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lowk highk moving jay to @bledthrus. i might eventually bring him back to his own blog, but for now, my muse for him is so low that im just gunna stick him on my multi ♄
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goĀ  backĀ  intoĀ  aĀ  ʰᵒ˔ʸ  Ė¢įµ—įµƒįµ—įµ‰,Ā Ā  andĀ  allĀ  theĀ  fireĀ  isĀ  goneĀ Ā  —   theĀ  layersĀ  youĀ  shedĀ  willĀ  allĀ  beĀ  renewed.Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā  ——     #š›š„šžšš­š”š«š®š¬,Ā Ā  anĀ  indieĀ  &Ā  privateĀ  multiĀ  museĀ  featuringĀ  musesĀ  fromĀ  variousĀ  horrorĀ  relatedĀ  mediaĀ  &Ā  originalĀ  characters.Ā Ā  18Ā  plusĀ  only,Ā Ā  asĀ  adoredĀ  byĀ  sophieĀ Ā  (Ā  he/they.Ā  )
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[Ā  .Ā  .Ā  .Ā  ]Ā Ā  š£ššš²Ā  š¬š°šžššš«š¬Ā  thatĀ  timĀ  seemsĀ  intentĀ  onĀ  fullyĀ  killingĀ  him. Ā  ifĀ  oneĀ  wereĀ  toĀ  askĀ  himĀ  howĀ  heĀ  gotĀ  here,Ā Ā  heĀ  doesn'tĀ  thinkĀ  he'dĀ  beĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  comeĀ  upĀ  withĀ  anĀ  adequateĀ  explanation. Ā  here, Ā  ofĀ  course,Ā Ā  beingĀ  crowdedĀ  upĀ  againstĀ  theĀ  wallĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  andĀ  tim'sĀ  latestĀ  hotel Ā  — Ā  alwaysĀ  onĀ  theĀ  move,Ā Ā  going,Ā Ā  going, Ā  going. Ā  he'sĀ  crowdedĀ  againstĀ  theĀ  wall, Ā  tim'sĀ  armsĀ  aroundĀ  himĀ  andĀ  hisĀ  mouthĀ  onĀ  his,Ā Ā  andĀ  allĀ  jayĀ  canĀ  seemĀ  toĀ  smellĀ  orĀ  tasteĀ  orĀ  seeĀ  isĀ  justĀ  tim.Ā Ā  theĀ  scentĀ  ofĀ  cigarettesĀ  alwaysĀ  lingering,Ā Ā  nowĀ  evenĀ  strongerĀ  withĀ  timĀ  pressedĀ  againstĀ  himĀ  theĀ  wayĀ  heĀ  is. Ā  heĀ  thinksĀ  heĀ  mightĀ  haveĀ  thoughtĀ  aboutĀ  thisĀ  before. Ā  aboutĀ  kissingĀ  tim. Ā  thatĀ  heĀ  mightĀ  haveĀ  dreamtĀ  aboutĀ  itĀ  inĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  fewĀ  andĀ  farĀ  betweenĀ  dreams. Ā  theĀ  onesĀ  thatĀ  don'tĀ  leaveĀ  himĀ  shakingĀ  andĀ  wakingĀ  upĀ  inĀ  aĀ  coldĀ  sweat.Ā  whetherĀ  orĀ  notĀ  heĀ  hasĀ  isĀ  aĀ  questionĀ  forĀ  anotherĀ  day, Ā  becauseĀ  timĀ  isĀ  hereĀ  andĀ  he'sĀ  real,Ā Ā  andĀ  he'sĀ  kissingĀ  jayĀ  likeĀ  aĀ  manĀ  starved. Ā  (Ā  andĀ  jayĀ  thinksĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  wouldĀ  letĀ  timĀ  consumeĀ  himĀ  whollyĀ  ifĀ  heĀ  wantedĀ  to.Ā  )
atĀ  someĀ  point, Ā  theĀ  shockĀ  ofĀ  beingĀ  pressedĀ  upĀ  againstĀ  wearsĀ  off,Ā Ā  andĀ  jayĀ  properlyĀ  kissesĀ  back. Ā  hisĀ  handsĀ  fumbleĀ  forĀ  tim'sĀ  sides,Ā Ā  diggingĀ  intoĀ  theĀ  wornĀ  fabricĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  tĀ  -Ā  shirtĀ  andĀ  keepingĀ  timĀ  firmlyĀ  tetheredĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  front.Ā Ā  heĀ  gruntsĀ  intoĀ  it,Ā Ā  desperatelyĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  breatheĀ  throughĀ  hisĀ  noseĀ  soĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  doesn'tĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  pullĀ  awayĀ  andĀ  riskĀ  ruiningĀ  theĀ  moment.Ā  heĀ  thanksĀ  whoever'sĀ  outĀ  thereĀ  listeningĀ  whenĀ  timĀ  doesĀ  itĀ  forĀ  him.Ā Ā  heĀ  takesĀ  anĀ  eagerĀ  gaspĀ  ofĀ  air, Ā  watchingĀ  withĀ  pupilsĀ  blownĀ  wideĀ  asĀ  timĀ  stepsĀ  back. Ā  jayĀ  usesĀ  hisĀ  gripĀ  stillĀ  onĀ  tim'sĀ  shirtĀ  toĀ  tugĀ  himĀ  backĀ  closer, Ā  pressingĀ  tim'sĀ  frontĀ  entirelyĀ  againstĀ  his.Ā Ā  theĀ  onlyĀ  spaceĀ  betweenĀ  themĀ  beingĀ  thatĀ  betweenĀ  theirĀ  mouths.Ā  heĀ  takesĀ  inĀ  tim'sĀ  face Ā  — Ā  cheeksĀ  flushedĀ  andĀ  mouthĀ  kissĀ  -Ā  swollen,Ā Ā  andĀ  jayĀ  thinksĀ  forĀ  oneĀ  terriblyĀ  cornyĀ  momentĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  looksĀ  beautiful.Ā Ā  heĀ  clearsĀ  hisĀ  throat, Ā  andĀ  afterĀ  aĀ  momentĀ  ofĀ  staringĀ  dumbly, Ā  heĀ  finallyĀ  speaks. Ā  āĀ  whatĀ  wasĀ  allĀ  that ?Ā  āžĀ Ā  heĀ  knowsĀ  byĀ  asking, Ā  heĀ  runsĀ  theĀ  riskĀ  ofĀ  timĀ  comingĀ  backĀ  toĀ  himself Ā  — Ā  pullingĀ  awayĀ  altogetherĀ  andĀ  pretendingĀ  theĀ  momentĀ  neverĀ  happened.Ā Ā  butĀ  jayĀ  wantsĀ  toĀ  know.Ā Ā  no,Ā Ā  heĀ  needsĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  whatĀ  itĀ  isĀ  heĀ  didĀ  toĀ  warrantĀ  allĀ  this.
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ROUGH HANDS GRASP JAY'S FACE, DRIVING THEIR LIPS TOGETHER.Ā  sloppy, untender ļ¹  selfishly wanting.Ā  all teeth and the frantic pull of breath, childish in his desires, desperate for another livingĀ  bodyĀ  against his own,Ā  aĀ  hungerĀ  onlyĀ  worsened Ā  by Ā  jayĀ  entwining Ā  their Ā  livesĀ  together, Ā  once Ā  unwelcome,Ā  nowĀ  .Ā  .Ā  .Ā  timĀ  cant Ā  imagine Ā  aĀ  lifeĀ  withoutĀ  jay’sĀ  meddling. Ā  when Ā  didĀ  he Ā  get Ā  soĀ  [ .Ā  .Ā  .Ā  ]Ā  fucking Ā  deprivedĀ  ? Ā  onlyĀ  aĀ  sliver Ā  of Ā  connection, Ā  a Ā  brief Ā  few Ā  monthsĀ  ofĀ  livingĀ  hisĀ  life Ā  alongsideĀ  someoneĀ  other Ā  thanĀ  himself,Ā  andĀ  yearning Ā  hasĀ  morphed Ā  andĀ  contortedĀ  into Ā  this Ā  desperate, Ā  famished, Ā  all Ā  consumingĀ  want.Ā  hisĀ  fingers Ā  CURLĀ  andĀ  TWIST,Ā  gripping Ā  jays shirt,Ā  asĀ  ifĀ  sheerĀ  forceĀ  ļ¹ Ā  will Ā  aloneĀ  could Ā  keepĀ  jayĀ  anchoredĀ  here.Ā  TIMS HANDS TUCK BENEATH JAYS SHIRT, Ā  trailing over Ā  fever-hot skin. Ā  his Ā  nails Ā  scrape Ā  along Ā  jay’s Ā  ribsĀ  , Ā  raking Ā  a Ā  path Ā  of Ā  redĀ  upĀ  hisĀ  back, Ā  his nails Ā  dragging Ā  up — higher, Ā  higher — Ā  his Ā  fingers Ā  curlĀ  andĀ  tugĀ  atĀ  jay’sĀ  hair,Ā  jerking himĀ  back.Ā  timĀ  takesĀ  inĀ  jay,Ā  lips Ā  parted,Ā  cheeksĀ  flushed, Ā  neckĀ  dampĀ  fromĀ  sweat.Ā  surging Ā  forward, Ā  TIM CROWDS HIM AGAINST THE WALL, Ā  closing Ā  the Ā  distance Ā  betweenĀ  themĀ  driving Ā  jayĀ  back,Ā  Ā  his Ā  shoulders Ā  hit Ā  the Ā  wall Ā  with Ā  a Ā  dull Ā  thud.Ā Ā 
SWEAT CLINGS TO THE BACK OF TIMS NECKĀ  , Ā  damp Ā  strands Ā  of Ā  hair Ā  sticking Ā  to Ā  his skin Ā  as Ā  his Ā  pulse Ā  thrums Ā  loud Ā  in Ā  his Ā  ears,Ā  desireĀ  coils Ā  tight Ā  in Ā  his Ā  chest, Ā  raw and Ā  starved. Ā Ā heĀ  tugs Ā  and Ā  pulls, Ā  desperate, Ā  needy, Ā  like Ā  if Ā  heĀ  bringsĀ  themĀ  closeĀ  enough,Ā  jayĀ  couldĀ  makeĀ  aĀ  homeĀ  outĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  body. Ā  hisĀ  palm Ā  drags Ā  along Ā  jay’s Ā  scruff, rough Ā  against Ā  his Ā  skin, Ā  fingers Ā  pressing Ā  firm Ā  on Ā  either Ā  side Ā  of Ā  his Ā  jaw. TIM'S LUNGS BURN, Ā  aching Ā  from Ā  the Ā  lack Ā  of Ā  air. Ā his Ā  body Ā  betrays Ā  him. hisĀ  chest Ā  TWITCHES, SPASMS, Ā  DEMANDS AIR.Ā  Ā heĀ  rips Ā  himself Ā  away Ā  with Ā  a Ā  sharp Ā  inhale, Ā  stumbling Ā  back a Ā  step, vision Ā  swimming Ā  with Ā  heat. a Ā  dazed Ā  exhale Ā  shudders Ā  past Ā  his Ā  lips Ā  as Ā  his thumb Ā  drags Ā  absently Ā  over Ā  them, Ā  swollen Ā  and Ā  tingling,Ā Ā 
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out in public looking tortured
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Ā»  ━━ Ā SABRINA CARPENTER ā€˜ EMAILS I CAN’T SEND ’ SENTENCE MEMES.
lyrics Ā pulled Ā fromĀ  sabrinaĀ  carpenter’sĀ  albumĀ Ā ā€˜Ā  emailsĀ  iĀ  can’tĀ  send.Ā  ’  pleaseĀ  amendĀ  pronounsĀ  whereĀ  necessary.Ā  nsfwĀ  contentĀ  present.Ā 
EMAILSĀ  IĀ  CAN’TĀ  SEND.
ā€œĀ  it’sĀ  timesĀ  likeĀ  theseĀ  iĀ  wishĀ  iĀ  hadĀ  aĀ  timeĀ  machine.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  wereĀ  youĀ  reallyĀ  sleepingĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  wereĀ  youĀ  lyingĀ  toĀ  meĀ  andĀ  theĀ  familyĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  there’sĀ  noĀ  usĀ  inĀ  usĀ  whenĀ  i’mĀ  lackingĀ  trust.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  discussĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  disgustĀ  me.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  don’tĀ  makeĀ  meĀ  cussĀ  youĀ  out.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  whyĀ  didĀ  youĀ  letĀ  meĀ  downĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  don’tĀ  sayĀ  sorryĀ  now.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  thanksĀ  toĀ  you,Ā  iĀ  can’tĀ  loveĀ  right.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  getĀ  niceĀ  guysĀ  andĀ  villainiseĀ  them.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  readĀ  theirĀ  textsĀ  likeĀ  they’reĀ  havingĀ  sexĀ  rightĀ  now.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  i’mĀ  scaredĀ  i’llĀ  findĀ  outĀ  thatĀ  it’sĀ  true.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  blameĀ  youĀ  forĀ  everyĀ  worstĀ  iĀ  assume.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  don’tĀ  thinkĀ  i’llĀ  findĀ  forgivenessĀ  asĀ  fastĀ  asĀ  momĀ  did.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  godĀ  iĀ  loveĀ  you,Ā  butĀ  you’reĀ  suchĀ  aĀ  dipshit.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  wereĀ  allĀ  iĀ  lookedĀ  upĀ  to,Ā  nowĀ  iĀ  can’tĀ  evenĀ  lookĀ  atĀ  you.Ā  ā€
VICIOUS.
ā€œĀ  itĀ  wasĀ  dressedĀ  upĀ  inĀ  heatedĀ  emotion.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  triedĀ  toĀ  lookĀ  forĀ  theĀ  bestĀ  inĀ  theĀ  worst.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  fuckĀ  me,Ā  thatĀ  causedĀ  aĀ  commotion.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  you’reĀ  luckyĀ  i’mĀ  aĀ  privateĀ  person.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  i’veĀ  quietlyĀ  carriedĀ  yourĀ  burden.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  everyoneĀ  thinksĀ  you’reĀ  anĀ  angelĀ  butĀ  shit,Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  probablyĀ  useĀ  differentĀ  wording.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  you’reĀ  soĀ  vicious.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  loveĀ  meĀ  andĀ  thenĀ  pretendĀ  youĀ  didn’t.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  crushĀ  myĀ  heartĀ  andĀ  wreckĀ  myĀ  image.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  whyĀ  youĀ  gottaĀ  beĀ  soĀ  viciousĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  justĀ  runĀ  toĀ  whoeverĀ  isĀ  winning.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  saidĀ  itĀ  wasĀ  meĀ  andĀ  youĀ  forĀ  lifeĀ  andĀ  nowĀ  you’reĀ  kindaĀ  actingĀ  likeĀ  iĀ  died.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  don’tĀ  feelĀ  remorse.Ā  youĀ  don’tĀ  feelĀ  theĀ  effects.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  don’tĀ  thinkĀ  youĀ  hurtĀ  meĀ  ifĀ  youĀ  wishĀ  meĀ  theĀ  best.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  shouldĀ  haveĀ  knownĀ  allĀ  alongĀ  iĀ  wasĀ  onlyĀ  theĀ  nextĀ  oneĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  yourĀ  loveĀ  songsĀ  asĀ  aĀ  promise.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  lovedĀ  you,Ā  butĀ  iĀ  wishĀ  iĀ  didn’t.Ā  ā€
READĀ  YOURĀ  MIND.
ā€œĀ  iĀ  can’tĀ  readĀ  yourĀ  mind.Ā  ā€Ā 
ā€œĀ  youĀ  sayĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  needĀ  toĀ  beĀ  alone,Ā  butĀ  nightĀ  andĀ  dayĀ  youĀ  wantĀ  meĀ  atĀ  yourĀ  beckĀ  andĀ  call.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  sayĀ  youĀ  knowĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  mightĀ  beĀ  crossingĀ  aĀ  line..Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  toĀ  thinkĀ  weĀ  couldĀ  everĀ  beĀ  casual.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  you’reĀ  notĀ  myĀ  friend.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  whyĀ  theĀ  fussĀ  ?Ā  ifĀ  youĀ  sayĀ  youĀ  wannaĀ  beĀ  mineĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  tellĀ  me,Ā  what’sĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  happenĀ  whenĀ  it’sĀ  youĀ  andĀ  meĀ  inĀ  aĀ  roomĀ  butĀ  youĀ  knowĀ  youĀ  can’tĀ  haveĀ  itĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  didĀ  iĀ  getĀ  theĀ  messageĀ  inĀ  theĀ  wayĀ  youĀ  intendedĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  tellĀ  meĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  needĀ  meĀ  inĀ  yourĀ  life.Ā  ā€
BECAUSEĀ  IĀ  LIKEDĀ  AĀ  BOY.
ā€œĀ  youĀ  showedĀ  upĀ  withĀ  aĀ  boombox.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  whoĀ  knewĀ  cuddlingĀ  onĀ  trampolinesĀ  couldĀ  beĀ  soĀ  recklessĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  weĀ  bondedĀ  overĀ  blackĀ  eyedĀ  peasĀ  andĀ  complicatedĀ  exes.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  itĀ  wasĀ  allĀ  soĀ  innocent.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  nowĀ  i’mĀ  aĀ  homewrecker,Ā  i’mĀ  aĀ  slut.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  i’veĀ  gotĀ  deathĀ  threatsĀ  fillingĀ  upĀ  semitrucks.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  tellĀ  meĀ  whoĀ  iĀ  am.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  guessĀ  iĀ  don’tĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  choice.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  i’mĀ  theĀ  hotĀ  topicĀ  onĀ  yourĀ  tongue.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  i’mĀ  aĀ  reboundĀ  gettingĀ  aroundĀ  stealingĀ  fromĀ  theĀ  young.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  everything’sĀ  derailing.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  wasĀ  onlyĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  holdĀ  youĀ  close.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  saidĀ  i’mĀ  tooĀ  lateĀ  toĀ  beĀ  yourĀ  firstĀ  loveĀ  butĀ  i’llĀ  alwaysĀ  beĀ  yourĀ  favourite.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  andĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  thisĀ  forĀ  whatĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  whenĀ  everythingĀ  wentĀ  down,Ā  we’dĀ  alreadyĀ  brokenĀ  upĀ  !Ā  ā€
ALREADYĀ  OVER.
ā€œĀ  we’veĀ  beenĀ  talkingĀ  forĀ  hoursĀ  aboutĀ  howĀ  weĀ  shouldn’tĀ  talkĀ  forĀ  hoursĀ  onĀ  end.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  we’dĀ  probablyĀ  beĀ  betterĀ  offĀ  asĀ  friends.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  sameĀ  timeĀ  hereĀ  nextĀ  weekendĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  sayĀ  weĀ  won’tĀ  doĀ  thisĀ  again.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  howĀ  amĀ  iĀ  supposedĀ  toĀ  closeĀ  theĀ  doorĀ  whenĀ  iĀ  stillĀ  needĀ  theĀ  closure ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  howĀ  amĀ  iĀ  supposedĀ  toĀ  leaveĀ  youĀ  nowĀ  ?Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  selfishly,Ā  iĀ  don’tĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  giveĀ  youĀ  timeĀ  toĀ  beĀ  onĀ  someoneĀ  else’sĀ  lips.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  afterĀ  theĀ  aftermath,Ā  iĀ  knowĀ  you’llĀ  beĀ  comingĀ  back.Ā  ā€
HOWĀ  MANYĀ  THINGS.
ā€œĀ  there’sĀ  noĀ  hidingĀ  fromĀ  theĀ  thoughtĀ  ofĀ  us.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  gotĀ  waysĀ  toĀ  findĀ  youĀ  anywhere.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  considerĀ  you,Ā  i’mĀ  notĀ  tryingĀ  to.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  itĀ  doesn’tĀ  matterĀ  whetherĀ  orĀ  notĀ  iĀ  wantĀ  to,Ā  iĀ  can’tĀ  helpĀ  it.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  it’sĀ  aĀ  habit.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  yourĀ  cornerĀ  inĀ  myĀ  mindĀ  isĀ  wellĀ  established.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  wonderĀ  howĀ  manyĀ  thingsĀ  youĀ  thinkĀ  aboutĀ  beforeĀ  youĀ  getĀ  toĀ  me.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  feelĀ  myselfĀ  fallingĀ  furtherĀ  downĀ  yourĀ  priorities.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  iĀ  stillĀ  makeĀ  excusesĀ  forĀ  youĀ  constantly.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  rememberĀ  whenĀ  youĀ  leftĀ  onceĀ  ?Ā  thatĀ  neverĀ  madeĀ  tooĀ  muchĀ  senseĀ  toĀ  me.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  itĀ  hurtĀ  youĀ  soĀ  badĀ  hurtingĀ  me.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  youĀ  reallyĀ  cameĀ  toĀ  meĀ  forĀ  sympathy.Ā  ā€
ā€œĀ  amĀ  iĀ  notĀ  evenĀ  aĀ  secondĀ  thoughtĀ  ?Ā  ā€
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↪  Ā  Ā š‘“š‘¼š‘ŗš‘°š‘Ŗ ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ š‘ŗš‘¶š‘¼š‘³ . Ā  Ā ( Ā a Ā collection Ā of Ā various unsorted lyric starters . Ā adjust Ā phrasing Ā as Ā necessary . Ā  will be updated frequently . Ā )
i’m not sticking around to watch you go down .
i hope that you don’t suffer ,Ā  but take the pain .
the truth is , i’ve never seen a mouth that i would kill to kiss .
we will be everything that we’d ever need .
you only listen to your fucking friends .
you made a few mistakes .Ā  it’s alright ,Ā  it’s okay .
i’m trying to get better , but i can’t do that when everything is about you .
i can name a couple ways this shit might go .
can you feel my heartbeat fuckin’ kickin ?
you were my everything and all you did was make me fuckin sad .
it’s kind of tripping me up , i’ve got it bad for you .
i’m on my own , i had some space to deal with it .
i’ve got it too good to cry .
i don’t know where i am or where i’ve been .
don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled .
finish up the bottle , then we’ll go .
this room is so suffocating .
motherfucker , don’t play with me .
there’s no doubt in my mind that if you could ,Ā  then you would try .
i’m not the type to be out past dawn .
it’s been a long time since i felt this good on my own .
i really wish that i could say it to your face .
i kinda like it when you talk to me the way you do .
i’ve got something up my sleeve , i walk my talk .
i love you , but i know i’ve gotta let you go .
it’s getting hard to find a silver lining .
of course it hurt , of course it fucking hurt .
i know that you’re hiding something from me .
i don’t need to be loved by you .
trying to ignore it is fucking boring .
i tried to pretend ,Ā  but it just doesn’t feel right .
i just can’t take it anymore .
i’m not trying to change your mind .
living in the city isn’t where it’s at .
don’t waste the time i don’t have ,Ā  don’t try to make me feel bad .
i almost did it … glad that i didn’t .
you better run , you better do what you can .
yeah , i don’t really wanna be here .
pretty things should be seen and not heard .
can’t you bother someone else ?
now i’m sitting here wondering , when did this all start ?
i’m terrified but i can’t resist .
is there someone else or not ?
i’ve been around long enough now to know that good things never last .
i’d rather be the girl that got away than be under your thumb .
it ain’t so bad if i wanna make a few mistakes .
wish i could get some fuckin’ sleep without wasting all my weed .
you scared me to death ,Ā  but i’m wasting my breath .
i feel like a kid again .
you were always taught to believe that everything you think is the truth .
nothing comes without a consequence or cost .
i don’t deserve someone loyal to me .
thought you were headed somewhere new .
touch me like tonight we’re gonna die .
can we go back to the world we had ?Ā 
you should know right now that i never stay in one place .
i’d suffers hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight .
the games you played were never fun .
you said you’d stay , but then you ran .
if i can’t hold you like a lover , i won’t hold you at all .
you and i have history ,Ā  or don’t you remember ?
i’ll be the one to deliver the news .
i’m better than this ,Ā  i know my worth .
there’s something tragic about you .
you don’t know what it’s like , waiting up all night .
thank you for teaching me how i could live without you .
tell me what it is you wanna know .
you’re not a monster ,Ā  you’re just human .
maybe i need better friends . or maybe i need a wake up call .
there’s so much to do , i’ll never have the wherewithal to do it .
i know i’d miss you ,Ā  if i left right now .
i don’t like anyone better than you .
they told me once nothing grows when a house isn’t a home .
what makes you sure you’re all i need ?
i know you feel the way i do .
forever never really felt so right .
i overcommunicate and feel too much .
you say you’ve changed and you’re sorry ,Ā  but i don’t wanna know .
i know i’ve got friends ,Ā  i still get so lonely .
i’ve been doing greater good for a long time .
i’m no hero ,Ā  but i can take a punch .
i thought it would all be great when i was older .
i used to be the one that was lying .
i can’t stand your condescending tone when you talk to me .
we’re still going cause we’re not quite dead .
i wanna scream ,Ā  but what’s the use ?
i know what’s going on in your head .
you know ,Ā  i never wanted to hurt you .
i don’t want to be a prisoner to who i used to be .
if we could stay this way forever , would it be enough ?
can’t you see that i’m getting bored ?
i hope you don’t think that shit’s fair .
i never knew you had such a dirty mind .
sometimes i don’t have a filter .
i’m the worst mistake that god has ever made .
you know i love you , but i’m still learning to love myself .
darling , you’re sick in the head .
am i someone you can’t live without ?
if you don’t come back , at least i’ve got nothing to lose .
did you think that i should listen to you ?
the meds aren’t working for me anymore .
goodbye to my good side ,Ā  it only ever got me hurt .
you know ,Ā  you’ve got a real smart mouth .
i know i’m where i belong .Ā  deep down inside ,Ā  i’ve known all along .
i’ve been putting myself on the sideline .
i was worth something , and it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food .
i know i took the path that you would never want for me .
my tongue’s gotten real tired of me biting it .
you’re acting like your deadbeat dad .Ā  you’re better than that .
i swear i changed my ways for the better .
i hate it when dudes try to chase me .
when you’re in love ,Ā  you get so cruel .
sorry , but i guess i’ve gotta let you down again .
just fucking leave me alone .
i walk through this world just trying to be nice .
i can’t be your savior ,Ā  i don’t have the power .
will heaven step in ?Ā  will it save us from our sin ?
follow my lead ,Ā  take my hand .
you should’ve made some plans with me ,Ā  you knew that i was free .
there are things that we’ll never say , but we know .
the only way you can know is to give it all you have .
i’m not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain .
you get me through every dark night .
i know that i’ve done some wrong ,Ā  but i’m trying to make it right .
now you’re over there ,Ā  and i’m way over here , what are we gonna do ?
think about what you believe in .
if i keep my eyes closed ,Ā  he looks just like you .
i don’t wanna feel better .Ā  no one’s ever gonna love me like that again .
there are things that you say ,Ā  and you don’t say .
all my filthy life i loved someone i barely knew .
bless your soul ,Ā  you’ve got your head in the clouds .
what did you say ?Ā  you’re breaking up on me .
if you adore me ,Ā  Ā why do you ignore me ?
you’re not as brave as you were at the start .
it was a bad idea ,Ā  calling you up .
i see it on your face ,Ā  you’ve had a bad day .
people are so fake ,Ā  this world is a cruel place .
i’d rather be hunter than the prey .
someone’s gonna hate ,Ā  it’s never gonna change .
you used to be so kind .
never gonna be easy ,Ā  was it ?
every day’s another shot but all i do is fuck it up .
i can take the hate and all the pain .
it doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right .
tell your baby that i’m your baby .
they’ll kick you and they’ll beat you ,Ā  and they’ll tell you it’s fair .
i wanted to pretend that this time was the end .
no one around me knows who i am or what i’ve done .
i would’ve gave it all for you .
i won’t run ,Ā  i’m not afraid .
same way that they come ,Ā  that’s the way they go .
somehow ,Ā  i just want you more .
i never regretted the day that i called you mine .
i don’t want to get over you .
take it out on me .Ā  i don’t mind if we fight if you make me bleed .
you look better in that dress than i do .
i know i let you down ,Ā  didn’t i ?
it’s a cruel ,Ā  cruel world .
i know i don’t want to live without you .
i’m always tired ,Ā  i just can’t fight it .
i’m too consumed with my own life .
you didn’t think it’d be so much fun .
i won’t let you go ,Ā  so don’t let go of me .
darling , you’re so pretty it hurts .
how’d i ever get so off my rocks ?
tell me where i went wrong .
what’s a king to a god ?Ā  what’s a god to a non-believer ?
they’re out to get you ,Ā  better leave while you can .
i know i’ll never know just what to say .
goddamn it ,Ā  i was worth something .
we don’t need to be enemies .
should’ve kept my ass in bed .
i tried to love you ,Ā  but you’re not my type .
there’s something here that i just can’t explain .
baby ,Ā  is that really what you want ?
i’m not good at making friends .
i keep a close watch on this heart of mine .
i’m obsessed ,Ā  i’ve never met someone like you .
can’t you see that you’re lost without me ?
when i’m like this , you’re the one i trust .
i was born into this , won’t hesitate to use my fists .
i always get my revenge .
the world thinks i’m a mess .
there’s something wrong with me ,Ā  cause all i wanna do is get high .
it’s been a long time since i gave a shit .
sometimes i have these thoughts , they leave me all confused .
when i said take me home ,Ā  that wasn’t what i meant .
oh my god ,Ā  why are you sad again ?
you have to show them that you’re really not scared .
i don’t have many friends .Ā  most of them are pretend .
i had my cake ,Ā  and i ate it too .
i’m too afraid about the things i might say .
shit wasn’t real ,Ā  it was all in my head .
it’s too late to apologize .
i know my disposition gets confusing .
you’ve gotta be so cold to make it in this world .
satisfaction is a distant memory .
no one can ever know .
there’s you in everything i do .
i wish i could say that i’m sorry ,Ā  but i’m over that now .
you’re playing with your life ,Ā  this ain’t no truth or dare .
fool me twice ,Ā  and i know that’s all i need .
i hope if everyone leaves ,Ā  you choose to stay .
i was afraid to leave you on your own .
where along the line did we stop seeing eye to eye ?
if they laugh ,Ā  then fuck them all .
i’m sick and tired of everyone in this place .
i miss the way you made me feel .
he’ll never stay . they never do .
take a dose of something to forget .
aren’t we too young for this ?
i’m not the type to admit i’m wrong .
i shouldn’t think the things i’m thinking .
i don’t wanna know where you’ve been ,Ā  or where you go .
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YUPPPPPP I KNOW THATS RIGHT, CARRD FINALLY DONEEEEE
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YUPPPPPP I KNOW THATS RIGHT, CARRD FINALLY DONEEEEE
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entry5 Ā· 5 months ago
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girls when all thats standing between them and posting their carrd is formatting the bio properly...........
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entry5 Ā· 5 months ago
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ZOMG finally finished writing the whole bio.... had such a hard time at the end there but its finally done. gunna go over it tomorrow, do some formatting, and then its just verses info (of which i have 3 simple ones and 1 more detailed one) and then im DONEEEEEE
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entry5 Ā· 5 months ago
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It’s because you’re always out in those damn woods
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entry5 Ā· 5 months ago
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The Ritual (2017) dir. David Bruckner
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eeeep! ok, im settling in for the evening, but im at a rly good place with my carrd info! i feel fairly confident that im gunna finish up with everything and have it posted by this time tomorrow! thank u all for being patient with me re: replies and starters ♄ very eager to have this all done so u may all really get to know jay!!
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entry5 Ā· 5 months ago
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"dog as a symbol or metaphor is overrated and boring" WRONG.
I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies (thank you hozier)
devoted as a dog
hunted down like a dog with rabies
how a dog loves
I can be a good dog. I can be good
like a good good dog
I want to be your dog
bad dog gets punished
loyal like a dog
a wounded dog will bite anything
I'm not a violent dog. I don't know why I bite
a dog’s trust
chained up like a dog
I could go on and on. like I’m sorry you can’t see the beauty of using dog as a symbol/metaphor. sorry you can only see shallowness in the depth of rawness. anyway MORE DOG AS A SYMBOL AND MORE DOG AS A METAPHOR
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i am extremely well-adjusted and mentally healthy as long as nothing goes wrong ever at all even a little bit
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