emptyvoidelliot

[emptyvoidelliot]

i don’t think i deserve happiness.

i’m not supposed to be happy

[emptyvoidelliot]

This change in my sleep schedule is such a shock to the system. Feel so unwell :/

[emptyvoidelliot]

Holidays with family are so stressful. At least I have something very exciting for when I go back to uni, socially

[emptyvoidelliot]

No way. I can actually see into the future. I'm pretty sure I dreamt, or just imagined, what the guy who was coming to drop some flooring off looked like. I had this idea of a guy in my head that I expected (but really didnt actually think would happen) to open the door to. So I go to open the door and this man looks EXACTLY how I imagined.. HUH?!

[emptyvoidelliot]

[emptyvoidelliot]

Sometimes I fall asleep thinking about you and dream you're here with me

[emptyvoidelliot]

lately every day is exactly the same & terrifyingly different all at once

[emptyvoidelliot]

being insane is just a part of my charm

[emptyvoidelliot]

i just want to punish myself for existing.

[emptyvoidelliot]

unfortunatyely im displaying behaviours. and acting in ways

[emptyvoidelliot]

[emptyvoidelliot]

Holy fucking shit I ruined my life I was so close to being done and now everything is amazing because the person i did this for actually feels positively towards me !! This is actually the best moment of my life

[emptyvoidelliot]

me: does something borderline

fuck but also fuck it

[emptyvoidelliot]

Being mentally ill is a full time job

[emptyvoidelliot]

I’m ruining my life, I know

[emptyvoidelliot]

cant talk rn i'm busy being a danger to myself

[emptyvoidelliot]

afab: assigned furious at birth