endydancer1

[endydancer1]

Can't Lose You || P.P

Pairing: Peter Parker x reader

Word count: 3.2k

Summary: You're trying to get over your best friend but no matter how hard you try you just can't seem to do it.

Warnings: Fluff!! Drunk reader, Mj!! Peter and reader being idiots uk how it is.

Requested by @piscesparker : For the dialogue prompt "Are you jealous?" with Peter.

Trope: best friends to lovers

A/n: don't read the summary! I'm v bad at it. N I'm back with another fic! Yay! I'm gonna try to continue posting more stuff more regularly cuz I have so much stuff to share. The request should explain it all. Thank you very much for requesting shan! N I'm so so sorry for replying so so so damn late! 🤦🏽‍♀️ I really do hope you like this.

Also thank you lovely s @rosyparkers for beta-reading this. I appreciate you alot! <333

You huffed and slipped into your seat, slamming your tray on the table, a huge frown etched onto your face. Mj turned to you, giving you a weird look, Ned lost in his star wars world, and Peter, you didn't even wanna look at him right now but you also couldn't not. He was too cute to not be fawned over and right now, he was looking so damn cute that you didn't know whether to slap him or give him head.

"Why do you look like you just saw someone burn paper and waste food?" Mj asked, making you gasp so loud that she was positive everyone in the cafeteria heard you, your eyes nearly jumped out of their sockets.

"What?! Tell me who it is?! I have a really big speech prepared for them and oo boy, will they be sorry once they've heard it" you said urgently, you were about to get out of your seat when Mj grabbed your arm stopping you.

"Jeez, calm down. I was kidding. I don't think anyone's got a nerve to go against you after the last speech you gave and the kid you reported for wasting water" Mj reminisced making you sigh in relief but after a few minutes your face fell again.

"Did see at Peter?"

"No, that's your job"

Silence.

You blinked at her, as she stared wide-eyed at you, her hand frozen mid-air with a spoon.

"Mj!" You gasped, lightly smacking her arm. She continued eating her food, shrugging one shoulder.

"It's true, though" she mumbled with a full mouth. You narrowed your eyes at her before huffing and slouching.

"No but seriously, look at him. He can't take his eyes off of Liz" you frowned sadly.

"Y/n! I've told you this a million times, either tell him you're obsessed with him or move on"

A weird noise left your mouth, at which she made a strange face.

"I'm not obsessed with him!" You said defensively, your jaw slackened. "Just very observant"

"You kinda are," she blurted, with raised eyebrows, taking a bite of her bread.

"That's not the point!" You waved your arms around, dismissing the topic.

"Yes, Y/n. What is the point? Do tell" she humored, your mouth fell open to say something but nothing came out.

"Why is he ogling Liz like that?! It's not fair" you whined, pouting blinking at Peter who was lost in his own world. Probably, thinking about kissing Liz, the thought angered you a little. You finally decided you aren't gonna just sit there and watch him do that. You exhaled loudly, catching Mj's attention, she eyed you curiously. You got up from your seat, her eyes widening slightly, you fixed your skirt and tip-toed behind Peter's chair.

"Yo, Peter!" You smacked the back of his head, startling him. He shot up from his seat, turning around, clutching the back of his head.

"Ow! What was that for?" He rubbed the back of his head, looking like a kicked puppy.

"Nothin', just saying hi" you smiled, tilting your head a little to the side. "So Petey, whatcha been up to?" You asked, making him blush red.

"Uh, I um nothing, just…thinking about some stuff" he stammered, getting redder by the second.

"What stuff?" You narrowed your eyes at him making his eyes widen in panic, his face flushed redder than ever.

"Spideystuff!" He blabbered, laughing nervously to cover the small squeak in his voice.

"Sooo, are you going to the party tonight?" You step closer to him, looking up at him with big doe eyes, giving him no chance to refuse. He stared at you in amazement for a few seconds, his cheeks still rosy.

"W-will you be there?" He slowly blinked at you, raising his eyebrows.

"I asked you first" your tongue rolled over your lips, his gaze fluttered down to your lips for a second as he swallowed, before looking in your eyes.

"I will be if you will," he declared with a small smile on his chapped lips. You beamed at his statement, clapping your hands like a child.

"Great, so i'll see you there" you lightly poked his stomach and were about to make your way to your chair when stopped you.

"Y/nnnnnnnn." He dragged out, pulling you back to him with your arm. You looked up at him in confusion, tilting your head in that lovely way, Peter adored so much.

"Aren't you forgetting something?" He questioned, making you more confused than ever.

"Umm no?" You frowned, making him jut his lips out in a pout, you internally swooned at him, your thoughts screamed at you to just kiss him already.

"You didn't give me my morning hug" he whined like a toddler. Your lips formed an 'o' shape and your eyebrows went up in realisation, before giggling lightly.

"Oh I'm sorry! I forgot" you wrapped your arms around his torso, tucking your face in his chest as he nuzzled your head, sniffing your hair. Your stomach swarmed with butterflies at his action. You inhaled his sweet smell of sandalwood oil for his dry, pale skin, which you gifted him along with a whole lot of other skincare products because before that he washed his face with the handwash. You couldn't watch him treat his precious skin like that.

Even after you got him all the stuff, he wouldn't use it, his excuse 'I don't need all this stuff. My skin's perfectly fine' but in reality he didn't know how to use them and was too lazy to read the instructions. So, after you spent the whole weekend with him, teaching him how to use all products and exactly what to do and convincing him to not eat half of the products because it "smelled delicious". He was shocked with the results, his exact words were "omg, y/n my skin is glowing! Wow. I look beau- Handsome!". Oh how much you cherished moments like these with Peter.

"See you tonight, Pete!" You pulled away with a peck to his cheek and turned away, making your way back to your chair, your lips stretched in a big grin, too lost in contemplating what you're gonna wear to the party to notice Peter's flustered state.

***

"Y/nnnn, c'mon now. Can we please go?" Mj whined from the bed. "We're getting late!" You ignored her, admiring your reflection in the mirror.

"Ok, ok! But how do I look?" You turned around and looked at her with big wide eyes and an hopeful expression.

"You look beautiful! As always!" She said sincerely, making you break into a grin. You were wearing a denim skirt that reached above your knees paired with a black crop top. You were looking quite decent for a high school party. Not to mention utterly gorgeous.

If it was any other day, you would've not cared for your outfit. But tonight, you had a plan, you had decided to let loose, find someone else and get over your little crush on Peter. Since you couldn't tell him because you didn't wanna risk ruining your friendship and the fear of getting rejected, your fragile heart couldn't take it.

You were practically shaking from excitement and nerves as you entered Flash's party. You took in the scene in front of you, drunk people dancing on the stage, some making out in a corner. Your eyes searched for the familiar mop of brown curls, disappointment settling in your gut when you couldn't spot him before you shook the thought away. You took a deep breath and reminded yourself that you’re here to let loose.

It’s been almost 3 hours, you’re drunk now, you haven’t seen Peter yet. Which can only mean, he didn’t come which stings a little, you can’t figure out why since you had a plan to let loose. So, now you’re drunk and frustrated, which is not a good combination. Now, here you are dancing with some guy, you just met who’s actually very sweet and you should be happy but you’re not. Out of nowhere you see a brown curly head looking around with wide eyes, standing awkwardly, you blink a few times making sure you’re not hallucinating before his eyes lock up with yours, you both look at each other with big wide eyes. You excuse yourself from the guy whose name you don’t remember. You walk upto Peter, you both still staring at each other, you slightly poke him to see if he’s real.

“Are you really here or am I imagining you?” you didn’t realize you actually said it aloud, before he chuckled.

“Yes, i am really here” he rubbed the back of his neck nervously, looking hella cute.

“You’re really late” you scowled, trying to look mad but he knew you couldn’t stay mad at him for too long.

“I'm sorry! There was a burglary that I had to stop” he spoke guiltily, you sighed, it wasn’t his fault.

“Well, you’re here now” your voice slurred, his eyes narrowed as he leaned closer, you froze as he took a whiff.

“Are you drunk?” he asked, as you pushed him away, you chuckled nervously, waving it off. He was ready to lecture you on drinking alone when you felt a hand on your shoulder. You turned around and saw the guy you were dancing with not long ago, you drunkenly smiled at him.

“Heyy!” you still couldn’t remember his name.

Hmm.

“Hey. I was wondering if you would like to give me your number? It's totally cool if not” he asked sweetly.

“Oh sure!” you gave him your number, you were hoping it was the right number. He hugged you, taking you by surprise, you blushed furiously, Peter’s scowl going unnoticed by the both of you. He walked away as you turned back to Peter with a grin, his lips pursed unpleasantly.

“C’mon, I’m taking you home” he grabbed your hand, pulling you out the door, you pouted.

“But Petey, I wanna stay!” you whined, walking behind him.

“No, we’re leaving”

“Fine. but only at one cost”

“Give me piggy back ride”

***

“Boy, you’re really heavy,” he joked, making you gasp.

“You take that back, I thought you had super strength ”you pout, making him chuckle at your

He turned around looking at you suspiciously “what?” he asked cautiously. You grinned at him evilly.reaction.

“I’m kidding. I’m kidding” you start to feel bad for him. He had carried you all the way from the party. And you were close to the apartment now too.

“Hey c’mon, I can walk now. You can put me down”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah, yeah”

He gently let you down, you stumbled on your feet for a bit before steadying yourself. You both walked hand in hand, a serene silence surrounding you. And before you knew, Peter’s apartment building was in sight.

“Peter, this is your apartment.” you tilted your head to the side in confusion, his face flushed red and he started stuttering in the adorable way he always does.

“Oh, I-i just t-thought you could stay here, s-so i can take care of you, properly and we haven’t had one sleepover like this since, forever, y-you know just the t-two of u-us” he bit his lip, waiting for your reaction anxiously. You almost teared up when he said he wants to take care of you. “I-i can take you back to your apart--”

“No, it’s alright! I miss those times too” you said, leaning against him. He gave you a big wide grin in return, wrapping an arm around you, you both walked up the stairs to his apartment. He opened the door, letting you in first.

“May, will be home later, so we got the whole place to ourselves” he followed you to his bedroom, watching as you climbed in his bed, snuggling in his covers, he chuckled at you.

“Don’t you wanna change into something more comfortable?” he bent to face, your eyes widened at the proximity of his face, wanting nothing more than to just close the distance between you two. Your throat closed up, no word coming out of your mouth, you were sure he could hear your heartbeat going crazy. He raised his eyebrows at you when he still got no reply, you nodded frantically at him. He made his way to his closet, taking out his ‘find x’ t-shirt and some short shorts.

“Here, you can change in the washroom and freshen up, I'll use May’s” you got up, making your way to the bathroom, his clothes in your hand. You quickly change out of your clothes, washing your face, you slightly sober up. Getting out of the bathroom, you make yourself comfortable under his soft covers. You hear the door opening, Peter makes his way to the bed, grabbing a pillow, you frown at his actions.

“What are you doing?” you question him.

“I am going to sleep on the couch”

“Noooooo, i wanna cuddle” you don’t know if this is your tipsy self talking or sleepy, you would never be this straightforward in the right state of mind. You slide closer to the wall making space for him, he gets under the cover and you immediately latch onto him tightly, letting out an exhale of relief as he wraps his arms around your torso.

Fuck.

You’ve never felt this secure in your entire life. You slightly feel his lips touching the top of your head and before you know it, you're out like a light.

***

You slowly stirred awake from one of the best peaceful sleep you had in ages.

God, it has been so long since you slept with Peter like this.

You looked down and found Peter clinging to your body and noticed his lips slightly moving, you couldn’t make out what he was saying but he looked damn adorable, you wanted nothing more than to kiss the life out of him. He could probably sense you looking at him but he was still sleeping and you couldn’t help but look at him. He was just so adorable.

You don’t know how long you have been staring at him and making up scenarios in your head before he’s slowly opening his eyes and taking in his surroundings. You give him a soft smile in your drowsy state and he politely returns the gestures.

“Wow” he murmurs under his breath, his morning voice doing things to you. “That’s the best sleep i’ve had in forever”

“Ditto”

“You wanna lay just like this for a few more minutes? And cuddle” you add the last part sheepishly.

“Thought you’d never ask”

You both jumped at each other at the same, knocking your heads together in the process, a groan resounding both of you. You laughed at each other before you decided to just spoon, you being the little spoon.

Eventually, after a few minutes or an hour, you both decided to get up and shower. Not together, though you wouldn’t be opposed to the idea.

While you were showering, Peter made strawberry waffles for you, you almost cried at his sweet gesture, though they were a little burnt they tasted delicious. He would be such a perfect boyfriend.

“So, what are your plans for the whole day?” he asked while drinking his coffee, you were still stuffing your face with the waffles.

“Nothing much, probably gonna wait till the guy from last night texts me and hopefully asks me out on a date” you answered after swallowing and took another bite. Peter’s mood turned sour at your revelation.

“Oh, so, if he asks you out, you’re gonna say yes?” he asked, trying to conceal his bitterness at the thought of you going out with another guy, that you didn’t even know.

“Yup”

“Why?” you frowned at his weird question.

“Because, he’s nice”

“So? You don’t even know him”

“I do. I know he’s nice” he scoffs at your retort, your frown deepening.

Why was he acting so weird?

“Oh really? Do you even know his name?” he questions, his eyebrows raised in challenge.

Uh oh.

“Yes, I do and you’re not important enough to know” you retort, already knowing, he knows you don't know.

“Anyways, i don’t think he’s gonna text you” he shrugs innocently making you narrow your eyes at him.

“Wha- why not?” you ask in a slightly high pitched voice. He shrugs again looking somewhere else and your eyes almost turn to slits.

“Peter, what’d you do?” he looks at you, looking offended.

“I didn’t do anything!”

“Then why are you saying that, if you didn’t do anything”

“I just know he won’t text you”

“How do you know that?” you smack his arm, prompting him to spill the beans.

“You gave him the wrong number” he mutters slowly, trying not to laugh. Your eyes widened at his words.

“What!” you shriek loudly and he finally breaks out into guffaws. “Please, tell me you’re lying”

“You messed up the nines because you were drunk” he laughs, your jaw falling agape at his words.

“Then why didn’t you correct me?!” his laughter finally seizes at your question.

“Because” you raise your eyebrows at him when he doesn’t complete his sentence.

“Peter!” you smack him again, he rubs the spot where you hit him and gives you a mean look.

"I didn't want you to go out with him" he mumbles slowly but you hear him clearly.

"Why not? Don't you have Liz to ogle?" You murmur the last part under your breath which he wouldn't have heard if it wasn't for his super hearing.

"Wha- I don't do that" he said defensively, face flushed in embarrassment.

"Yeah, right" you rolled your eyes in disbelief.

"Why? Are you jealous?" He demands, putting on a strong exterior.

"Wh-No! I should be the one asking you that!"

"Yeah I'm jealous because I like you!" He blurts out, both your eyes widening at his slip out.

"Y-you do?" You feel butterflies swarming your tummy, he nods back slowly.

"Great! Because I really really like you too" you mumble bashfully, his eyes lit up in disbelief and ecstasy. You slowly started making your way towards each other, the need to be in each other's arms taking over both of you. Your lips met halfway, taking you by surprise but you welcomed it all. His lips were soft against yours, melting you in his embrace. The kiss was slow and everything you wanted it to be and so much more.

"I adore you so so much. It's been killing me to not tell you how I feel and I'm so glad I finally did. I was so afraid to lose you" he whispers against your lips as you both rest your foreheads against each other's. "And I wasn't ogling Liz. I was daydreaming about you" he smiled earnestly, looking into your eyes.

"You're never gonna lose me, Peter. I can't imagine my life without you" you smile softly and sincerely at him, hoping he could see that not one word wasn't coming straight from your heart. He returns the smile and pecks you gently on the lips.

"I can't believe you're finally mine" you know now, no matter what happens in the future, you two will never lose each other.

Tagging moots! Hope you don't mind!

@chaoscafe @azaraspirit @spideyspeaches @queeen-goldfish @peterbenjiparker @kelieah @tinyyoungblood @osterfieldshollandgirl @bookwormlovers-blog @mendesxruel @evanssimpybaby @uglypastels @terrifictomholland @bleh-bleh-blehs @deepika-padukone @piscesparker @starlight-starks @t-lostinworlds @scarletspideyy

Lemme know if you don't wanna be tagged! 💙

[endydancer1]

Treat People With Kindness / F1 Drivers (or TF1DWK, if you will)

…it’s mostly Charles and Dan…

[endydancer1]

Leave before you love me || T.H

Pairing: Fuckboy!Tom x Reader

Word count: 1.1k

Summary: Tom has a rule to never sleep with the same girl twice but when you break his one rule. He never expected it to cost him his heart.

Warnings: ANGST. Pining. Reader has abondonment issues so yeah this won't end well.

A/n: Based on the song 'leave before you love me' by Jonas brothers and Marshmello. If you haven't heard the song, go hear it. I'm obsessed with it! And listen to it while reading this to have the full effect. I wrote this today and finished it today. So kudos to me! I really hope y'all like it cuz I really liked this.

I see you calling

Your phone buzzed, the familiar ringtone echoing in the car. You didn't have to check the caller id to know exactly who it was.

I didn't wanna leave you like that.

You muted the call as the gut-wrenching guilt crammed your insides. You hated that you had to do this again. And again.

It's five in the morning, yeah, yeah. A hundred on the dash

You promised yourself, you weren't gonna let this happen again. But you couldn't help it. His intoxicating scent, his toe-curling touch, his breathless whisper in your ear coaxed you to his bedroom. Like the numerous times before.

'Cause my wheels are rolling

And just like the several times before, you disappeared at the break of dawn. You just couldn't bring yourself to stay.

Ain't taking my foot off the gas.

You sped up, as your phone rang again. You glanced at the lit-up screen, his beautiful features gracing your eyes.

And it only took the one night.

You recall the night when it wasn't just a one-night stand to you. When it meant more to you than it did to him.

To see the end of the line.

You were too far away from him. Too deep in your feels for him.

Starting deep in your eyes, eyes.

You remember how he approached you on the stage when you were dancing your sorrows away. An arm around your waist pulled you into a rock-hard chest. You leaned into him as the familiar fragrance surrounded you.

"I thought you didn't hook up with the same girl more than once" you turned around in his arms, staring deep into his soul.

"I believe we both can agree that that was more than just a hookup" he whispered dirtily in your ear, his breath tickling your neck.

Dancing on the edge, 'bout to take it too far

Your lips tangled in a messy kiss, as you danced around with him. Him dancing with your heart. Dipping and twirling it around.

It's messing with my head how I mess with your heart

That night, the significance of his kisses changed not only for you but for him too. They were much more powerful, his touch so much more assuring. He kissed and caressed you with a renewed passion.

If you wake up in your bed, alone in the dark

Nonetheless, his delicate touches frightened you. You knew what awaited you if you decided to go down this road.

I'm sorry, gotta leave before you love me

You threw on your clothes as rapidly as you could. And left his apartment with a small kiss on his pink lips and hoped you never had to come back again.

Leave before you love me.

But he did. He kept coming back to you. When he asked about you leaving in the morning, you simply replied "it was just a one-night stand". Something flashed in his eyes that you couldn't comprehend before it vanished and his reply was only an "oh".

Leave before you love me

It hurt you to no end how he didn't correct you or said something more.

I'm so good at knowing of when to leave the party behind

You avoided him at all costs. Left the party too early than you normally would.

Don't care if they notice, yeah, yeah, no

You didn't miss the way, a particular pair of chocolate brown eyes followed you as you left the party.

I'll just catch a ride

You pay for your cab ride as you reach your apartment.

I'd rather be lonely

You nestled deeper into your covers, sighing peacefully, you didn't have to deal with anything, no feelings, nothing.

Than wrapped around your body too tight.

You reminisced how tightly Tom held you in his arms, it was almost so hard to leave him. You wish you never have to go back in his arms so that you wouldn't have to miss his touch. Because this just isn't your type.

Yeah, I'm the type to get naked

You found these hookups much better than being in a relationship. Maybe because you knew your heart couldn't break that way.

Won't give my heart up for breaking

You just couldn't stay in a relationship for too long, you left before the other person could leave, breaking their hearts in the process.

Cause, I'm too gone to be staying', staying'

You weren't a stayer, you're a leader. So you gave it up for good.

Dancing on the edge 'bout to take it too far

This time you were the one dancing around with his heart, he couldn't stay away from you for too long, no matter how much he wanted to.

It's messing with my head, how I mess with your head

You feel so awful for playing with him like that. You just don't know what to do. He messed up your head, you can't think straight.

If you wake up in your bed, alone in the dark

I'm sorry, gotta leave before you love me

He misses you terribly, you miss him too. But you can't.

Leave before you love me

You hope he leaves before he loves you.

Leave before you love me

Or you would have to.

It must be fate, how he bumped into you.

" Tom!" "Y/n!"

You're not sure how you ended up in his flat, but you did. Your brain stopped thinking, the moment you saw him.

Dancing on the edge, take it too far

You danced around his room for a while, trying to get each other's clothes off in a hurry. Then you fell onto his bed with a thud. You never had a night like this one, not even with Tom, himself. He ravaged you in the best way possible, he never touched you like that. Maybe he knew this was the last time, he'll get to touch you like this.

Messing with my head, how I mess with your heart

Your eyes teared up, as you admired his sleeping form next to you. Taking in his quirks, moles, and freckles for the last time, ever.

I'm sorry, alone in the dark

You're gonna leave him in the dark again. You unwrap his arms from around you with a light touch to not wake him up. You tiptoe around the bed, picking up your clothes. Planting the last kiss to his lips, you make your way to the door.

I'm sorry

A tear fell on your cheek.

"You're leaving…again" you froze on your spot. You turn your head slightly to the side.

"Leave before you love me"

Tagging some moots:

@samhollandscupcake @azaraspirit @spideyspeaches @tinyyoungblood @peterbenjiparker @kelieah @osterfieldshollandgirl @bookwormlovers-blog @mendesxruel @terrifictomholland @bleh-bleh-blehs @alinastarkrovs @piscesparker @starlight-starks @endydancer1 @queeen-goldfish @londonspidey @uglypastels @tom-holland-is-spiderman

[endydancer1]

We used to be strangers | Part 7

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln (OC)

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and is heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

Warning: Mentions of death, death

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Tom's POV

Sight of her made me wanna cry. Tears were forming in my eyes, my lips were trembling, voice caught deep in my throat.  In that white dress perfectly fitting her shape, she was gorgeous. I was holding my whole world with bare hands,supporting her. She needed me more than ever before. We were slowly walking down the aisle. Everyone was watching us, holding their breaths, wiping their tears. Finally, my soon-to-be wife was being walked down the aisle in the church. Only she was in a casket, instead of a gown.

I was standing there, bending over a pit dugged in the ground. The pit which embrace the body and release the soul. On that day my precious angel was going to be set free. Her time came too soon. I was hugging her photograph. - My love, I will keep you day and night, here until the day I die. I love you, unconditionally.-

“Tom,Darling... can you please...“

I nodded and carefully handed her the portrait. I looked one last time into her numb eyes. They were...empty. She was laughing, staring directly at me, but still..her gaze was numb. - I am dumb. It´s because it´s not her. That´s just a piece of fucking paper. It will never be her again. NEVER AGAIN! FUCK!- Slowly taking the side of the grave I reached for the end of the rope, grabbing it tightly so fibres started cutting my sking,engraving into my hands. I stepped closer to the edge of the pit to support myself. I raised my gaze to her brother, who was now standing on the other side of the grave. He smiled sadly.

“One...two...three.“

On three my grab loosened and the casket started slowly falling into the grave. Last drops of tears escaped my red swollen eyes. –Goodbye, my lover.- When the casket reached the bottom, we took out the rope. Her mum took a step closer to me. She gently rubbed my shoulder. I fell on my knees, feeling dizzy, my head was pounding like hell, my stomach was flipped and my heart... my heart was broken, falling to pieces, missing glue which would put them back together. My hands touched the ground, saving me from crashing the cold mud. After few deep breaths I glanced down to my right hand, full of sand,closing it gently.

“Fly to the neverland and stay forever young, my princess.“

Throwing the sand into the grave made my eyes  watery again. I felt like my heart stop that second the sand hit the light brown wooden top of the casket. I couldn´t move my legs, I couldn´t move my hands, I couldn´t speak, I couldn´t scream, I couldn´t cry, I just couldn´t...

                        *Six years later*

"Yes, 60 roses. Mix it please, red, pink, white.. You know.."

"Like every year, Mr. Holland, right?"

"Ye-ah, like.. Every year." I gulped and looked at my feet. I had come here every year. Every year, on this specific day, I have been ordering roses. She loved them. So it was my duty to bring them to her. First year, it had been only ten of them, now sixty. 6 years, sixty roses. 10 more every year. But I still think she deserves more. As the kind old lady at the florist's was preparing the bouquet, I was looking at the ribbons and small decorations on her table.

"Can you also put this little heart in the middle? And please, use this crimson ribbon and.. Can I write something on it?"

She smiled and nodded. She tied the roses together, put a heart in the middle and handed me a pen.

"It's yours, Mr. Holland. Open your heart for her."

I sent her a sad smile and wrote a little message: It's been six years, my darling and I still can't believe you are gone. I will keep you day and night here until the day I die. I'll be living one life for the two of us.❤️

After reading my message, she couldn't hide emotions. She looked me in the eyes, both of us were about to cry.

"She would be proud of you, what a handsome, kind-hearted and, mostly, loving man you have become. It's really sad you had to say your goodbyes that soon. How old were you? 18? Oh, darling, come here. I can see you loved her with your whole heart." She came to me and hugged me tightly. I lost it that second. I started crying uncontrollably into her arm.

" I still love her. I can't think of any other girl, but her. She was the one. "

" Shh, darling, I know it hurts. I lost my husband many years ago. It will always hurt to think about our loved ones, but you know what? You have to move on. You have to move on with your life. Not with her, but with your life. Think of her, think of all the amazing memories you have with her, buy her flowers, look at her photos, visit her grave, but not more than it's necessary. You are only 24, am I right? She would want you to be happy, living your best life. You can do it without her. It will be hard, but you can do it. Honour her memory, show everyone what was her legacy when she was alive, show her in yourself. But still live your own life. You can be happy again, but you have to allow the happiness coming to you. Open your heart again. You are brave boy, I know you can do it. "

I was speechless. What was I supposed to say? She was right. In every sentence, there was one big truth. But I was scared. Letting her go, was the scariest things I promised myself to never do. But I had to. For the sake of my family, friends and my own.

"Thank you, Mrs. Harris. I'll see you next year. " I payed and took a bouquet.

" I hope to see you sooner. And if we are lucky, you will come to buy flowers for your new girlfriend. Goodbye, have a nice day. Don't be sad, please. Take care of yourself."

" Will do, bye." I waved her and got back to my car. I needed to take a deep breath before I started it. Without much thinking I headed directly to cemetery. The moment I stepped on the cold wet grass from the storm this morning, the goosebumps took over my whole body. It's here again. The day, when my being lost it's purpose, when my heart stopped beating, when my soul faded away and my whole life collapsed as a house of card we played every weekend. 50 steps forward, 20 to the side and I was finally there. Her tombstone appeared in front of me. The old oak tree was covering it, protecting before the storms or the sun which was shining strongly today. As every year on this exact day. The worst storm could raged the night before, but every single time I came to graveyard, I was welcomed by the sun. It was almost like she was smiling at me through the clouds.

-Hello, my love.- I came closer and touched the cold stone. A single tear excaped my eye. I looked at the small photo in the right corner, right next to her name. - I.. Miss you. So much. Every day, I think about you. And after 6 years, it's still unbelievable you are not here with me. I miss your laugh when I make a stupid joke, I miss your cooking skills even tho we always ended up ordering pizza, cuz you burnt out the food. And I miss how you were angry about yourself and entreated you wouldn't cook again. But still you did. And I loved it. I loved how you shrinked your nose when you didn't like something, especially when I left my socks all over the house. Haha, I still do it, I am sorry. But mostly, I loved our movie nights. Just you and me under the blanket, all cozy with movie playing in the background. Well, I can't remember any movie we watched together. Maybe it's because we stopped paying attention after like 20 minutes. My hands were roaming over your body, exploring, touching, your lips were on mine...Ach. I miss what we had. Sometimes.. Sometimes I read our old conversations, looking through our photos listening to our songs and.. It all reminds me how much I miss you. Do you remember the first day we met? We were... -

"Tom? Tom, is it you?" A voice pulled me out from my thoughts. I backed a bit and turned around.

"Oh Tom. After all this time, you are still coming back again and again?"

"Always." I sniffed and glance at the man standing in front of me. It was her brother. I haven't seen him in years. He hugged me.

"I see you gave her roses. She loved them. I have been wondering all these years who can buy them for her. And you were one of my tips." He smiled at me.

"Who else was your tip?"

He remained quiet and looked at the sky.

,, It is a beautiful day, isn't it? She loved sunny weather in summer. But who knows it better then you, right? I still can clearly remember how you two sneaked through the window in the middle of the night so you can watch stars. She was glowing with you, exactly like one of them. "He laughed a bit.

" No. " I said quietly.

" Pardon? "

"She wasn't just a star to me. She was a whole sky. My whole world. My everything. " I couldn't hold it anymore. I burst into tears.

"Hey, hey Tom. It's okay. Everything's gonna be okay. Shh, don't cry, please. It's been 6 years, Tom. I know you miss her, I miss her too,but you have to move on. You have to teach how to live without her. She would want it, she would want the best for you. And it's moving on with your life. Do you have a girlfriend? Or have you dated since then?"

"No. I-I couldn't do that to her. I..just couldn't. I need her."

"Tom, she is dead. She is dead and is never gonna come back, ever!"

"Shut up! I know! I fucking know! But it hurts, you know?! It hurts like hell. Everyone wants me to move on, I WANT TO MOVE ON. But I don't know how, I don't know what to do! I AM SCARED!" I pushed him away and put my face into my hands. I was shaking, I was crying, I was broken.

" I am sorry, I am so sorry.. " I started murmuring.

" It's alright, Tom. I get you. "

[endydancer1]

Sick || T.H

Pairing: Tom Holland x reader

Words: 4.4k

Summary: You are alone and sick on valentine's day. But when your boyfriend finds out, you're not so alone anymore.

Warning: FLUFF! Lots of it! Suggestive comment. Neck kisses and bad writing.

A/n: ahh I really hope you guys like it! I really enjoyed writing this. This isn't that good so bare with me. Criticism is welcome.

Also, thank you @tinyyoungblood for proof-reading this! I really appreciate it! :)

"Hi! How are you, Tommy?" your eyes widened at your raspy, weak voice, Tom's eyebrows furrowed just the tiniest bit, you chanted a prayer in your head, that Tom wouldn't think much of it. But to your luck, this just wasn't your day. 

As if things weren't bad enough, you got sick on Valentine's day.

You wrapped the blanket tighter around your form as you shivered in the slightly cold air. You groaned in exhaustion from puking your guts out for the second time in the past hour, your eyes could barely stay open, you felt like you were dying. And maybe that wouldn't be too bad, considering how bad your stomach ache was. Your boyfriend Tom was away for his movie and you couldn't go with him due to work. Just then your phone rang making you whine out loud, you didn't have to look because you already knew who it was. You immediately grabbed the phone, eyes widening at Tom's face on the small screen of your phone. Normally, you would answer the phone immediately but this time you were a little hesitant because Tom was oblivious of your little condition. Well, of course, you weren't gonna tell him, he gets worried easily and he's already stressed about his new project, you didn't want to add more pressure. Not to mention, he feels so guilty for not being here for valentine's day. But you couldn't not pick too, he'd definitely know something's up. As you answered the face time, a smile graced your lips nonetheless as your boyfriend's cheerful face popped on your screen, making you miss him all the more. You just wanted to wrap your arms around him and never let go and kiss him all over his face. Was that too much to ask for? You put on a cheery smile, trying your hardest to conceal your feral state. 

"I'm fine, are you okay, darling?" Tom's voice was laced with worry, you immediately cleared your voice and thickened it, in an attempt to sound even somewhat okay than what your voice was insinuating. 

"Yeah, I am great, why do you ask?" you acted nonchalantly, his eyes narrowed suspiciously making you gulp in fear. 

"You don't look fine to me" his eyes were now in slits, at this point he knew something wasn't right. 

"What? No, I'm really fine." Your lips stretched in a big smile, which he wasn't buying even a bit. 

"Oh no, I definitely know something's up. What's wrong, love?" His voice dripped with concern and you could tell that he felt really bad for not being here with you. In times like this, you wish he didn't know you so well. 

"Nothing's wrong! Why are you saying that?" Your voice was getting weaker every time you spoke, you felt like, soon you wouldn't be able to speak properly.

"Because your eyelashes are wet, your face is very pale and your voice is very weak, darling, I'm really worried here so would you just tell me what's wrong?" He asks with his beady eyes, a huge frown settled onto his pretty face. 

"But if I tell you, then you'll feel bad" you sighed defeatedly, your voice selling you out allowing him to see your poor state. 

"No I won't, now please tell me, I'm worried sick here, did you get sick?" You slowly nodded to his question. 

"Yeah, but it's okay, I'm fine. I just threw up a little. No biggie" you tried to make it seem like nothing but his eyes almost popped out of their sockets when you mentioned throwing up. 

"Sweetheart, why didn't you tell me? I can see you're not fine at all" His face contorted in a hurt look, making you pout.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't wanna bother you, while you are away filming, I know you're already so stressed" you reasoned, but he looked more hurt than ever. You immediately regretted saying the first line. 

"No, you are not bothering me with these things. I want you- I need you to tell me these things. And I'm not that stressed to not know what my girlfriend's going through. I want to know everything there is to know" he looked so sincere, making your heart swell with love, you missed him so much. 

"I'm sorry, it won't happen again" 

"I hope so. Now, tell me what happened? Did you eat something bad?" He questions, genuinely interested. 

"No, I think I got cold" you sniffled "I'm on my period too" 

"Really? Now, I really wish I could be there now" 

"Hey, it's ok, don't feel bad. I'll be fine soon, Tommy." You tried to comfort him, making him sigh. 

"I just really really miss you, darling" he smiled sadly, making you smile softly at him. 

"I miss you too, Tom" you whisper, your eyes drooping with exhaustion, which didn't go unnoticed by Tom. 

"You should rest, love, and I think they need me on set" you would've protested if it wasn't for your heavy lids about to shut anytime. You hummed and murmured a small 'goodbye' before you put your phone aside, snuggling the plushie Tom got you for whenever he was away and slipping into a dreamless, deep slumber.

You woke up when you felt something coming up your throat, you groaned from exhaustion thinking what could possibly come out now when you had already puked out your lunch or everything you had eaten that day. You ran to that bathroom as quickly as your feet would allow you. Retching into the toilet, nothing but water coming out, which you drank to calm your insides. You fell onto your knees, resting your abdomen on the cold wall, your eyes slipping shut.

All of a sudden, you felt an arm wrap around your back and under your knees, swooping you up, if you had the energy you would've yelped or screamed. You wrapped around the person's neck, immediately recognizing the familiar warmth and scent, making you snuggle closer to him, your insides burst with happiness. At least, what's left of them, anyway. 

"Yay! You're home" you cheered weakly, your voice much worse than before. Tom sat down with you in his lap, your face nuzzled in his neck, breathing in his intoxicating smell, god how much you've missed that smell. You pressed a small kiss on his neck before looking up.

"Hello, love" he softly smiled at you, you returned an even bigger smile, looking into his beautiful chocolate orbs.

"Please tell me this isn't a dream because if it is, imma kill a bitch" he laughed at your joke, his eyes crinkling at the end, making you believe he was real and he was there. With you.

"Oh my dear Y/n, always wanting to kill someone." He mocked, making you smile wider at him. 

"And I'm right here, baby. Always and forever" he promised to make you melt into a puddle.

"Oh baby, you look so pale and weak" he worried, wiping a dried tear at the end of your eye. "How do you feel, now?"

"Awesome!" You tried to not sound sick, but Tom saw right through you. 

"I feel so exhausted," you admitted, closing your eyes. "And my stomach hurts really bad." You groaned, slowly opening your eyes to acknowledge Tom's expression.

"How bout I make you that soup that always makes you feel better?" you made a face at his statement.

"Yeah, I guess. But be back soon, I want cuddles" you tightened your arms around him, emphasizing your statement.

"I'll be right back" he kissed the corner of your lips, gently placing you down on the bed and tugged the warm quilts u top your body. You smiled and sighed softly, the moment sinking in. Tom flew, in between filming just to be with you, your eyes teared up at the thought. He was so sweet, your heart swelled with endless love for him, feeling it about to burst anytime now. You heard footsteps, making their way towards the bedroom.

"Here you go, darling" he sat next to you, passing the bowl to you. You didn't realize how much you were starving till you took a whiff of the soup, your stomach growling loudly, making Tom chuckle lightly. You immediately slurped the whole thing in a few minutes. You didn't wanna admit it but this time the soup tasted really good, maybe it was because you were really hungry. Tom took the bowl from you and placed it on the nightstand.

"Feeling better?" He asked, you crawled into his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck, nuzzling in the crook of his neck, taking in his sweet smell your eyes fell close in bliss.

"Yes. Much better" you answered pecking right under his jaw. He kissed your neck in return.

"You should go to sleep now, baby" he rubbed your back soothingly, ready for you to get off of him. You did the exact opposite, you tightened your arms around him.

"Nooooooo" you whined loudly, wrapping your legs around his waist, completely trapping him up. "You traveled from the other end of the state, just to be here with me. I'm not gonna waste a. single. minute" you promised, kissing his lips. "So, how are you here? I thought shooting won't end for another two weeks" you looked up at him to gauge his reaction. 

"Well, I went up to them and told them to give me a day off because it's valentine's day and my girl is sick" every time, he said that your heart couldn't help but flutter. "And when they didn't, I had no other choice but to take out the big guns. So, I begged. And when I beg, I beg ugly" he said, wearing his proud smile, making you giggle. 

"Awww, I can't believe you did all that for me" you kissed him deeply, your hands playing with the small hair at the nape of his neck. 

"Of course, I would do anything for you, darling." He kissed you back with more passion, tightening his hold on you.  

"So…" you hesitantly started, gathering the courage to ask the question of which you really don't want an answer. "When will you be uh going back?" You looked up at him through your eyelashes, a small frown on your lips, already knowing you wouldn't like the answer. His lips pressed in a straight line, he looked down and then back up at your face, contemplating whether he should tell you or not. 

"Uhh, I'm here for only another day" he pouts at you, your frown deepening. "But hey, don't worry I'll be back in a week or two" he quickly added trying to lighten your mood but your frown didn't falter.

"What am I gonna do for two weeks apart from you? Two weeks are really long! Two weeks has 14 days and 14 days are not very less!" You whined, flailing your arms around like a child. 

"I know, I'm sorry, love. But I promise, they're gonna pass away within a blink of the eye" his voice dripped with sadness, making you sigh out loud, you knew you didn't have much choice here.

"Oo, hey I have an idea!" Your eyes lit up with excitement, he raised his eyebrows at you warily. "What if I come with you?" You smiled widely at him, over-hyped with the idea.

"Darling, as much as I would love it and I really really would, you have a job" he deadpanned, but your expression remained unchanged. 

"So, to hell with it! I'll find another one! I don't like it anyways!" His eyebrows almost reached his hairline, an incredulous expression on his face.

"You love your job"

"Pfft, I don't. They make me get up really early in the morning" 

"Sorry, darling but I'm not gonna let you quit, just cause of that. We both know you'll regret it later" he reasoned, you frowned and pouted at him petulantly.

"Nuh-uh! I'm coming with you. I don't care, I'm never getting off of you. You'd have to do your scenes just like this!" You clutched onto him as tight as you could. 

"Y/n" 

"No no no no no no. Take me with you! Please, I'm begging you!!" You gave him your best puppy dog face. His eyes softened, he pecked your lips repeatedly till your pout softened.

"Baby, you know you can't come with me" He rubbed your back up and down, soothingly. You sighed and nuzzled his neck again and mumbled a small 'yea I know.

"Hey, I bought something for you for valentine's day" he sets you down on the bed gently, going over to his bags, he sat on his heels and looked back at you, smiling "close your eyes, darling," he says cheekily, you roll your eyes at him playfully, a small smile playing on your lips nonetheless. You closed your eyes, tightly and waited, you slowly opened one eye a little and found Tom looking directly at you.

"Hey, no peeking!"

"Sorry!" 

This time you waited patiently with closed eyes, you felt the bed dip after a few minutes but didn't feel anything else, Tom was taking too long. You were about to whine out loud when you felt Tom's wet lips pressed against your cheek and something cold slide up your neck. You gasped lightly, opening your eyes, you looked down and found a beautiful heart-shaped locket adorning your neck, your smile brightened at the sight of it. 

"Tom! This is so damn gorgeous! Thank you so much! I absolutely love this!" You engulf him in a tight hug, he kisses your neck just above the chain. 

"Go on, open it" 

"Whoa, it opens?" You ask surprised, fiddling with the locket checking if it actually does. You stuck your thumbnail into the small space and it ticks open making you gasp. Inside was a photo of you and Tom, him hugging you from behind. You remember that day just like it was yesterday, one of the most amazing days of your life, every day with Tom was the best though. 

"I'm never taking this off. Ever" 

"Take it off when you're asleep, I don't want you choking on it" 

"Yeah, I'd rather choke on something else" you giggled. His eyes widened before a pink flush crept up his neck to his ears and cheeks. He shook his head murmuring something to himself about controlling himself, making you giggle more. 

"Don't tempt me, darling" he warned playfully, narrowing his eyes a little. You grinned, teasingly at him. "It's getting pretty late now, let's go to sleep. I know you must be exhausted" he rolled you both over so you were laying down and he was practically on top of you, he pecked the tip of your nose before getting off of you and the bed. 

Never once breaking eye contact, he took off his jacket, his t-shirt the following suit. You bit your bottom lip, as his buff torso came into view, maybe it was the fact that you're on your period or maybe it was because you've seen him after a very long time, in the meantime you got used to seeing him on your little phone screen, you almost forgot how all that could never make up for all this. All those shirtless pictures of Tom you've seen on social media could never be compared to this, it wouldn't be a fair competition. Anyways, you never wanted to jump his bones as much as you did at this moment and you don't know how you're gonna control yourself for another week. He smirked at your reaction, which made you even more bothered. You sighed out loud, accepting your fate and hoping the week passes by quickly. He took off his pants, you turned your head the other way because, oh boy oh boy! He threw on his sweats and jumped in bed, pulling you into his chest, you quickly snuggled up to him, listening to his steady and calm heartbeat slowly lulled you to a peaceful dreamless sleep. The last thing you heard was him whispering 'goodnight, princess' with a kiss on your head. 

You slowly stirred awake from your very deep and serene slumber, you hadn't slept this good for days and you figured the reason behind it was Tom, your human pillow, which was missing when you searched for him. Your eyebrows furrowed and a whine rumbled deep into your chest. "Tooommmmmm" when you got no response, the thought of him leaving came up to you and your eyes immediately teared up. "Tom?" your voice was small, almost like you were gonna start bawling your eyes anytime soon, your bottom lip started quivering. 

"Hey, hey, darling I'm right here." He entered the room getting into the bed. You immediately jumped into his embrace, making you let out a sigh of relief.

"I thought you left me" your raspy voice broke, making his heart clench. He cupped your jaw, making you look at him with a tearful gaze. He looked into your eyes softly, wordlessly reassuring you, your shoulders dropped in relief.

"I can never. Even if I want to"

You exhaled out, nuzzling into his neck, pressing a few pecks there. 

"And we have the whole day to ourselves before my flight" he softly mumbled against your neck, rubbing his lips against it knowing well it tickles making you giggle and pull back slightly. 

"There it is" he whispers almost like he's talking to himself, making you blush "my most favorite sound in the world".

"Now, you go freshen up I'll prepare your breakfast, yeah?" His thumb caressed your cheek lightly, you nodded in response, he kissed you sweetly before helping you out of bed and ushering you into the washroom.

***

A sweet fragrance hit you as you came out of the bathroom, freshly showered, in Tom's long t-shirt and your short shorts. The aroma was strong and sweet, you could practically taste it on your tongue, making your stomach grumble in hunger. You immediately sprinted into the kitchen with a big smile on your face and there he was in just his sweats making your favorite.

"Waffles! Yayy!" You cheered loudly, startling him, he turned around and smiled lovingly at you. 

"Yes and not just any waffles, strawberry waffles!" He grinned at you and motioned for you to sit. You sat down in the chair, your mouth practically drooling.

Tom placed your plate in front of you, which had a big waffle covered in whipped cream and red strawberries. You didn't even wait for Tom and dived straight into your meal. And when you took the first bite, a loud moan escaped your lips. 

It was the best thing you've ever tasted. 

"You like it, darling?" 

"I absolutely love it" you speak with your mouth full, making Tom chuckle. 

You both talked to each other about the stuff the other had been up to while Tom was away, resulting in you choking on your food a few times. When you finished up, you looked at Tom and made grabby hands. 

"Let's go back to bed, now"

"You wanna spend the whole day in bed?" He asks, amused, making your pout. He makes his way to you, standing in between your legs making you wrap your limbs around his muscular body.

"Well, yeah I don't wanna waste a single minute till you have to go away again. And I want cuddles, you have no idea how much I missed em. And well I wanted to do a lot more but you know… we can't" you say, quietly playing with the hair at the nape of his neck, looking at his delicious pecks, stealing small glances of his face once in a while. His eyes darken a little, his arms wrapping around your body.

"Yeah, let's go to bed" he abruptly picks you up, making you squeal. One hand lightly caresses your butt and the other holds your waist. You nuzzle into his neck, loving his warmth and his presence in general, which provides you with a great sense of security and comfort. 

As he reaches into the bedroom, you expect him to drop you onto the bed but he climbs onto the bed with you still in his arms. He lies down and gets the both of you under the warm covers, you giggle at his shenanigans, he wraps his arm around your waist pulling you close to his naked chest. His hand creeps under your shirt, caressing your hot skin, drawing random shapes. You look into his eyes with fondness, a small smile tugging at the corner of your lips. 

"Your eyes are so damm pretty" you whisper, caught in a trance. He chuckles lightly, pulling you, even more, closer to him.

"You say that all the time. Thanks, though we all know you have the best eyes in the whole world." Heat creeps up your cheeks at the comment, you playfully roll your eyes. 

"Pfft, that's not true." 

"Yeah, it is! I've never believed much in the quote 'eyes are the windows to the soul' until I met you. Your eyes hold so many emotions, I didn't even know half of them existed. They hold so much love for everything and the way they light up when you're excited or happy. The way they are small or looking down when you're sad, I don't like seeing them sad. I've never seen someone's eyes hold so much emotion in them, it's the main reason I fell in love with you. The moment I looked into your eyes, I was a goner, I knew I had to make you mine no matter what." He says, leaving you with a gaping mouth and eyes. "They're so pure and innocent that sometimes I get scared, someone will take advantage of that innocence" he slightly frowns at the thought, your eyes tear up at his words. 

"Oh, Tom… that is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me and ever will. You don't know how much that means to me." You sniffle, nuzzling in his chest. He lifts your face, looking at you with affection, he slowly connects your lips making your heart flutter. He bit your lip making you whimper, you both kissed each other for a while before pulling away before things got too heated. Your foreheads rested against each other, his thumb caressing your cheek just under your eye. He connected your lips, making you hum in pleasure. His one hand tangled in your holding you passionately against his mouth, yours went around his neck tugging at his hair, deepening the kiss. Soon, it became open mouth and sucking at each other's lips, a moan coming out of both of you momentarily. He licked into your mouth making you moan and tighten your grasp on his hair. You both pulled away before it got too heated, pressing your heads against each other. Then it hit you how little time you have with him, how much you're gonna miss him, his warmth, his security, his kisses, his hold, his words. The list was endless. 

You wanted to cry and convince him once again to take you with but you knew you couldn't. You pressed your body against him entirely, burying your face in his chest, he must've realized your downfall as he wrapped you in his embrace tightly, showering you with kisses. 

"Tom, don't-"

"Shh, princess" he cooed softly hushing you, knowing if you asked one more time, he would've stayed, he would've stayed no matter the consequences. "Let's just be in the moment, yeah?" He felt you nod against his chest. 

So you both just did that. 

You both hoped, the moment could freeze and you both could've stayed like that for the rest of the eternity. Hell, you both would die in each other's arms. 

***

Just like that, the time flew away, you both spent the day talking, making out, eating and cuddling, and more making out. 

It was time.

He had to leave in an hour, it was breaking your heart seeing him getting ready just to leave, you mentally prepared yourself and told yourself over and over again to not cry. He turned towards you in his white t-shirt, denim jacket, and his sexy jeans. He looked so dreamy. 

He sat down beside you, a sad expression on his face, mirroring your own. He proceeded to kiss you slowly but you immediately deepened the kiss, sucking on his lip with fervor. He pulled away, making you chase his lips. You whined lightly at him, making him peck you.

He smiled mischievously like an idea just popped into his mind.

"Lemme give you something to remember me by" he whispered lightly in your ear, peppering small kisses down your neck, his kisses getting intended by the second. Soon, he started nipping and biting at the flesh, making you whimper and close your eyes. He sucked harshly, definitely leaving behind a mark, he moved back admiring his work, with a small smile on his thin lips. 

"There," he murmurs, looking you in the eye. 

"What? Just one? I want more! Get on with it" you push his head back on your neck, he chuckles lightly before sucking on a different spot just above the chain of your locket, your sweet spot, making you fall on your back with a moan, he gets on top, not once stopping his actions. He focuses entirely on your neck and makes you moan and writhe, under him. After a good amount of time, he pulls away, biting his lip at the sight before him. You sprawled up on the bed with a wanton look on your face, neck covered in his name hickies, it was the most beautiful sight he's seen in a while. He sighs and takes a moment to gather himself. 

"You're making this so much harder than it already is, love," he says, looking up at you. You pull yourself up with him, kissing him farewell. 

"I'll se-" 

"Don't" you press your index finger on his lips, hushing him. "Don't say bye or I'll see you soon or anything" you say, the sad look returning to your features, tears forming in your eyes.

"Please don't cry, darling, I'm gonna start crying too", his eyes tearing up too, your lips quivered, his thumb slowly smoothed out your lips. 

"I'm not crying" you sniffled, trying your best to hold your tears in.

"I'm going to miss you so much, princess" he hugged you, your vision blurring. 

"I love you, Tom" 

"I love you more, (Y/n)" 

Tagging some moots:

@azaraspirit @spideyspeaches @queenicebreaker @peterbenjiparker @kelieah @tinyyoungblood @osterfieldshollandgirl @bookwormlovers-blog @mendesxruel @darling-tommy @uglypastels @terrifictomholland

[endydancer1]

Struggles

Just a small draft. Please enjoy. Have a beautiful day. ❤️

Pairing: Tom Holland x student girlfriend (OC)

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I tossed the stack of papers under my table. I can't see it anymore. After 3 hard weeks, full of studying, crying aftewards, sleepless nights with zero socialization it was finally over. I had my last test that morning. It was the most difficult one in my life so far and I didn't even know if I managed to have at least 1 good answer. I really didn't wanna do it again. Not this test, please. Anything else but this. I lied my head on the pillow and closed my eyes. My mind still seemed to be restless. Calculating, trying to remember the questions and answers I had written down. Oh I could already see all the mistakes I made. My eyes started to be watery, tears rolling down.

-I didn't pass it, I am so dumb, I've got everything wrong. You are such a loser Nicola! Why are you still doing this? Why are you ashaming your school, asistents, mentors, doctors, parents.. Your boyfriend.-  I felt so worthless, like nobody, again. The ringing snapped me from my pity thoughts. I opened eyes and sit down to see who is calling me. The photo of Tom appeared on the screen. I signed, hasitating if I should answer or not. The screen went back again before I could make my decision. It was the 50th missed call from him and you don't want me to count the messages he was constantly typing, I had to uninstall every social media app I had had. I should finally answer him, he is probably worried. Well after 3 weeks that your girlfriend is not answering you even tho you know she has exams is enough to make you worry as hell, right? I took a phone with my shaking hands, typing Tom's number in it with a deep breathe before calling him. I needn't to wait long, after first ring he picked up.

"Niky! Omg I am so glad you picked up! I know you were studying and it was important to you, but why weren't you answering? I thought something happened, that you are in a hospital or something. Babe, please don't do this to me next time. I love you so much, I can't live without you! "

I started crying when I heard his voice. How I missed it. How I missed talking to him, cuddling him, our late night talks, him singing for me. Three weeks without him felt like forever. And yet he still loves me, after ghosting him for three fucking weeks.

"I-I am.. I am so sorry Tom, so sorry." I managed to say quietly, hoping he heard at least something.

"Hey, hey babe, that's okay, I am not mad. I was just worried. What happened? Niky, tell me you are alright? Did someone hurt you? Because if yes I-.."

"It's my fault. It's just me, Tommy. Don't worry."

"What do you mean it's your fault? What's wrong?"

"I am such a disappointment. I am stupid and I will never achieve anything. And also I am sure I didn't passed the test today. Tommy, I am so sorry I am such a shame for you."

"Babe, babe please don't talk like that! You are not disappointment, you are not stupid. God you are like the smartest person I know. You should be ashamed of me! Hey, do you remember when we played pub quiz in the summer? Who get everything right? Well, not me, obviously, but you! You helped me many times with anything. Thanks to you I didn't get infection, when I broke my nose last time, you are taking care of me every single time I do something stupid and cut myself, broke anything or just hit myself hard. Don't ever say you won't achieve anything! You are at medschool, goddammit, I wouldn't be allowed to walk past the building, nor attending it. You will be a great doctor, Niky. And you know why? Not because of your knowledge you sure have, I know it, but because of your passion, your hard work and your will to help others. I don't know anyone who could fit the doctor's job better  than you. I see that spark in your eyes every time you are talking about school, what you were doing, about hospital life and every time something happens to me, to my friends, family or to complete strangers on the streets the fire lights in you and you dropped everything to help others. That's what it's about. Not about one stupid test where they test you just theoretically and it's not always the right thing to do. It's about the moment you write the rest, about questions, but when it comes to the real world, no one will ask stupid theorems. You were the one telling me that what you are studying theoretically is the perfect example. But the real world is not perfect. One test doesn't define YOU, your true self and it doesn't effect your future. It's just a test. And beside all of this, I am sure you passed it, and if not now, next time for sure. By hook or by crook I am still super proud of you. Don't ever forget that. I love you, so much. "

" Tommy,... I love you so much. Thank you. You always know what to say. I couldn't have wish for a better boyfriend. You are my everything. When do you have time? I need to see you, to compensate you these three weeks. You can come to me or I will fly to London, it doesn't matter. I just need you. "

" Well, I will be by your flat in an hour, but if you can't wait that much, come to train station in half an hour, I am almost there. " He joked.

" Wait what? You are here? For real? "It caught me out of guard. I didn't expect him to come visit me when I am in school.

" Surprise! You haven't been answering your phone so I booked first flight and now, I took a train to you. So it would be nice if you could come to train station so I can hug you and take you for a lunch somewhere. You deserve good food after your hard work. And maybe a little surprise too. "

" Tommyyy, too many surprises, don't you think? But thank you so much. That's what I want the most right now, the good food. "

" Hey! And what about me?! "he said offended, but immediately started laughing.

" I said it's what I want the most, I can survive without it tho. You can survive without food. But what I NEED is YOU. I need you, Tommy. And I can't survive without you! "

" God, that's why I love you so much. I'll be there soon."

"Can't wait!"

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We used to be strangers | Part 6

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and his heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression, thinking of suicide.

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"Tom, get the fuck out of the bathroom! You are having a shower for almost an hour! There are 3 other boys living in this house if you haven't noticed yet!" Haz was forcefully knocking on the bathroom door. He had been standing there for good 20 minutes. Tom had went to the shower at 10 am and it was almost 11! Finally the lock clicked and the door opened showing naked Tom  wearing only a towel around his waist.

TOM'S POV:

"Holy Odin, thank you. What did take you so long?! Don't tell me you were actually showering 60 minutes!" Haz looked at me a bit annoyed.

"I was. I am sorry. I needed to shave and clean myself properly." I glanced innocently at him.

"Oh so you had to shave. Why?  Are you going on a date? You normally don't spend that much time in a shower even if you are shaving. So what's up?"

"No, I don't have a date. I just.. Want to look nice, you know? I am coming to hospital to see Y/N."

"Oh, I see now. So you are finally falling for someone new. And while she is in hospital she can't run away from you when you would want to play with her, right?" Haz teased.

I just rolled my eyes and pushed him out of my way.

"Yeah, that's my dark plan. But it's a secret, don't tell anyone or I will be forced to play with you too." I smirked and walked into my room.

"You need someone to play with you already cuz you are unbearable." I heard Haz laughing before I closed the door behind me.

"Well, what should I wear?" I was standing on one place for good 3 minutes directly looking into my closet. - What am I doing? I have never been thinking that much about what should I wear on the regular day. I don't even shower that long. Was it really an hour?- I looked at my phone. - It was! Oh God. I wasn't that nervous and didn't care that much about my look even when I went on a first date with Anna. And another thing is I don't even have a date today! It's just.. Casual visit of someone I saved, right?- I just sighed and took step closer to my closet.

"Hmm, what about this? Jeans with denin jacket. It's a bit casual, but hey, I won't spoil anything with that." I dried my hair, dressed myself and walked out of my room. There was no one except me and Haz in the house.

"Harrison? Are you ready? Can we go?" I shouted waiting in front of his room.

"I am waiting for you in the living room you div!"

"Sorry! I thought you were still in your room!" I came down to living room.

"Well not everyone is as slow as you." He stood up and took his car keys. "Let's go!"

After lunch we went to the shopping centre, because I needed to buy something for Y/N.

"Uhm, Haz? What should I buy for Y/N? I promised her to watch movies with her, but I don't know which she would want to watch."

"Well, you probably should have asked her."

"You are not helping mate!"

"I am sorry, I am sorry, I am just messing with you,haha. Well, from what you have already said about her, she doesn't know you are an actor. So probably you can show her one of your movies."

"I don't think it would be a good idea. I don't want to look like a selfish prick. And.. What if she is that kind of girl who would want me only because of my money and fame?" I glanced at my feets and played with my fingers nervously.

"Tom, I understand, but you said she sent you a heart emoji and it's a good sign!" Haz poked my arm gently and a laugh a bit.

"Yeah, but she probably saw my Instagram profile and she probably knows I am famous by now."

"Well..it's also possible, but maybe she doesn't know yet. You know what then? Take one or two Marvel movies. Iron Man or Thor, or Avengers, to see if she like these kind of movies, take some romantic comedies, you know, because girls like them, right? Take your favourite movie and maybe.. Oh yeah, try any of your movies where you were young. If she notices it, you know? The Impossible or In the heart of the sea? "

" That can actually works. Thank you Haz, what would I do without you." I smiled at him. "And we should borrow it from movie rental, because I doubt they have Netflix in the hospital." I chuckled. We borrowed 5 movies.

"Mate look at this hoodie! I need it! Haz, I need it!"

"Oh God Tom, you have tons of Spiderman hoodies! You really don't need another one..."

"But look at it!"

"It's just saying Mr. Stark I don't feel so good! Tom, this meme is over."

"Well not for me. I am gettin' it and you can't do anything about it!"

"God, fine! Buy it, but hurry up if you want me to take you to hospital." Haz rolled his eyes and waited for me outside the shop.

"I've got it! Yay!" I rushed out of the shop full of joy from my new purchase.

"You are such a kid Tom, you know? How old are? 5?" He laughed at me. "Let's go. You should buy some snacks."

"Why? I am the snack, she can eat me" I joked.

"Or you can eat her, huh?"

"Harrison! But yeah.. Maybe I will!"

"One day.." Haz sticked his tongue out.

We teased each other the whole ride to the hospital. Harrison told me to call him when I wanted him to pick me up. We said our goodbye and I went into the building.

"Good afternoon Mrs. Brown. How are you? I know I am here a bit early, but I here to visit Y/N." I smiled at young lady at the reception. Her face had already dropped while I spoke. Sad smile appeared on her face.

"I am sorry, Mr. Holland. You should go home and rather forget about her."

"W-what? Why? What happened? Is she okay?"

"I shouldn't be telling you this, but she probably won't survive much longer."

"What? You have to be joking? I was talking to her yesterday. She was fine. What happened? If it has something to with that Melendez guy I am sorry. But ple, don't joke about her dying, I.."

"I am not joking, Mr. Holland. I would have never joked about such a thing. She is my best friend. And she is dying. So please,don't make it even harder for me."

"C-can I.. Can I at least see her? One last time?"

"I am sorry, you can't. She is on fluid resuscitation right now."

I could feel my eyes started watering. I felt familiar anxiety and my heart almost stopped working. My palms started sweating, I felt dizzy. I had to sit down for a moment.

"Do you need water, Mr. Holland?"

I wasn't able to speak. My voice was caught deep in my throat. My eyes were blankly staring at the wall in front of me. I didn't even notice when she left to grab me some water.

"Here, drink it." She handed me cup of water and crunched in front of me. "Listen, I know how you feel. Y/N is amazing person, you don't know her for a long time, but I am sure you could see that. She doesn't deserve to die like this and this soon, but it's what it is. We have to deal with it. She wouldn't want you to cry over her death. She would want you to continue your life with joy. Let's honour every moment we could spend with her and if the worst comes, we should let her die in peace. " She gently rubbed the back of my hand. I looked at her with puffy red eyes.

" I don't want her to die. " I said with raspy voice.

" I know. Me neither, but she was diagnosed with severe damages to her body, her condition is really miserable and there is only a small chance of her to survive this even with the best doctors and facilities."

I growled and put my head into my hands. I didn't even try to keep my sobbs quiet. Mrs. Brown hugged me tightly.

" Psst. It will be okay. I feel the same. You are not alone. But you should go home now. Spend some time with your family and friends. It's okay to cry, but don't let it affect you in other ways. Do you have someone to pick you up?"

"What's her diagnose? What happened? Can you at least tell me so I know when she.. When she dies what causes it?"

"She suffers a septic shock. It's severe condition when 50% of patients dies, because of multiple organs failure."

"But.. She was okay yesterday. How could it happened?"

"Septic shock is caused by sepsis which does not respond the treatment.  Your blood pressure drops to a dangerously low level after sepsis."

"Oh my God." I gulped and felt dizzy again. My skin was pale.

"Mr. Holland, look at me. Do you have someone to take you home? Can you give me your phone so I can call you someone?"

I can't remember properly how I managed to unlock my phone and handed it to her. Her voice was muffled and my head hurt. I didn't know how much time passed, but suddenly Harrison appeared in front of me.

" Hey, mate. I am here, I am here. Can you stand up? I am taking you home." He helped me to stand up and led me in the car. He managed to sat me on the front seat.

"Wait for me I need to speak to the nurse. Can you do that?"

I nodded absently. He walked back to the nurse I was talking to, Mrs. Brown. She explained what happened and what he should do with me. After a minute or two, Haz took me home. I cant tell you how long the ride was, because only thing I could think about was Y/N. She was dying. Dying and I couldn't help her. I only spoke to her for a few hours, but I had already felt the bond between us. I couldn't lose her. I didn't want to be sad, broken. Not again. Not after Anna. I prayed in my head. I prayed so hard. - Please God, I have already lost the love of my life. Please, I don't want to see another person die. I have just started to have feelings for another woman, after years of being alone and crying over my sweet angel, I found another one, or at least I think I found. And you want to take her from me too? -

"Tom, Tom, please look at me. Don't cry mate, I know it's hard. I am here. Please look at me." Haz was looking at me, obviously worried. Somehow he managed to lay me down on my bed.

"Tom, do you need something? A water or something to eat?" he sat next to me on bed. I stayed quiet, not really listening what he was saying. He just sighed.

"I will give you some space. You should sleep a bit. I will be downstairs if you need something." He stood up and walked to the door.

"Stay.. Please.. I need you."

A/N: Let me know what you think about this story so far. Sorry for my English, it's not my first language and I am new with this. So I would be happy and thankful about the feedback. Have a nice day! 😊

[endydancer1]

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We used to be strangers | Part 5

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and his heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression, thinking of suicide.

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Babygirl POV:

"Who did it?!" Sam started shouting at the three of us. The three of us were standing there silently, looking at our feets.

"Hm? Answer me. I am guessing who it was, but I want to here it from you! So tell me right now or the punishment will be even worse!"

Sam was so angry his eyes darkened and his face redenned like the tomato.

I was nervously shuffling on my feets. My eyes were starting watering and I was about to cry. I was always so scared when Sam started yelling. He was horrific and acted inscrutably. I was the most scared one. Matt and Melanie were always the innocent ones. At least for Sam.

"It was her, daddy! She did that!" Melanie pointed at me. I immediately looked at her in shock.

"N-no.. I p-promise.. It wasn..."

"I thought it was you! As always! There is so much trouble everywhere you go. You don't deserve anything, because you damage everything! You should take an example from your siblings! Melanie, Matt, you can go play in the garden. And YOU will come with me! " he crossed his hands on his chest, waiting for his own kids to dissappear from his sight. When they went out, he looked at me and harshly grabbed me by my hand and started pulling me into the room in the basement. We were walking down, more likely running down the old wooden stairs in a narrow corridor. It wasn't for the first time tho. He always did that when Chloe wasn't home.

"Please no, I won't do it again. I promise! Please, pretty please.. NEVER!" I cried and was trying to get out of his hold. But his grip went even stronger.

"Shut up!" He screamed and unlocked the metal door. He pushed me into the dark, cold room and then stepped inside too. He locked the door behind himself and turned on small light bulb.

"You are always causing trouble. You need to be punished to finally realize what you have done" he showed me his back and opened one of the drawers. For a few second he was searching for something, but then.. He chuckled for himself and turned to finally face me. His face was even more scary with the small amount of light in the room. I was slowly backing up in front of him, but he was closer to me every second. Then we dissappeared in the darkness.

"Aaau! Please daddy now. It hurts! It hurts! Please stop!" I was screaming so loud that the whole street had to hear me. But no one heard me. No one. I screamed till my tonsils were able. Till my voice just shut up.

"You were a bad girl, you know? And what does the bad girl as you deserves? Nothing but this! This is what bad girls get for their behavior. Now, you will stay here, quietly thinking about what you have done!" he hurt me once again, but this time no scream came out.

" Now, you are a good girl. If you are good and quiet , maybe I will release you. I'll be back in an hour and then.. We will see what to do next with you." Sam closed the drawer and turned off the only light in the room.

"See you in hour, babygirl" he chuckled one last time and locked the door. The room went completely quiet, darkness completely surrounded me. YOU ARE VERY BAD GIRL, BABYGIRL...

TOM POV:

I closed the door from Y/N's room and was slowly walking towards the exit. I was typing to my phone, because Haz was constantly asking about my little trip to hospital. It was almost the lunch time. I spent there quite a few hours. But it felt like seconds. When I was with Y/N, I felt really good. She was so nice and beautiful. Even if our conversation didn't last for long and I wasn't able to get to know her properly, I was really happy that I could meet her.

"Bye Mr. Holland. Hope to see you soon" the nurse, Mrs. Brown was smiling and waving at me from the reception. Dr. Melendez, Y/N's wannabe boyfriend was standing there to, throwing a killing glance at me. I smiled back at her and wave too.

"Bye, Mrs. Brown. And don't worry,you will see me sooner than you think" I winked at Melendez and walked away. Jealousy was killing him, I am 100% sure about that. Vicious smile creeped onto my face.

-We will see who wins her heart, Dr. Melendez- I thought for myself and went straight back home. The boys were waiting for me at home.

"Mate, you are finally here. I am dying from hunger" Haz was overacting again. When it comes to food, he is unstoppable.

"Sorry, I have better things to do"

"Oh...so finally new girl in your life, hm? How was she?" Haz smirked and Harry with Tuwaine started laughing. I rolled my eyes.

"She is really nice. And beautiful."

"Someone fell in love. Ooh.. Little Tommy finally found someone who will play with his webshooter."

"Stop that you dicks! No one is gonna play with my webshooter. At least for some time." I had to chuckle on their words. Sometimes I would have just kick their asses, but most of the time, they were really funny.

"Well..let's eat somewhere and you can tell us about that mysterious girl" Harry stood up from the sofa, followed by Tuwaine and Haz. I nodded and took my car keys. We went to our favourite restaurant. Everyone from stuff knew us too well there, because we were there pretty often. Our schedules, especially mine was full most of the time so this was the only choice.

"Ah boys again. As always?" the owner of the restaurant greeted us with the warm smile.

"Yes. Thank you, Jamie."

He took us to our usual place where we sat and gave us menu. All of us had already been really hungry so there was not much to think about. We ordered immediately.

"So Tom. What about that girl? How is she? Did you speak to her?" the boys immediately asked me many questions.

"Yes. I spoke to her. She is really nice. Her smile, her eyes, I have to know her from somewhere. It's unbelievable how familiar she looks. But she didn't recognize me, so probably that's just a feeling I don't really know. And her name is Y/N" I immediately smiled when I said her name. Y/N.

"It's really nice name. Are you planning on meet her again?" Tuwaine asked as the waiter put our meals on table.

"Thanks. Actually.. Yes. I have her number and she asked me if I could come the next day. So tomorrow I am going to visit her again."

"Ohohoo Tommy asked for girls number. We haven't seen such a thing for years! Congrats mate! You should text her when we are back home."

"Thanks and I will. Maybe we will become good friends. Who knows."

"Or maybe lovers, hm? Haha." Harry chuckled.

"Maybe. But there is another guy. He is the doctor there and he knows her well. He took me out from her room, thanked me for saving her, but warned me there is something between them. So I am not sure if they are actually dating or not. But I think not yet. "

" So you need to fight for her! But if you show her your webshooter, she will choose you. Haha! Every girl does after she sees your little worm. "

" Harrison! It's not little worm. It's anaconda!" We all burst out into laughter.

" You are anaconda, yeah, sure. But let's be serious. Do you think she is the right one? "

" I don't know. Yeah she is definitely stunning, but I didn't talk much to her. We will see after some time, I guess. But I am not gonna deny it." I looked at the boys and finished my food. I payed for all of them and then me and Haz went to studio discuss my new project. The whole time I was thinking about Y/N. Her face was still on my mind. Where the hell could I see her before?

When we finally came home I took a shower and placed myself comfortably in bed in my room. I was still a bit wet, so I was lying there naked. I was scrolling Instagram when it suggested me some people I might have known. And her face appeared there too. I was looking on the screen for a few seconds, processing it. I opened her profile to assure myself it's her. And it was her. I instantly followed her and looked over at her photos. There weren't many, but still I have something to remind me of her face. I smiled at them. Minutes after the notification popped up on my phone. She followed me back.

-So she is still up- I thought. I went into my DM's and texted her.

A/N: Let me know what you think about this story so far. Sorry for my English, it's not my first language and I am new with this. So I would be happy and thankful about the feedback. Have a nice day! 😊

[endydancer1]

We used to be strangers | Part 4

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and his heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression, thinking of suicide.

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Tom POV:

I walked into the hospital and straightly went to the reception. The nurse immediately recognized me and smiled.

"Good morning, Mr. Holland. You managed to come. I am glad to see you here. Follow me, I will take you to Ms. Lincoln's room." She stood up and led me across the hospital to the room of THAT girl. Miss Lincoln as I learned few seconds  ago.

"She should be up already. So...take your time. She will be glad to see you, I am sure. And it's also nice of you, you bought something for her." the nurse smiled at me, when we stopped at the door.

"Thanks,Mrs.... "I ran my eyes quickly over her scrub looking for the label with her name. I found it!

".. Mrs. Brown. " I returned the smile.

" No problem, Mr. Holland. If you need me, you know where you can find me. " she winked at me and walked away. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

"Come in."

I heard a soft voice and gently push the handle. The girl, lying on the bed immediately caught my eyes. She was.. Beautiful. Even with the cuts on her face and swollen eyes, she was really beautiful and.. Familiar. I must have seen her before. Her face,that eyes, I wouldn't have forgotten such beautiful eyes. Dark blue eyes as a sea after storm, but with a little sparks inside of them. I was standing there for a few seconds which felt like hours, days, years. I would be more than willing to stare at her for the rest of my life. God, what am I doing? I cough and smile a bit.

"Ehm.. Are you... Are you Y/N Lincoln?"

"Yes, that's me. And who are you, may I ask?"

"I am Tom. Tom Holland. I... Saved you, when you, when you... fell." I was a bit nervous. I came to her bed and sit next to her on the hard chair. I put a get well soon card with chocolate and fruit on the bedside table and showed her the bouquet. She was so happy. She smiled wide. My heart skipped a beat. Oh God, why is she so cute? And when I felt her soft lips on my cheek, I reddened in a second. I hadn't felt girl's lips in ages. I realised how much I had missed it. I smiled shyly.

"Eh... The nurse called me yesterday that someone wanted to meet me. I assumed it was you. So...do you need something?" I looked at her and my eyes were running down her face, from forehead to her lips. I stopped there for a little while and then came looking back into her ocean eyes. It was strange. It felt like I had seen these eyes before.

" Uhm.. It's nice to meet you, but... It wasn't me. I've just woken up."

After she said that I felt a strange feeling. I was surprised. Who else would want to talk to me? I don't know anyone here, I wasn't here before and it's quite far from my house.

"Then.. Who? I am sorry, but I don't know anyone here."

"I am sorry, I really don't know. Maybe a nurse or someone? But I am glad you came visit me. And I don't want to bother you anymore. Certainly, you have lot of better things to do than spend time with a stranger in hospital."

"Actually.. I don't. You seem nice and it's not a big deal to spend some time with you,for me. I have nothing to do today. And.. I would like to take you out, for a coffee, maybe? Not like a date, but I want to make sure you are alright."

"Oh.. Really? Okay then, thank you. I would like to grab some coffee with you. But it won't be till at least weeks."

"I understand. And that's okay. Can I come visit you again sometime?"

"Of course! You are more than welcome here. Not like a patient of course!" We both laughed at that comment. So she is not only beautiful. She is also funny. I had to seen her before. This laughter, I heard it before. For sure.

"Haha, yeah. That won't be good. But at least, maybe they will put us into the same room." I joked back.

"I am not sure,darling. There are not mixed rooms in hospital. Since you are not a nurse or a doctor to spend some time in a restroom." She winked at me. We burst into laughter again,tears dropping down from our eyes. But she stopped after a few seconds, because the laughter caused her pain. I immediately stopped too.

" Oh God. Are you okay? Is everything alright? Should I call the doctor?"

"No, no. I am fine. I am doctor too. It's nothing. Just.. The pressure of my muscles when I am laughing can torn the stitches and I would bleed out in a minute."

"I see. So let's postponed our laugh to the café."

"Yeah, I am up for it." She smiled and could see her eyes lit up. She truly seemed happy to talk to me which made me happy too.

"So.. Where are these mixed rooms? In case I need a doctor and can't find anyone." I giggled.

"Oh, really? That's really kind of you." she said with a hight pitched voice and put her hand on her heart.

"I know, I know. I am just perfect. I can't help myself." I signed and shrugged my shoulders. I looked back at her innocently.

She giggled. "Oh yeah. You really are Prince Charming. The rest rooms are at the more quiet side of the hospital. You know, to not hear so much noise."

"From the room or outside the room?"

"Oh God. Good point. Maybe from both?" she covered her mouth why she laughed.

"You are too curious, you know? You are asking me about the room where the future doctors are made."

"Oh really? Do you speak from your own experience?" I chuckled.

"Thomas!" She glanced at me with serious look, but immediately burst into laughter.

"I am sorry, I am sorry. I was just asking." I laughed too.

"Actually..." she looked at me with her innocent eyes.

"WHAT?!"

"Haha. Don't worry, I just wanted to see your reaction. You should have seen yourself."

"Oh God, I am glad. Don't EVER do that again to me. Woah." I put a hand on my heart and pretended to be offended.

"I am sorry, babyboy. I won't. I promise. Don't cry, please." She put her hand on mine. I immediately had goosebumps all over my skin. She squeezed my hand. My gaze was trailing from her fingers, hand, arm.. Neck, to her eyes. I smiled a little. I got lost. Lost in a universe. In a world where I felt happy. Happier than ever before. The happiest. I was staring at the sky, counting little stars. I could see them in her eyes. I could see.. My future in her eyes. I saw.. Myself. The knock on the door snapped me back from daydreaming. When I turned around and looked at the door, there already was doctor standing inside, glancing directly at us. After a few seconds he was staring at us, he finally said: "Are you Mr. Holland? Can I talk to you for second, please? Outside." He went back to the corridor and left the doors opens.

"I'll be right back." I smiled at her and let go of her hand. I stand up and went outside the room.

"Close the door, please." Doctor looked at me strictly.

"Is everything alright, Doctor?" I asked as I held the handle.

"Just closed them!" he said strictly. I was a bit scared and quickly closed the door.

"Thank you. So, Mr. Holland,I am Dr. Melendez. I was operating Ms.Lincoln. She is now stabilized, all her functions are okay. There is no need to worry anymore. I am so thankful you were there and helped her to get to the hospital. Now it's in our hands and I will take care of her. You can go home. You did your job. "

" I am glad she is okay. Actually, it looks like we can be really nice friends. She is nice woman. I would like to stay in touch with her while she is in hospital. "

" It's not necessary anymore, Mr. Holland. I know Y/N and she doesn't like new people. She is not too  sociable. I would recommend you to make sure she is alright and continue to live your life. " he said in a kind of harsh voice.

" Oh really? She actually seemed like she is enjoying my company. She also agreed to take a coffee with me. Thank you for your recommendation, but I am still coming back tomorrow. " I raised my voice a bit.

" Mr. Holland. She is in shock. She is traumatized and need to rest. Without interruptions. I am the one who has Dr. in front of my name, so please.. Go home and not come back. "

" I am sorry Dr.. Melendez. She said she was doctor too and was okay with me being there. If there are some complications, because of my company, I will go home and never come back, okay? But now...I want to spend time with her. You know, I really like her. I would like to know everything about her."

Dr. Melendez clenched his fists and made a step closer to me.

" You know what, Mr. Holland? Why do you think she would date you? You are still a kid. How old are you? Maximum 20. She is grown woman with her own opinions on this world. She is intelligent and has higher standards which you are not included in. We are in the middle of something. There are lots of things going on between me and Y/N. I can offer her much more than you will ever be able to offer in your whole life. Go and find someone in the kindergarten, boy. "

I frowned. If he wasn't a doctor and if it wasn't in the hospital I would punch him in his arrogant face. Y/N would never date someone like this cocky guy, who thinks he owns the world. You better watch your ass, Melendez! You will hear about me, for sure. I turned my back to him and tried to open the door to Y/N's room. He grabbed my arm and turned me to him.

"Where do you think you go?!"

I brushed his hand off. "To say goodbye to my wifey. And take my jacket." I opened the door and walked inside the room. I shook the door in front of Melendez's nose. Y/N looked a bit confused when I came to her.

"What did Neil said to you?"

"Nothing much. He just wanted to thank me I saved you." I smiled politely and put on my jacket.

"I am sorry, love, I have to go now. But maybe..can I get your number please? So I can text you later."

She nodded yes immediately and reached out for my phone. I started to look for it and finally found it in the back pocket of my jeans. I handed it to her. She typed her number in.

" Thank you for your visit. And for the gifts. You are really nice. I will wait for your text."  She smiled once again. I immediately melted after this smile. I smiled back and walked to the door. As I was about to leave she called my name.

"Tom?"

"Yes, Y/N?"

"Can I see you tomorrow, please?"

"Of course, darling. I'll be here."

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We used to be strangers | Part 3

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and his heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression, thinking of suicide.

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Tom POV:

"Uhm.. Yeah, sure. I'll be there tomorrow morning. Is everything alright?" I asked quite nervous.

"Yeah, but someone wants to meet you."

I could feel her smile when she said that. My heart started pounding.

"O-Okay. I'll be there."

"Thank you. Goodbye, Mr. Holland."

"Goodbye."

I looked at Harrison, who was looking directly at me the whole time. "What happened? Does it have anything to do with the girl you saved yesterday?"

"Yes. I think... I think she is alive. Someone wants to see me. Maybe that girl wants to thank me or I don't know."

"Oh, right maybe she can thank you another way, Hm?" Haz winked at me and chuckled.

I rolled my eyes. "Very funny, Harrison, I don't even know how she looks like. Her head was covered with blood. Why would I want to sleep with her?"

"Maybe because you are single like forever and you are like pain in the ass?! Like really Tom, just get fucking laid down already!" Harrison tried to sound annoyed but quickly he started laughing at me. I was quite shocked to hear him talking like this. Yeah, we were teasing each other all the time, even about our sex life, but Haz had never told me something like this. I wasn't mad at all. Maybe he was right.

"I know Harrison, but I've just never met a girl who would catch me like..."

"Like Anna, right? I know Tom. But... You should move on. It has been.. Almost 6 years already. It's time for you to date again, don't you think? To be happy with someone else? Seriously, Tom, my parents are starting to think we are dating. Not that there is something wrong with it, I love you, you are my best friend. But not like I would touch your pe... "

I nudged Harrison into the arm and started giggling." Alright, alright I get it Haz, stop talking about it. You're gross. "

We both were laughing for a good minute. I was happy to have Harrison. He was my best mate and supported me in everything.

After a few other games of Fifa, we went to our bedrooms saying good nights to everyone. I closed the door and jump into my bed. I was undressing myself slowly, recalling everything that had happened in the past two days. I was happy for the girl to be okay. Or at least I hoped so. I actually wondered if this girl was single. Harrison's words resonated in my head. Maybe... I should try to find someone and start to date again. I would lie if I told you I didn't miss all these things you do as a couple. But I have been single for 6 years and it wasn't that bad. I didn't feel sad and alone. I spent most of the time with my friends, I am sure that was the reason I weren't thinking about girls at all. But maybe it's time to change it. With these thoughts, I was slowly falling asleep.

The next morning I woke up very early. It was like 6 a.m. Boys were still sleeping, so I went to the kitchen quietly and made myself a tea. Couple of minutes I was only sitting there, scrolling Instagram,and drinking my tea. I liked few pictures of my fans with me. I always smile when I see all these kind words and the joy they feel when they meet me. I love my fans so much.

After I drunk my tea and my heart was almost melted, I relocated myself into bathroom to brush my teeth and to do my hair. I put on some casual clothes, took my keys from a car and went outside. Hospital was quite far from my home, so walking there would be stupid idea.On my way to hospital I stopped at the mall. I bought some croissants as a breakfast and also some flowers for the girl. I hope she will like them.I thought as I paid for the little bouquet of tulips.I didn't know what the girl liked,so I bought her a chocolate and some fruit too with the get well soon card.I put it all into my car and drove to the hospital.

Babygirl POV:

"Come here little girl, someone wants to meet you. Don't be shy, come on!"

I was slowly walking down the stairs.I was scared. My little body was shaking. My hands were holding onto staircase railings tight.

"Hey, babygirl, don't be scared. We just want to meet you." Not so young man smiled from the downstairs. I slowly came down the stairs, eyes darted to the ground. There was one of the nurses with a couple.

"These people would like to adopt you.Say hello to them.They are excited to meet you.You needn't to be scared.They won't bite, will them?" she joked and looked at them. They chuckled and nodded their heads saying no. The man knelt on his one knee to be at the same level as me.

" Hi. I am Sam. I heard a lot about you. This is Chloe. My wife. We have two kids, a boy, Matthew, who is a bit older than you. He is 8. And we also have a girl, Melanie, who is younger than you. She is only 2. They are really nice and can't wait to meet you. So what do you think..Will you come with us? "he smiled warmly and held out his hand for me. I was standing there quietly. Thinking. I wasn't ready to go with them.I would never be ready. I wanted my mommy back. Her face was still in front of me. She was crying,hugging me tightly. It felt like it was yesterday when she had abandoned me. But she didn't want to. I knew it. She said it to me.

"I love you, babygirl. You know it, right? I would never do this if I hadn't to. I want the best life for you and I can't give you that right now. I promise you, I will come for you, when the time is right."

"Mommy, I want to stay with you. We can go to Daddy. I know he loves you. And maybe me too.."

"We can't, baby. He doesn't know about you and I can't tell him. Promise me something, please. Don't be mad at me. I need to do this. I love you so, so much. You are my world. But I wouldn't be a good mum for you. I promise you, honey, I will come back for you. One day, we will meet again. Bye, my love. I love you more than Severus loves Lilly." She kissed my forehead one last time and put me into nurse's hands.

I love you more than Severus loves Lilly. I will always remember these words.

My eyes started watering and tears formed in my eyes.

" I.. Want my.. Mommy back." I cried.

Y/N POV:

"No, no, no! This can't be real. This has just not happened. Please, no. Omg! I need to..I need to go..Please..NO!"

Someone's hand woke me up from the nightmares. I tried to open my eyes, but quickly closed them again. The light in the room was so strong, it hurt my head.

"Ouch! Can you.. Can you please.. Turn off the lights. It's too strong.Please." I begged the person who held my hand.The person let go off my hand and dimmed the lights.

"How do you feel, Y/N?"A familiar voice asked me. I managed to open my eyes a bit. I saw Neil sitting next to me, holding my hand.

"N-Neil? What are you doing here? Where.." I looked around. I recognized this room. I have spent there every minute. Every day, week, month, year.. I spent there most of the time, trying to save lives of my patients and now I am lying there, as one of them.

" What has happened to me? "

" You fell off the building. One young boy saved you. What did you do there? What happened Y/N? Tell me, please. I was worried about you." He squeezed my hand. I looked at our hands and then into his eyes. He was so worried. His hands were shaking and his eyes gleamed from tears. His lips were parted and about to say something again.

" I... " I gulped.

" Dr. Melendez, we need you! There is a girl with the deep cut." Claire, the resident, urged him out of the room. I was thankful for that.I wasn't really in the mood to explain anything to him. I closed my eyes for a bit and took a deep breath. Only a few seconds after they left there was a knock on my door. I signed.

"Come in."

The young boy appeared in the door. He had  curly brown hair, hazel eyes and.. He wasn't tall at all. He was young. Probably he was less than 20. But he looked familiar. I had seen him before.

"Ehm.. Are you... Are you Y/N Lincoln?"

"Yes, that's me. And who are you, may I ask?"

"I am Tom. Tom Holland. I... Saved you, when you, when you... fell." He was so nervous. Aaw, it was kinda cute. He was a cute young boy.

"Oh, so it was you. Come in, please." I invited him.

He closed the door and came to my bed.

"Uhm.. I.. Bought you flowers. Hope you will like them."He handed me a bouquet of tulips.

My eyes lit up.

" They are for me? Oh, thank you so much. They are my favourites. They are beautiful. Thank you. " I kissed his cheek. This definitely made my day better.He blushed immediately.

" I am glad you like them. And this is also for you. Hope you feel better. Is everything alright? "

" You are so nice, thank you. And thank you for saving me. " I smiled at him. His cheeks were still red.

"You're welcome. I couldn't leave you there. I am happy that you are okay now. So... The nurse called me yesterday that someone wanted to meet me. So.. I assumed it was you. So...do you need something?" he looked at me and his eyes were running down my face, from forehead to my lips. He stopped there for a little while and then came looking back into my eyes. It was strange. It felt like I had seen these eyes before.

" Uhm.. It's nice to meet you, but... It wasn't me. I've just woken up."

A/N: Let me know what you think about this story so far and what you think about the new character - babygirl. Sorry for my English, it's not my first language and I am new with this. So I would be happy and thankful about the feedback. Have a nice day! 😊

[endydancer1]

We used to be strangers |Part 2

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and his heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression, thinking of suicide.

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"Clear the way, clear the way! We have a serious case. Call Dr. Melendez! "rescuers rushed into the hospital. In a second 4 nurses were by their side and led them to the operating theathre. After few second, Dr. Melendez rushed to the operating theathre too, putting his rubber gloves on.

" Who's the patient and what happened?"he asked quickly, while preparing the tools.

" It's Y/N, Dr. Melendez. She fell off the high building. "

Melendez immediately turned around.

" What?! Y/N?! "

He ran to the examination table to look at me. He was shocked to see me in this state,tears in the eyes. I was lying there, unconscious, blood was running down my face, swollen body with lots of bruises. He almost broke down. But he had to be strong.

"Let's do this. We have to safe her! Hand me the scalpel! " he yelled shaking his tears away and they started the operation.

Tom POV:

In other room, there was Tom, sitting on the chair quietly, still not believing what had just happened. He came to hospital with me. He was there when I fell off the roof (or jump?).

I can't believe it. I witnessed young woman to jump off the building. I'd never thought about ending my life. And if I, definitely not this way. Why did the woman want to do it? Such a young lady. She isn't even 30 years old and she wanted to end her life?

I was still wondering, lots of questions crossing my mind.  I was caught off guard. I was fiddling with my fingers,looking on the ground in the waiting room. I still felt her weak body in my hands when I was picking her up. She fell into the fruit baskets which may saved her life, at least I hoped so. My phone started ringing. I took it out of my pocket. The screen showed Harrisons face looking like Mr. Tumnus, faun from Narnia. I had to chuckle a little before I answered his call.

"Yeah mate, what do you need? " I stood up from the metal chair and looked around. There weren't many people around there, but still it was kind of noisy. I decided to go outside, because I couldn't hear Harrison properly.

"Wait a minute Haz." I said to him and quickly ran outside the hospital.

"You can talk now. What's up? " I said kinda nervous. My voice was still shaking.

"Tom, are you okay? Something happened to you? Where are you now?"

"I am fine, don't worry. I am in the hospital now. One girl fell off the building on Abington Street. I was there and saw it. I had to call the ambulance and now I am here, waiting for her to undergo the operation. I am so nervous, man. I saw it! I fucking saw it! Why would that girl do that? Why? She is young, beauti..."

"Calm down Tom, calm down. I know it's too much for you. I would feel the same. Calm down. Take a deep breathe she will be okay. Do you know her?"

"No, I have never seen her.. But I am scared she won't make it. Is it strange?" I gulped and suddenly felt dumb for what I'd just said.

I have never seen this girl before, why am I so scared? Why do I care so much? Obviously, I wouldn't want to see her dead, but.. Why am I still here? I should go. If she wake up after the operation, there will be her boyfriend or family with her. It will be strange if I come to her room, I, Tom Holland, probably the complete stranger for her and ask her how she feels.

Harrison screaming to my ear snapped me back from my thoughts.

"Jeez, mate, don't shout at me. My ear almost fell of my head," I grouned and took my phone a bit further from my ear.

"Sorry, Tom, but I thought you faint or something. Sorry I care about you, jeez, just answer my fucking questions!" Haz hissed a little bit.  I had to chuckle.

"Calm your nerves Haz and watch your language!" I laughed at him even more. I felt a bit more relaxed.

"So, now, tell me what you want. Why are you calling me?"

"I don't know, maybe because you were meant to be at restaurant like half an hour ago and you aren't here and we don't know what's going on with, where are you, etc. That's why I am calling you. But now, when I know where you are, are you still coming?"

My eyes widened.

" Haz, I completely forgot about that. I am so sorry, I'll be there in a min. Wait for me! " I immediately ended the call and put my phone into the pocket. I went back to the waiting room for my bag with stuff from the studio (I didn't steal anything from the props! Okey.. Maybe just a few.. Decorations. They were not important at all... Okey, they were, but hey! I am the main character so.. I can, right? It's just a souvenir..alright I stole some things, happy now? Good..). I picked up my bag and was about to leave when one of the nurses came to me.

"Sir, please, are you that boy who came with Y/N? I mean, the woman who fell off the building." she looked straight into my eyes. I felt kinda insecure after that look.

" Ehm.. Y-yeah. That's me."

"Thank you for contacting us. You are brave that you didn't panicked. Are you a family or a friend of miss Lincoln?"

"No, I have never met her before. "

"Okey, sir, can you give us your phone number? Just in case something happens and police need to be involved." she smiled warmly.

"Okey, where should I write my number?"

"Here, and please also fill in these details about you, thank you."

I sat down and quickly filled in the paper she had given me.

"Thank you, Mr.... Holland." she searched my name in the papers.

"Is she.. Is she alright?"

Her smile faded away. "We don't now yet. She is still at the operating theathre. But she is in the best hands. Dr. Melendez is the best doctor in the whole London."

"Okey. Thank you. I need to go now. Goodbye."

"Goodbye, Mr. Holland."

I took my bag and smiled at her politely. I went outside the hospital. I took a deep breathe. Fresh wind was blew my hair. I looked at my phone. It said 12.45 p.m. I was 45 minutes late for a lunch with Haz, Harry and Tuwaine. Shit! But at least I did something good for someone. I put my phone back into my pocket and ran towards the restaurant where my friends had already been waiting for me. Few minutes after 1 p.m. I arrived to the restaurant. I went inside and was immediately looking for my friends and brother. I noticed them at the table near the window. We used to sit near the windows, because we liked to watch the street, people there or just enjoying the view.

"HI, I am here." I sat on the one last free chair, still out of breath.

"Finally, what happened? Is the girl still alive?" Harry asked me. Haz probably told them everything.

"She fell off the roof. I don't know,she is undergoing the surgery now."

"Hope she will survive it."

"Yeah, me too. Let's eat now." I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I ordered something too and while we were eating, we were talking to each other and for the first time today, I was completely relaxed. For a moment I forgot about what happened earlier. After the lunch we went home, playing video games all afternoon. I was really tired, so no sports today. I was chilling at the couch, competing with Haz in FIFA when my phoned suddenly started ringing. I looked at it. UNKNOWN NUMBER. Who the hell can call me now. It's the evening. It's another fan who somehow found out my numbers. I decided to not answer it. After a few minutes it started to ring again. Damn it! I answered the call.

" Hello? "

"Hello. Is this Mr. Holland? I am Claire Brown, from the hospital."

"Yeah, it's me. Has something happened?" I sat up straightly and put my finger on the mouth to signalise my friends and brother to be quiet.

"Would you mind coming to hospital tomorrow?"

A/N: Let me know what you think about this story so far. Sorry for my English, it's not my first language and I am new with this. So I would be happy and thankful about the feedback. Have a nice day! 😊

[endydancer1]

We used to be strangers | Part 1

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

Summary: Tom has just finished his latest movie and is heading back home to London. While he is passing the high building, suddenly something happens what changes his life completely. What is the shadow up there?

WARNING: Mentions of injuries, blood, depression and thinking of suicide.

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Y/N POV:

"Mrs. Lincoln, can you examine this patient, please? He came here about 20 minutes ago and I haven't found any other doctor who isn't at the operating theathre at the moment. Are you free now? " an older nurse asked me.

I just simply nodded. I looked at the boy standing in front of me. The boy wasn't older than 8. He was sobbing. His eyes were all red and about to start watering again any minute. He was holding his left arm rubbing it gently. Poor little boy. A reassuring smile appeared on my face. I crunched in front of him and looked at him.

"Hi. My name is Dr. Y/N. What's your name? "

"R-Ryan. " he said quietly with his lips trembling.

"So Ryan, is your mum with you?"

"Y-yea.. She.. She is at the toilet. "

"Okey, so come with me, I'll take a look at your injury and the nurse will send your mum to my ambulance as soon as she comes out the toilet,okey?"

He shyly nodded and followed me into my doctor's office.

" Ryan.. Sit down, please. Tell me, what has happened to you? "

" I-I.. We were playing hide and seek in the park.. And.. I tripped over a tree root and when I fell, I hurt my arm. " he sobbed again.

" Oh, I see. Can you show me your arm?" I asked him politely, because I saw how nervous and scared he was. He mumbled something like yes. I couldn't hear him properly. I examined his arm. It was only  a bit swollen with a large, dark bruise.

I told him to use ice pack on it. I also gave him a lollipop and with a small smile on my face I took him out to waiting room. Behind the door, Ryan's mum was waiting there for him to take him home. When they left, I went back to my office. I felt really tired. I had been up for like 32 hours. The night was really rough. Lots of injuries, cuts, blood was literally everywhere. I was sitting in my chair, eyes closed. I recall everything from previous night. A man in his late twenties with skull fructure, drunk girl with open leg fructure, some deep cuts, bloody injuries. Blood was everywhere. Even in my dreams. I had been doctor for just a few years and still the blood scared me. Not that I mind seeing blood, but it hunted me in my dreams, in my thoughts. I saw so many injuries in your life, after only 3 years as a doctor, I thought I had seen everything. Every time I closed my eyes, I heard someone screaming, I saw blood everywhere, cuts, bruises. It was so... Familiar, but still so.. Strange? Unknown? I don't know. One thing I know for sure is, that I hated to close my eyes. Especially, when I was home alone.

A knock on the door snapped me from my thoughts, from daydreaming (should I really call it daydreaming?). I opened my eyes slowly.

"Come in! "

The door slowly opened and a head with dark hair and brow eyes popped out. A warm smile appeared on his face.

"Hey, Dr. Y/N. Are you okey? "

It was Dr. Melendez. He was about 10 years older than me, Mexican, good-looking and in a good shape. I sighed and looked at him.

"No.. I am just tired. Thanks for asking." I smiled a little. He came to me and rubbed my shoulder.

"You should go home. Your shift is at the end. Go home, take a shower and rest. You've made a great job previous night. Now, you can go. You need to rest."

He was always kind to me. Yeah, he was bit mean in some ways, especially to residents, but if you knew him better, spent some time with him, you would know he is a good doctor and good person, in some ways.

I just simply nodded and stand up. I packed my things, still thinking about the blood and injuries. Melendez was still there, watching me. Sometimes, I felt like he actually...like me, maybe? Probably not. He was just casually... staring. I hung my scrub and put on denim jacket.

"Thanks, Dr. Melendez. See you soon. Bye." I smiled and waved him. I walked out of my office to waiting room. I said goodbye to nurses. I was slowly walking to the entrance, when I heard someone screaming code blue. I signed. Not again. I quickly ran out of the hospital. Don't get me wrong, I love helping people, but not right now. Fortunately, Melendez was there for them.

I was walking along the street, passing by the strangers. I stopped and looked around. There were many happy couples holding hands, kissing, hugging. Anxiety went through my body, I was shivering, my lips were trembling, tears started to falling down. I quickly ran to the end of the street stopping only near the high building. I didn't know who was living there. But I knew these walls, the brick on it, the roof so well. I spent most of the time there, trying to end MY time. I took a hard breathe and opened the front door. It was dark inside. Only a green neon light with the exit sigh was blinking a little. I pushed myself and started to walking up the stairs. When I was on the fourth floor, I pushed big brown door in the corner of the hall. The sigh on them said DO NOT ENTER, but it was always opened, so why should I kept myself away from the door? I had to hit the door hard with my arm at first, because it was a bit stucked. I opened the door and went inside. I closed quietly and sprinted up the staircase. The roof of the building appeared in front of me. The beautiful blue sky, shining sun, a gentle breeze. I inhaled it and walked over to the edge of the building. As always, I wanted to end it. End it all. In a second, everything would be away, I would be dead and no one would really care. The tips of fingers on my feet were hunging in the air. I looked down on the street. There are lots of people there. They are just... passing. Not paying any attention! They are chatting, laughing, not noticing someone is up there. Many things went through my mind. Everything what had happened in my life. I was flustrated, sad, angry. I hated myself. Deep inside me I wanted to had never been born. I was ready to jump.

Tom POV:

"Aaand.. Cut! Great job guys, I am proud of you. That was the last scene, so congrats to all of you. We've made it! You deserve a little vocation after these rough months. So go home, rest a bit. I'll see you next Saturday on the Wrap party. See you soon guys! " director said to us with a wide smile. All of us started clapping. Then we all went to our trailers to pack our stuff. It was strange feeling to go away after months of hard work,knowing I wouldn't meet anyone from the crew everyday. I felt kinda sad, but also relieved that I can spend some time with my friends and family having fun and chilling at home or in the nature. I needed this vacation.

I packed all my stuff, thinking about taking a nap at home and maybe going to pub later that night with Haz, Tuwaine and Harry. A knock on the door snapped me back to reality.

"Come in!" I shouted not turning around to whoever was behind the door.

"Hey Tom, I've just wanted to say goodbye, mate. I am leaving this evening. But I hope we will see each other in a few weeks. Come to US and we will party."

It was Zendaya. She laughed and hugged me saying goodbye. I will miss her the most from all of these people. She is like my sister.

" I'll miss you. Sure, I will be in the US as soon as possible. "I chuckled and hugged her back. When she was leaving she waved me and then went to the airport. I took my stuff and went outside. I wanted to walk a bit on the fresh air. I texted Harrison, that I was on my way home and then started walking among the streets. I was staring at my phone, scrolling the Instagram, not paying any attention to the surrounding world. Maybe it was a mistake, because I bumped into few people. I apologized and rather put my phone into the pocket of my jeans. It was really nice day. Sun was shining, birds were singing. I looked at the sky. I had to narrow my eyes, because the sun was shining really brightly. It thought that I saw someone standing on the edge of the building for a second. Well, I couldn't tell it was a person for sure. Maybe it was just a bird ... Or just a shadow.

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We used to be strangers - Teaser

A/N: Hello everyone! ❤️ I love writing fanfics and this is my first try here on Tumblr! Hope you will enjoy it! Let me know what you thing. This is a teaser to my first fanfic called We used to be strangers! And I want to apologize in advance for my English, I am not a native speaker, it's not my first language, so sorry for mistakes, if you find something, please let me now so I can avoid them in the future. Thank you! Have a beautiful day! ❤️

*GIF IS NOT MINE. CREDIT GOES TO THE OWNER*

Pairing: Tom Holland x Y/N Lincoln

You are looking at someone standing on the edge of the building. Is it a high building? Yes it is. The person is standing, swinging back and forth, looking down. You can't see their face. You stop, look up, sun is shining into your eyes. They are filled with tears now. You need to blink. After a few seconds you look around. Lots of people are on the street. They are just... passing. Not paying any attention! They are chatting, laughing, not noticing someone is up there. You look up again. The person is still there. It looks like they're about to jump. Jump and end their life. You bite your lower lip. Your mind racing a mile a minute. The question is DO YOU CARE IF THEY JUMP? Yes? No? Why? Are all of these feelings, shivering, sweating, because you care about someone's life? Or is it only because you are wondering if it isn't your mum, dad, sibling.. Your friend? So .. If they end their life, if they really jump.. Would you think about who the person was? Why did they do it? Would you really care? Or it would be just another death, another one from the million. Choice is on you..