (...at the disco). Brendon Urie gives me the will to live.

19. Do you view animals as being just as important as people? Why or why not? All living things are important. Using “people” to gauge the importance of something is a very inefficient system

20. When was the last time you were up all night and why? I was awake for 39 hours Monday - Tuesday. I stayed up all night to write a paper. I was so worried I’d sleep through the class if I went to bed so I pounded coffee and stayed awake for the school day.

21. What is the worst thing you’ve done to yourself? What is the worst thing someone else has done to you? I limit myself. I think too little of me. I once had a friend told me, “If you believed in yourself just a fraction as much as I believe in you, there isn’t anything you can’t do”. I really feel this, and yet I’m motionless.

The worst thing someone else has done to me is break up with me on the way to my birthday week in Vegas.

22. What is the most personal thing you’re willing to reveal? I just farted and it doesn’t smell too bad

23. What made you stop talking to the last person you cut out of your life? She does not respect me as an individual or a family member, so byeee.

24. Is there a situation or person you haven’t been able to get over/forgive? Yes; the whole breaking up with my first love bit.

25. Who was the last person to yell at you? Did you yell back? My boyfriend gave me one of those “that pun was sooo bad” yells, and yeah I returned an enthusiastic yell

26. Where did your last injury come from? My whole body hurts. It just hurts. All. The. Time.

27. What are some kinks or turn-ons you have, if any? I like me some solid timbre

28. What are you like during arguments? Unstable, entirely rational

29. What is the worst thing you have said to another person? About that person to their face? Or to another person about another person? I told my friend that a soloist sounds like a Jason Mraz wanna be and a whale. Then I took it back. The whales don’t deserve that kind of treatment.

30. Where do you like to be kissed? Neck, forehead, hand

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black dress

with the tights underneath

igot the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth

and she’s an actress actress

but she ain’t got no need

she’s got money from her parents in a trust fund back east

t-t-t

TONGUES

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RIP Vine

1. Do you ever wonder what other people think of your survey answers? I really enjoy reading what the previous person wrote, and it never dawned on me that other people read mine when they copy and paste these. Hello, whoever you are! *waves*

2. Are there any survey-takers that you simply do not like because of their answers? Hahahah no

3. Has anyone ever said anything in response to a survey question that offended you? I’m offended no one has said anything in response to my surveys ;P lol

4. Which of the following sounds more appealing at the present moment : a bag of chips, a handful of cookies, a slice of pie / cake, or some crackers? Any particular kind? I ate too many cheesy ruffles earlier, those are my weakness. I could go for some cookies, CHOCOLATE CHIP OMG i love chocolate

5. How many pets have you had in your household at one time? When I was growing up there was Max, Simon, and Frankie: dog, cat, fish

6. Do you know anyone that works for a cable company? Not that I’m aware of

7. What was the last thing you heard / read / saw that made you want to face-palm? An episode of Friends

8. Have you ever watched the show Raising Hope? If yes, what did you think of it? I thought the premise was clever in the first episode but it lost me real quick. It was nice to see Tig though

9. Name one person on Xanga that you would be interested to be friends with. Or, if you are uncomfortable doing so, is there even anyone on Xanga that you find interesting & that you think you could be friends with? I don’t know anyone, I get all these from badsurveyshit. She seems nice, I think I’d like being friends with her

10. Is it cold enough to comfortably wear pants where you are, without getting too warm? Sure

11. What do you / does your family pay for rent? Do you think that your home is worth that amount? It’s just short of 2000 for a 3 bed 1 bath. The house wasn’t put together very well but it’s nice to not be living with my parents.

12. Are your walls pretty sound-proof or is it easy to hear other people talking even if they’re several rooms away from you? Ughh my room is not soundproofed at all. >.> Wood floors throughout carry the sound too. I can hear people talk in their bedrooms if they aren’t using hushed tones. Oh god, they must know I’ve watched an entire season of Friends today..

13. Have you ever had family portraits done? Is this something you are fond of doing, or do you dread it? We did some family photos in 2007, also had head shots done in 2008. I’m fond of it.

14. When was the last time you had oatmeal, if ever? Do you use milk or water in it? OOOOOOOO I introduced my boyfriend to Dinosaur oatmeal last week!! There are dinosaur eggs in the dry oatmeal, then pouring hot water will “hatch” the eggs to reveal little candy dinosaurs!! It’s the best!!

15. Do you have anything on your bedroom door? Have you ever? I almost always have something on my bedroom doors. In most recent years it’s been “The Little Mermaid” poster from the playroom at my grandma’s house. These days I’m keeping a clean polished look for the door - we’ll see how long this lasts. My Uncle did a custom build of the door, as we were converting the back room into a bedroom and the doorway is not a standard size.

16. Have you ever worked hard on something, only to have someone ruin it [whether literally or figuratively]? HAHAHAHAH IT’S CALLED LIFE

17. Does taking medication make you nervous? Is it something you avoid as much as possible? Depends on the side affects really. I try not to become reliant on medication but I take it when I need to.

18. Do you ever learn new words [or even “remember” old words] that you become addicted to saying & repeat them in almost every sentence? Nah, I’m not like that

19. Who do you know that suffers from bad dandruff, if anyone? What an odd question? no?

20. Do you think that after the age of 90 you should stop caring so much about what you intake & just eat / drink whatever you want because you might as well since you’d be on the verge of death anyhow? Be good to yourself, whatever than means for you.

21. Are the bottoms of your feet dirty? Yes

22. What do you do with your gum after you are done chewing it? Use it for arts and crafts

23. Do you know someone that [unintentionally] types in caps a lot & then afterward apologizes for it? Do you watch what you are typing to ensure that you don’t make mistakes like that, or do you tend to stare down at the keyboard as you type? Hahahaha I know people that intentionally type in caps with no apologies. I usually watch for mistakes, but half the time I don’t care.

24. Are you at all interested in the lives of celebrities? Why do you think people care so much about the lives of people that they don’t even know? I’m not too concerned. Though, I do have an emotional attachment to Hilary Duff cause I loooved her when I was a kid. I’m also interested in Brendon Urie. He’s a defining musical influence and I’d love to know more about him. I don’t want to stalk him at his favorite fast food restaurants, but rather learn how he interprets his life into his music.

25. What is a site that you go to when you need a good laugh? YouTube. Vines. Repeat

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When did you last run and why? Earlier this week I did a little sprint with my dog while on a walk Does your house/flat/what ever the hell you live in need cleaning? It’s in good shape. We do house chores every weekend and it’s about that time again so it’s not that bad. What turns you on most (if anything) about the opposite sex? Broad shoulders beneath a tshirt

What turns you on most (if anything) about the same sex? Smiling while dancing

Would you rather live with a man or a woman? Woman, for sure. I need stronger female energy in my life. Men are nice, but there is a disconnect.

Do your ears ever itch like crazy for no apparent reason? Nope Do you enjoy cooking? I enjoy it when I’m not starving. With the right preparation it’s a healing process. What are you having for dinner tonight? Ugh, I haven’t thought that far. I still need to write an essay (and here I am) and my appetite is on the rocks. Hmm. Perhaps some tequila to go with that. When did you last have people round for dinner? Fornever ago. Once I get my shit together I’d love to host a little gathering for my friends :) Is there anything you’re pedantic about? What is it? YESSSSS. Open toilet lid (ugh just close all that shit up), towels scrunched together on the rack instead of being hung straight, when people don’t wash their hands after leaving the bathroom, when classmates in choir hum the pitches after the teacher plays them - SING IT IN YOUR HEAD PEOPLE

How often do you read? Not as often as I want to. I miss getting lost in book world Reccomend a good book (in your opinion) please: I enjoy the Scott Pilgrim comics, The Perks of Being A Wallflower, The Great Gatsby Do you have any payments that need to be made soon? Yeah, thanks for reminding me the utilities are due Do you have any phone calls you need to make? I need to call the vet When did you last buy soap? Last month Are you a nail biter? Unfortunately Are you currently saving up for something? I want to go to Nashville in the summer, though the moving expenses are kicking my ass What’s your body temperature, right now? Racing Was your last relationship with a man or a woman? A man Are you currently in a relationship? Yes, he is a delight When will you next have a bath? I can’t say, I don’t have a bath When was the last time you were really horny and could do nothing about it? This morning haha What does your hair smell like currently? I wouldn’t know, my hair is up Do you know how to navigate your way through a PC using only the keyboard? I know where tab and enter are. I probably couldn’t get very far

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NO. No no no. I don’t want to screw you. I just love you. When did who you want to screw become the whole game? Since when is the person you want to screw the only person you get to love? It’s so stupid, Tiny! I mean, Jesus, who even gives a fuck about sex?! People act like it’s the most important thing humans do, but come on. How can our sentient fucking lives revolve around something slugs can do. I mean, who you want to screw and whether you screw them? Those are important questions, I guess. But they’re not that important. You know what’s important? Who would you die for? Who do you wake up at five forty-five in the morning for even though you don’t even know why he needs you? Whose drunken nose would you pick?!

John Green, Will Grayson (via thesun-stillshines)

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Have you ever felt like you were dreaming even though you were awake?: This has happened to me more than I realize. I question if some of my most cherished childhood memories were dreams. When was the last time something just seemed too good to be true?: Enrolling in all the classes I registered for. That shit never works out. And now I regret taking on this workload.

Do you believe eyes are like windows to the soul?: I can see it Do you take vitamins?: When I remember to. Gotta get that B12 Has someone ever whistled at you while you were walking?: ugh

Are you guilty of texting while driving?: Quite guilty. I only do that when I drive alone, I don’t put passengers at risk

Have you ever caused a lot of noise in a library?: Once I mistook a silent fart for a clearly audible one Do you complain a lot?: I feel like I do, and I apologize for it a lot. I think it’s ok to say I’m going through some stuff and I can be honest about that with people I can trust. Have you ever been to a music festival?: Life is Beautiful, 2015 & 2017. the bestttt <333 I yearn for more music festivals in my life What was the last thing that completely took your breath away?: Brendon Urie swooshing his hair to “never gonna give you up”

The Observatory, Santa Ana, March 27 Are you a competitive person?: Slightly, more so in music scenarios Have you ever been in a relay race?: I passed a baton in high school once What cereal tastes soo good that you always eat more than 1 bowl?: REESE’S PUFFS REESE’S PUFFS

and honey nut clusters, DAMN those were good (not to be confused with honey bunches of oats, you uncultured swine) If your life was a movie, what would it be rated?: C+ on rotten tomatoes  Are you more of a talker or a listener?: Listener, for sure Have you ever called in at a radio station & dedicated a song to someone?: Hahahah thought about it Would you ever go to a protest or be involved in a protest?: I’d like to  Have you ever tried to walk on a foot that fell asleep & then tripped? Haven’t tripped, though walking proved to be much more difficult When playing rock, paper, scissors which do you usually pick?: Scissors. Wanna play? Have you ever tried to write a book?: I wrote sooo many stories as a kid. I loved writing fantasy/action adventures, in the “realistic fiction vein”. I wrote a story called “M.E.N.D.”, four friends with super human abilities working as spies to save the world from evil. It was an acronym for our names (Michelle, Ethan, Nicole, Dylan) and also our mission statement: to mend what was broken.  Don’t you hate it when people blow smoke in your face?: Quite the opposite; I like to shot gun dabs  Have you ever been hit by a chunk of hail?: Not quite. Other chunks, yes Do one word text messages annoy you?: Depends on the context. In a developing (or lack of) conversation it’s the fucking worse. For communicating quick responses it is efficient Have you ever had something to say but you couldn’t get the words out?: All the fucking time. It’s been such a struggle in more recent years. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?: Several times Do you work hard for things or are they handed to you?: I work hard to stay alive, and need some handing to Did you ever have your brothers or sisters clothing handed down to you?: Oh yes, it’s the best. Sometimes my friends host a clothing exchange, and I reinvent my entire wardrobe. Making contributions is cleansing also. Do you have the same routine day by day?: That would probably do wonders for my health. I go to school the same times every day, health permitting, and the rest is chaos. Would you ever go on a walk to raise money for cancer research?: Sure. If you were treated unfairly at work, would you go on strike?: I would certainly speak up, and a strike is necessary to be heard then so be it. If God were standing in front of you, what would you say or do?: I always thought you more of the floating type Would you ever try any extreme sports?: I’d go on Wipeout  Do you know how to snap your fingers?: I’m familiar with the principle, though lacking in the execution Do you plan your outfits for the next day or just randomly choose?: Sometimes I can plan for the next day, but when the next day comes i’ll be feeling something else. I dress for comfort, and my feelings change so frequently it’s difficult to predict what will fit for the day. If I know I have an early morning I’ll select an outfit so I don’t have to devote too much mental energy when I’m sleepy. I hate waking up early. Are you a bossy person?: If something needs to get done I’ll take charge Do you control your attitude or does it control you?: It’s a tango Is it true that if you don’t love yourself, you can’t love another?: Could be, depends on the person. For me, I’m learning to love myself. The appreciation of the learning process helps me to see the beauty in others. So whether or not I can achieve self love, their beauty is still able to be recognized. Would you ever give blood? What blood type are you?: I have anemia, so no Is there anything that you believe should be banned for any reason?: Nazis  What does teen spirit smell like?: Body odor Do you share a bed with anyone?: My fur baby Do you ever try making your dream up before falling asleep? : I fantasize, but unlike Pacard, I do not try to “make it so”. Whatever happens, happens. Do you get angry easily?: It’s more of a sad angry