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microdosing death by going to sleep

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In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.

There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.

I realized what happened after about two seconds.

The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.

For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.

I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.

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Are there any good books to learn how to help someone who has depression/suicidal thoughts?

I have quite a few people very close to me who are currently dealing with severe depression and suicidal thoughts, and I simply do not have the mental tools to help them well and they can't go to a proffesional anytime soon due to extremely strict parents.

I'm not sure if this is the right place for this kind of a question, but we are not legal adults yet and I'm getting a bit desparate with seeking this kind of help as im worried at least one person might die before the end of this year, and there's no official suicide hotline in our country and the few ones that do exist are small and extremely busy and hard to reach

Are there any good books or scientific articles that can teach me a bit more about depression (or other mental illnesses) and how to help someone who has it? I did some googling but didn't find a lot of stuff that seems useful. Any kind of feedback would be greatly appreaciated!

Thanks in advance and I hope you have a good day

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mythbusters was so good because it wasn't a killjoy show. they didn't just say "see, it doesn't work" and leave it there

whenever they find that the stunt doesn't work as portrayed in the movie, they immediately ask "what would it take to make this happen?"

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Wild

You're being murdered. You look the killer in the eye & your last words are the last text you sent:

Kinda funny

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inspired by this post

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true or false, everyone should be making their best effort 100% of the time, it’s lazy to do otherwise.  

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Unused model for a Luigi toy resembling a nesting doll from Luigi’s Mansion.

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at the beginning of the quarter this barbie doll showed up in my design prof’s classroom and he doesn’t know where it came from but one of his other classes crucified it(????) and when it somehow disappeared a week or so later people apparently lost their minds

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Help.

The guy i hate the most called me cute

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Coming out of the closet as both a god and a disappointment

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eat a fruit that you like. take a little walk and pay attention to the trees. dance to music alone in ur room. it’s the small things that will heal you

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PRIDE MERMAY! my mini series for may 2021!

check them out on redbubble for stickers and more!

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I'm a teen journalist; investigating Squidwards Suicide

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hey so like

hi, you. yeah im talking to you. You like my stuff from time to time and reblog once and a while, and I always recognize you in my notes. we’ve never talked, maybe you dont like to say much or you’re nervous or something. it’s okay, whatever it is. 

I see you. you mean a lot to me. sometimes when I’m having a hard day, I’ll notice your name once again in my notifs and it makes me smile. im not kidding.

I don’t care if you’re a “ghost” follower or you send me asks all the time. i see you and I love you so much, genuinely and truly. you are really important to me. 

thank you. thank you for being there. <3

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By Tanja Askani

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People are always talking about making John Green say “I love cocks” when it comes to having fun with tumblr’s ability to edit everyone’s posts but that one post where that person was saying fuckers and it got repeatedly edited to fudgers and meaners was 10000% funnier