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yeah, that's okay! i didn't feel like being happy today anyways😄

when I was drowning I thought about the light instead of the water, the accident instead of the ache.

— Yves Olade

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my hc for a servant of two masters 4.06 is that the reason why merlin doesnt use magic to try and kill arthur is bc morgana said “everything that makes you merlin will be gone” or whatever. and since hes magic itself she inadvertently took his ability to do his magic away from him. etc

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LMAOOO SO REAL

i absolutely love showing people the first episode of merlin because 100% of the time they will have a visceral reaction to the “i could take you apart in one blow” “i could take you apart with less than that” even if they knew it would be gay going into it

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merlin is just the sweetest character ever IDC i love him w my whole heart😭

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HIS FACEEEE😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

4.13 — The Sword in the Stone

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merthur week 2023 | DAY FOUR | favorite parallel ↳ 1.10 vs 5.13

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Arthur, without you, Camelot is nothing. All that we've worked so hard to create. Everything will be gone.

5.01 Arthur's Bane

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im so sorry to anyone who ever watches/has watched bbc merlin w me bcuz i will make it my mission to pause at any chance and yap away abt the littlest things

like??? arthur just blinked 0.154 seconds faster than usual and you want me to not obsess over how that just revealed how the rest of the season will play out??!!!

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I drew some morgwen because i absolutely love them and they need more fanart🥰

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arthur pendragon is a thief, relentlessly stealing glances at merlin with utmost desperation to not be caught in the act and seem a fool. he smirks triumphantly after close calls, getting sickeningly cocky with it. arthur pendragon is also a terrible thief, as merlin notices each and every time. merlin would never reveal this acknowledgment to arthur. after all, a petty thief is no match for merlin who had already stolen the most prestigious of treasures, the heart of the future king.

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don't ask me anything abt BBC Merlin if it took place when elyan was somewhere on screen bcuz i was not paying attention. It's not my fault I got lost in his beautiful eyes😞

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“I’m getting married,” Arthur says. He is suddenly unable to breath. His chest tight, his fists closed. I’m getting married. It was an admission of guilt, of his weakness. A sentence which should strike joy into his heart, but can only make him grieve.

Merlin turns around. He does not look surprised. “I know,” he confesses, and the words ring in Arthur’s ears. He knows. He should not.

“I asked Gwen to marry me last night.” Perhaps he is admitting, or clarifying or just simply informing. It does not matter. Merlin puts down the clothes he was folding and smiles. As if it is a good thing.

“I know,” he says. “She told me. Right after.” But it is too late. And Arthur is sobbing, furiously wiping his tears as if that will make them disappear. He is six years old again, with his father standing over him and scolding him for crying. Except he is not, and Merlin would never say that.

“I’m so sorry Merlin,” it is barely audible. He is not sure if he should repeat himself to make sure Merlin heard him. Because he needs Merlin to hear him. He needs to make sure Merlin knows he is sorry. He is sorry. For his weakness. For his cowardice.

“Oh, it is okay Arthur. It is okay,” sighs Merlin. He is so perfect, so kind. He is the man Arthur wants to marry, but cannot. He is the person Arthur wants to spend the rest of his life with, but cannot.

Arthur sobs in his arms. His face is scrunched up. His eyes shut tightly. He fears that if he opens them, Merlin will be gone.

He thinks of the life he should have. The one where his blond children dart down the halls of the castle. Where his wife kisses him goodnight, and he can only think of how much he loves her. The one where Merlin, his best friend, stands by his side, as a good friend, uncle, brother. Not what he is now. Not the love of Arthur’s life.

“Why could you not have been a girl?” He feels Merlin’s chin against the back of his head, can feel the way his hair dampens as Merlin starts crying too. Perhaps it is only good if Merlin is with someone else, someone who is not Arthur.

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2.04 — Lancelot and Guinevere

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morgana was so funny in s2 with her nightmares😭😭 cuz they were never that scary- pretty sure she just wanted gwen to hold her tbh, but she's real for that🙄

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what have you done?

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my fav thing abt s1 is how neither arthur or merlin are at the point yet in the show where they consider each other best friends- or honestly even good friends- yet they both are constantly sacrificing their safety for one another throughout the whole season😭😭🫶

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i love episodes where merlin got to show his connection to nature🫶🫶

the way he describes it is so pretty☹️🩷