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AGHHHH SO NERVOUS FOR TOMORROW'S GAME

Let WD win and let us score an exciting and superseat tickets on TGB vs WD game on March. Universe, birthday gift mo na sakin please.

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Hi eprelthoughts!

It's been awhile, I just want to remember this moment for a long long while. As you know I'm always always a huge fan of Volleyball. Watching it makes me so happy despite not being able to play it anymore. I've been following RJN's respective clubs, early months I'm watching Ran and Yuki in Italy. Sleepless nights just to support my boys. For weekends I randomly watch games for Vleague and I've been following Masa's team as it was Jade's favorite player. As I watched their 1st game, against WD Nagoya the setter really left me in awe for his height, WHAT A TALL SETTER 😳 His power in net defense is hands down one of the best. That's when I started looking him up, Eiro Motoki. I wasn't so invested but then I usually bumped into his stories and lives, I tried my best not following but Jade just kept on sending it to me. One day I JUST GAVE IN and followed his games. I rooted for his team and seriously called them as my "Home Team"

Earlier this year he had an ankle injury, a serious one that kept him on sideline. The team's performance went downhill. You can see Eiro on the side getting frustrated. He worked hard and did lives so he can send comfort. I met my closest friends because of him. We started exchanging interaction, him greeting me a happy birthday twice this year. He's so lovely and appreciative that rooting for him became so special.

I rooted for his healing and first few games without bandage/crutches he had limited time in the court. I was so so frustrated but Motoki's not. He's so patient that he dedicated extra time after the game to get back on his usual shape. Even his team mates stayed with him on his process. Supporting him, cause he's that man who never gave up.

When he came back fully as front line, you can still see shaky performance from him. He can't catch up the ball, he cant set or block in the net aggressively as usual and that's fine. Oya was outsmarting him in Sunto games. Showing him veteran kind of confidence but again he's Motoki, the ever patient and hard working boy. I know how much he studied this game, again and again til he come back to today's stage.

And for today's game this is my take away

Grabe kasi if papanuoren mo ulit and if sinundan mo talaga sila you'll see what Wolfdogs worked on coming to this Finals.

1. More aggressive locals (Kenta - Aki).

• Eiro started distributing the sets more on locals in their Pana game. Motoki kept on gambling especially to Kenta to bring back his confidence that was challenged the past few games especially against Sunto. Kenta was targeted and disheartened by Sunbi that his reception, services and attack became shaky. Kenta made that worth every cent

2. Solid blockings, both Denda and Wang really gave Alain and Papi Fujinaka a hard time. Usually kasi either of the two lang nag wowork

• And as if on Cue, Denda deserves the Best 6 award.

3. Less service errors. You'll see how lethal Kenta's services right now. He used to have a lot of service errors.

4. Eiro's floor defense. Mahal na mahal ko si Motoki but his FD is usually meh lalo na if back row sya, definitely you'll see in this game how much he worked on his FD.

5. Them reversing Sunto's usual routine of disheartening Kenta, binaliktad nila and gave Papi Fujinaka the pressure. They kept on targetting him ng serves sa una mapapaisip ka "BAKET EH ANG GALING NIYA" pero makikita mo how he slowly started getting shaky receives, even shaky attacks. So so smart tactic na naisip nila.

6. FLOOR DEFENSE!! Nung mid season medyo nawala to talaga sakanila, nandun pero hindi kasing top tier ng usual FD nila. But this game grabe you'll see Ogawa throwing his body kahit sa impossible nang masalo na spike. Everyone's catching up the balls, even the MBs were running for it. Sobrang sipag.

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Motoki, look at you from crying for not winning it to crying for WINNING IT

I just want to remember today cause you were a part of my birthday wish. Congratulations to the love of my life Eiro Motoki-kun 🖤 My home team Wolfdogs Nagoya. I enjoyed the past 7 months together 🥳🥇

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I CANT SLEEP BECAUSE IM NERVOUS

AFSGFEGETETE I HOPE AND PRAYING THAT I'LL GET IN 😭❤. PLEASE LET ME IN 🥺

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ANOTHER DAY

ANOTHER TIME TO SAY IM TIRED

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I'M GOING TO TALK TO MY SUNSHINE 🌞

After so many tries, after so many losses I made it! Lord thank you for giving me this on the start of my 2022

Thank you for starting my year with my sunshine

-Eprel

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Seokgyu saves the day

I really had a rough day yesterday. I'm so burnout in my work, had to pack extra goods and most of all had a very heated argument to my mom. I was crying the whole day, working with a pounding head and bloodshot eyes. It was hard but DK happened

And then it went a little comforted...

Then he suddenly went for a vlive randomly

And then I heard he mentioned about going out on a ice cream date with Mingyu. It was such a cute story and makes my heart warm. I love them, hearing the story I felt comforted they had each other

But then DK decided to be the best boy that he is and uploaded their selca in his stories

SOOOOOO SOOO CUTE SOOO SOO PRECIOUS.

And I'm like sgsgswghafwge combusting real time last night. I'm like okay I'm so contented with this. It makes up for all my tears awhile ago but then Mingyu decided to be the best boy to mama

And said, let's upload a selfie dad so that mom will better the whole week instead ❤

AND THEN ANOTHER

OMYGOD I DONT DESERVE THEM 🥺❤

Thank you for keeping me sane ❤

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Weekend happiness ❤

Rare to have a getaway outside ever since the pandemic started. It's refreshing to spend a day with our family doing random catch up and playing games.

Also spent a night with my girls. Drinking, partying, eating, kwentuhan and bond. It's rare to find people like them and I treasure them

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The beautiful sky was oddly satisfying.

Other than the sky siguro yung pamilya ko. Sobrang swerte ko sa kanila cause despite the age and having own lives, we tend to spend time with each other always. Oddly satisying to be just in there, listening to their loud voices.... the thing that could irritate me on a normal day, the non stop bond and talking to me, something I'm really not fond of on normal people.

I love them, I treasure them.

This day might be normal but it really satisfies my soul ❤

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Long time no write?

Oh yeah, the past few days got a bit bearable. I was able to land in a regular position. Got my family support, my brothers and my mom especially.

I'm just so contented right now, nervous to make mistakes but I'll ofcourse do my best always.

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WHAT A SICK WEEK

Literally....I got sick for 4 days, with 39°c temperature, super bad headache and everything else in between. I was supposed to meet my friends last week, saturday, when I woke up to a terrible headache, I slept it off..waking up a lil bit better but comes afternoon I accepted the fact I'm sick.

My body went down. I literally can't do anything other than sleeping and eating. Waking up for a little time and falling asleep again. Thousand of anxious thoughts eating me up. I can't be sick, I can't be confined, I don't have the means.

But I'm so thankful of my brothers and the people who never stopped checking. Gosh I don't want to go through that sickness again.

Luckily my mom and I got better after few days. I got to start axie for extra income, also got an unexpected offer for work. Everything fell to it's place in the end by God's grace.

Amazing way to end a sick week, writing here, feeling better again 🤍

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Feeling shitty again

But atleast I have people checking on me. My mom smiling at me and cooking for me. My best friend and other friends checking on me. My brothers telling me they got me. Why am I feeling shit despite all of these but you know what I chose to be alive and go through another day because of them

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Back at square one.

Earlier this year I wrote on one of my note

"I hope when I read this again in the future, I made the decision that made me happy and contented"

Aprille from March 2021, I want to tell you that you're not. That you went back to square one, jobless, no money, lying in your bed desperately looking for a stable job. A hard pill to swallow, sobrang hirap bumangon, getting super disappointed with myself. Why am I here again? Why am I feeling this again 🥺

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Back at square one.

Earlier this year I wrote on one of my note

"I hope when I read this again in the future, I made the decision that made me happy and contented"

Aprille from March 2021, I want to tell you that you're not. That you went back to square one, jobless, no money, lying in your bed desperately looking for a stable job. A hard pill to swallow, sobrang hirap bumangon, getting super disappointed with myself. Why am I here again? Why am I feeling this again 🥺

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Down under

Today's mood is extra shitty for some fucked up reason. My mind is such a playful shit i can't control, one day I'm really happy, the next one I'm insecure, one day I wanted to take my pace the next minute I crumble down. I feel shitty of all days, I feel shitty when no one had time to talk to me.

Fuck this life

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Down under

Today's mood is extra shitty for some fucked up reason. My mind is such a playful shit i can't control, one day I'm really happy, the next one I'm insecure, one day I wanted to take my pace the next minute I crumble down. I feel shitty of all days, I feel shitty when no one had time to talk to me.

Fuck this life

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THE FIRST TIME WEEKEND FELT LIKE A WEEKEND.

Aaaaaahh after a long wait, I was able to see my bestfriend and trade cards. My heart is super happy to actually laugh and bond with her ng hindi lang sa chat. It felt refreshing as always

And I was able to be with my family til 1 am, drinking and reminiscing our childhood days and how we grew up with a very strict parents.

And today I was able to spend my day with Hermanas 🥺🥺❤ After so many months!!! Catching up is always always a good idea!

Also ending the day watching in the soop ❤ with soooo so many seok and gyu moments

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Happiness on little things

The past few days I had fair share of seeing happiness on little things.

• My bestfriend surprising me with the DK HMV that really made me smile from ear to ear and cry all at the same time. People may call me OA but I'll take it as finding happiness to little things.

I'm so so so happy to every blessing my bestfriend gets. She deserves it more than anyone in the world, my girl who has the biggest heart in the world. 💜

• My close friend also telling me I sounded happier. I didn't actually notice that but after hearing it from her I felt somehow relieved. Ahhh, choosing to rest and take a break to weigh things out and not to hurry up wasn't a bad idea at all.

• Waking up and randomly scrolling then seeing my prio pc for this comeback and was able to secure. Ahhhhhhhh what a weird satisfaction

• My brother checking up on me. He always does, he's that loving especially to me. Sometimes I'm so choked up and pressured by myself I always end up choosing bad decisions. I'm super used to getting myself riled up that when they baby me, it really melts my heart. My mom assuring me better days are coming, that what's best for me will come one day. They've been seeing me suffer silently, they wanted to assure me. Little happiness that assures my heart especially when I'm having battle inside

• Watching "In the Soop" and suddenly DK read something to the book he's holding.

"Ambitions, passion and achievements are great, but in the end I matter the most."

"You must be able to love yourself"

What a reminder, what a timing. This is the validation I needed.

Thank you Universe for the little happiness. Thank you for reminding me to take my time. That I'll be okay, that one day we'll fall back to right place again.

One day,

One day at a time

But today, I'll take my time walking because I'm so tired running and catching up with life.

- ☀️