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hello! maren here, with an independent rp blog for an oc of mine, lily emmerson! if you’re into self-centered, cold-hearted teenagers who are secretly terrified by the thought of taking responsibility and caring about others, then feel free to take a look!

while she’s primarily fandomless, i will be adding a my hero academia verse for her very soon. if you’re interested in interacting, i’d really appreciate it if you gave this post a like and/or reblog - thank you so much!

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okay, after some hesitation i’m gonna come back to this blog! however, i’ve removed enna as a muse, meaning that from now on this is going to be a single muse blog for my oc, lily. this might change in the future, but for now lily is the character i want to focus on here!

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“Who am I who am I who am I…?”  The Distortion repeats, each repetition sounding like it’s coming from an entirely different place and not quite lining up with its lips.  The echo of her question is the only answer Lily will get and the only one it is capable of giving.  A hand does not wonder as to what it is; it just is.

“Can a raven not recognize a writing desk?”  It intones in response to her second question, gesturing out with fingers too-long.  “Lies beget lies beget lies.” It twirls a finger in the air, gesture twisting further and further inward long after it stopped moving.

“Aren’t you having fun?”

“Having fun? Like hell, you-”

Lily cuts herself off, but it’s obvious that she’s losing control of her emotions. Anger is so much easier to deal with than fear, but she feels them both strongly, frustrated with this thing’s answers that don’t make any sense to her at all. Even if she tries to control herself, the emotions just keep spilling out of her without stopping... She can’t help but yell even as she tries to stay calm, and instead of thinking through what she should do, she lashes out, trying to ignore the pounding in her ears.

“You want something with me, right? What is it!?”

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Used to injuries like this? How could someone, who didn’t appear to be any sort of superhero, be used to these kinds of injuries? Tsubasa didn’t want to assume anything about her home life, but hearing that still caused her smile to fade.

“How could I not worry about you after seeing you like that?” The fact that the other girl was a stranger was of no importance to Tsubasa. In that moment, she understood how certain people around her felt when they saw injuries she’d acquired as Cure Swan.

“Those injuries… they really looked like they hurt…”

Of course, that was a lie to begin with. It’s not that Lily is used to these kinds of injuries at all - she’d simply hoped that saying she was would get this girl off her back. Unfortunately, it seems to have had the opposite effect - and Lily wants to kick herself for that.

“It’s not as bad as it looks.” she replies instead, looking away and closing her eyes as she does. “And either way, it’s wrapped up now, so there’s no problem anymore, is there?”

Hopefully that’s enough to get rid of her. Because there’s a churning, nausea-inducing feeling growing in Lily’s gut. Being cared for like this... having someone look out for her- it always leaves her feeling like this, sick to the stomach with an emotion she can’t quite place. Why can’t she just get over it? It’s not like she owes this girl anything. Lily didn’t ask for this to begin with!

Better to be blunt, and straight to the point, then.

“You can go. I don’t need your help.”

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Lily’s eyes widen, and her skin grows paler at the distortion’s words. With lips pressed tightly together, at first, she doesn’t say a thing.

How does this- this person, this thing, know so much? Her heart hammers in her chest as she tries to stop the fear she feels from showing on her face. ...But it’s too overwhelming. It’s too much.

Could this be- the identity of the one who tried to kill her, two years ago? No, that’s impossible - whoever they were, they should’ve forgotten about Lily entirely!! And this- this creature, it barely looks human to begin with! ...Right? Or is she just losing her mind?

At the very last minute, Lily manages to swallow down her growing panic, and speaks. In the end, her words only waver a little.

“Who are you? How do you know all that?”

@ritualwritten ( continued from here! )

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graceful-cure-swan​

Tsubasa blinked, briefly pausing her attempt to bandage the other girl’s wound. This other girl was harsh, but Tsubasa would be lying if she said she couldn’t understand where she was coming from somewhat. But that wouldn’t deter her.

“Even so, I think it’s best to treat everyone with kindness, no matter who they are. You might make a difference in their lives. But even if you don’t, helping people brings me happiness,” Tsubasa replied, resuming her work. She paid close attention to how she was wrapping the bandage around the girl’s arm and didn’t stop until she was sure she did it correctly. Once she was done, she smiled softly and stood up.

“Now, how does that feel? I know it isn’t much, but this should help stop the bleeding.”

“...It’s fine.”

Lily lifts her arm and inspects the bandage, but Tsubasa seems to have done a good job with it. Hopefully, she’s not expecting thanks, because it’s not like Lily asked for her help. But...

Helping people brings her happiness, huh? Lily can’t understand that mindset at all. Maybe if she tried to help people more often, she’d get it, but... as far as she’s concerned, a happiness like that would never be worth the cost that comes with putting others first. Cynically, Lily wonders if Tsubasa just likes to be liked and appreciated by other people - if she’s just trying to feel good about herself by helping others. But maybe that’s unfair.

“You don’t need to worry about it. I’m used to injuries like this.”

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“You’re disgustingly nice. That’s fine, but you’ll only end up getting hurt that way.”

Lily’s words to the younger girl are harsh and blunt. There’s barely any emotion on her face at all, but there’s somehow a firmness behind the way she speaks that’s both cold and cutting. Even as she says it, she wonders a little why she’s bothering... It’s not like Lily’s trying to give her advice, or god forbid, look out for her. It’s just that that disgustingly kind attitude of this girl’s... something about it makes her feel sick.

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𝐚𝐬𝐤  𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 :    𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒔  𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔

‘  i’ll  find  you  again ,  wherever  we  end  up  next .  ’

‘  the  enormity  of  my  desire  disgusts  me .  ’

‘  please ,  one  more  kiss  in  the  kitchen  before  we  turn  the  lights  off .  ’

‘  i’ve  been  lost  but  i’m  here  now .  you’re  the  only  person  who  has  ever  been  able  to  find  me .  ’

‘  almost  dead  yesterday ,  maybe  dead  tomorrow ,  but  alive ,  gloriously  alive ,  today .  ’

‘  you  are  not  broken .  ’

‘  you  can  love  and  be  loved ,  despite  what  may  feel  like  the  eternally  brutal  nature  of  the  world .  ’

‘  i  did  violence  to  my  own  heart .  ’

‘  will  i  be  forgiven  for  the  sins  i  did  not  commit ,  but  created ?  ’

‘  i  would  never  kiss  anyone  who  doesn’t  burn  me  like  the  sun .  ’

‘  i  would  rather  break  the  world  than  lose  you .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  in  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  i  didn’t  know .  i  had  no  idea  how  greedy  my  heart  really  was .  ’

‘  is  that  why  the  idea  of  losing  you  torments  me  so  much ?  ’

‘  how  long  have  i  been  without  you ?  ’

‘  am  i  foolish  for  wanting  this ?  it  will  end  in  flames .  it  always  does .  ’

‘  sorry  about  the  blood  in  your  mouth .  i  wish  it  was  mine .  ’

‘  if  i  love  you ,  is  that  a  fact  or  a  weapon ?  ’

‘  tell  me  how  all  this ,  and  love  too ,  will  ruin  us .  ’

‘  and  you  realize  the  one  person  in  the  world  who  loves  you  isn’t  the  one  you  thought  it  would  be .  ’

‘  it  cannot  be  a  mistake  to  have  cared .  it  cannot  be  an  error  to  have  tried .  it  cannot  be  incorrect  to  have  loved .  ’

‘  finally ,  i  plead  guilty  of  adoring  you .  ’

‘  a  child  weaned  on  poison  considers  harm  a  comfort .  ’

‘  without  realizing ,  i  find  it  in  myself  that  i  cannot  stop  thinking  about  you .  ’

‘  tomorrow ,  when  i  wake  up ,  i  promise ,  i  will  be  better .  ’

‘  someone  has  to  leave  first .  this  is  a  very  old  story .  there  is  no  other  version  of  this  story .  ’

‘  when  i  imagine  myself ,  i  am  always  leaving .  i  couldn’t  draw  my  own  face  if  god  asked .  ’

‘  do  we  simply  stare  at  what’s  horrible  and  forgive  it ?  ’

‘  i  wanted  to  let  go  of  the  pain  even  though  it  was  the  last  thing  that  felt  alive  from  you .  ’

‘  have  i  endured  loneliness  with  grace ?  ’

‘  i’ll  be  your  slaughterhouse ,  your  killing  floor ,  your  morgue  and  final  resting ,  walking  around  with  this  bullet  inside  me  ‘cause  i  couldn’t  make  you  love  me  and  i  am  tired  of  pulling  your  teeth .  ’

‘  and  then  my  soul  saw  you  and  kind  of  went ,  ‘ oh ,  there  you  are .  i’ve  been  looking  for  you . ’  ’

‘  sometimes  it  feels  like  someone  else  is  wearing  my  body .  ’

‘  i  spent  my  life  arguing  how  i  mattered  until  it  didn’t  matter .  ’ 

‘  who  knew  my  haven  would  be  my  coffin ?  ’

‘  dead  is  the  safest  i’ve  ever  been .  ’

‘  i’ve  never  been  so  alive .  ’ 

‘  you  know  what  i  was  gonna  tell  you  before ,  but  didn’t  have  the  nerve ?  you  got  your  name  written  all  over  me .  i  got  my  name  written  on  you ,  too .  ’ 

‘  you  already  are  something .  you  always  were .  and  you  still  have  time  to  be .  ’

‘  you  know  me  by  heart .  it  infuriates  me  that  you  know  me  by  heart .  ’ 

‘  why  am  i  waiting  for  you ?  hungering  and  thirsting  for  you  in  every  cranny  of  my  soul  and  even  in  my  ribs ?  ’ 

‘  you  came  with  a  handful  of  pain  and  a  smile  which  broke  the  ground  under  my  feet  as  the  earthquake  does  when  two  people  meet .  ’

‘  the  only  good  thing  is  that  i’m  getting  used  to  suffering .  ’

‘  the  return  to  time  was  not  my  choice .  ’

‘  we  are  built  to  live  inside  each  other .  this  means  we  are  built  to  ruin .  ’

‘  time  does  not  bring  relief ;  you  all  have  lied .  ’

‘  time  does  not  know  how  to  keep  our  hopes  safe .  ’

‘  you  needed  me  so  much  that  you  had  to  end  me .  ’

‘  there  are  days  where  i  am  morbidly  in  love  with  you ,  and  this  is  one  of  those  days .  ’

‘  i  know  no  end  to  desiring  you .  ’

‘  i  fear  that  i  am  both  too  much  yet  not  enough .  ’

‘  yes ,  yes ,  yes ,  i  do  like  you .  i  am  afraid  to  say  the  stronger  word .  ’ 

‘  a  heart’s  a  heavy  burden .  ’

‘  life ,  as  i  see  it ,  is  all  about  farewells  rather  than  reunions .  ’

‘  heaven  is  real  and  you  only  had  two  minutes  to  prove  it  to  me .  ’

‘  it  was  already  love .  ’

‘  everyone  desires  love  but  also  finds  it  impossible  to  believe  that  they  deserve  it .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to .  ’

‘  i’ll  love  you  until  i  forget  how  to  and  then  i’ll  fall  like  my  knees  aren’t  already  bruised  from  doing  it  and  i’ll  remember  why  you’re  worth  the  ache .  ’

‘  of  course  i’ll  hurt  you .  of  course  you’ll  hurt  me .  of  course  we’ll  hurt  each  other .  but  this  is  the  very  condition  of  existence .  ’

‘  nothing  makes  me  sadder  and  nothing  makes  me  happier  than  you .  ’

‘  i  love  you  and  i  do  not  want  to  love  you ,  it  is  too  much  and  too  difficult .  ’

‘  grief  is  just  love  with  no  place  to  go .  ’

‘  i  felt  my  life  with  both  my  hands  to  see  if  it  was  there .  ’

‘  you  do  this ,  you  do .  you  take  the  things  you  love  and  you  tear  them  apart .  ’

‘  i  hope  it’s  love .  i’m  trying  really  hard  to  make  it  love .  ’

‘  if  you  touch  me  again  i  might  burn  up  in  the  cold  air .  ’

‘  i  asked  you  not  to  leave  several  times .  ’

‘  i’ve  only  adored  you  lifetimes  ago  and  here  we  are .  it’s  nice  to  see  you  again .  ’

‘  all  time  ever  does  is  pass  and  all  i  ever  do  is  remember .  ’

‘  i  feel  as  though  we  were  never  strangers ,  you  and  i ,  not  even  for  a  moment .  ’

‘  i’d  choose  you ;  in  a  hundred  different  lifetimes ,  in  a  hundred  worlds ,  in  any  version  of  reality ,  i’d  find  you  and  i’d  choose  you .  ’

‘  nothing  about  this  is  soft  but  we  pretend .  ’

‘  maybe  you  and  i  are  just  a  dream .  ’

‘  i  know  you  loved  me  too ,  you  knew  me ,  and  it  gladdens  my  heart .  ’

‘  i  promise  i  shall  never  give  up  and  that  i’ll  die  yelling  and  laughing .  ’

‘  i  don’t  do  anything  with  my  life  except  romanticize  and  decay  with  indecision .  ’

‘  the  world  was  made  so  that  we  could  find  each  other  in  it .  ’

‘  you  don’t  meet  the  people  you  love ,  you  recognize  them .  ’

‘  i  think  you  and  i  have  known  each  other  a  few  lifetimes .  ’

‘  this  body  knows  fear  like  a  front  porch  knows  welcome  –  it  is  always  coming  home .  ’

‘  i  miss  you  more  than  i  remember  you .  ’

‘  if  i  could  have  done  it  all  again ,  i  would  have  loved  you  better .  but  i  could  not  have  loved  you  more .  ’

‘  we  could  have  been  happy .  i  know  that ,  and  it  is  perhaps  the  hardest  thing  to  know .  ’

‘  you  want  a  better  story .  who  wouldn’t ?  ’

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resident evil: village writing prompts.

“ there’s nothing wrong with my memory. you’re just being paranoid. “

“ it’s not paranoia if they’re really out to get you. “

“ in life and in death, we give glory. “

“ you shouldn’t be out here. it’s not safe. “

“ i’m not used to relying on other people. “

“ oh, so gauche. what do we care for bread and circuses? “

“ quiet now, child! adults are talking. “

“ my decision is final, there will be no argument. remember from whence you came! “

“ you’re still alive? impressive… “

“ oh, you didn’t think i’d let you get away, did you? “

“ anyone who is anyone has heard of the likes of you. “

“ i haven’t cut open a man in a while! “

“ taken alive? dead? which would you prefer? “

“ i need blood. warm, wet, bright red blood. “

“ they will pay for what they’ve done… “

“ i would have sliced you to ribbons if they hadn’t stopped me. “

“ rest while you can because i will hunt you and i will break you! “

“ go ahead, do your worst! “

“ like i’d ever let you get away. “

“ running will get you nowhere! “

“ you’ve ruined the hunt! “

“ you will not get away! you’re my prey… mine… “

“ so you finally came to see me! everyone falls for me in time. “

“ stupid manthing! you won’t live long, even if you run! “

“ flesh, bones, i will devour all of you! “

“ like hell you’ll kill me! “

“ not enough blood! more! more blood! “

“ come now, don’t be shy. show me your terror! “

“ how can a man be ‘almost’ dead? that’s a question for the wise. “

“ what kind of sick medieval shit is this? “

“ it’s only a riddle if you don’t know the answer. “

“ you don’t have to trust my words, but do you have any better options? “

“ ____! come with me. there’s something i have to tell you. “

“ everyone leaves me… even you… “

“ i didn’t want to keep it from you. i didn’t want to lose you again. “

“ don’t leave… i can’t let you. “

“ you are never going to get out of here! “

“ ____… i’ll make things right. “

“ oh, ____… if it’s for you, i’d do anything! “

“ i gotta say, i’m surprised you made it this far. it’d be a shame if something happened to you now. “

“ you’ve got fight, i’ll give you that, ____. “

“ i’d kill you if you weren’t worth the trouble. “

“ you’re the real deal, ____. well done. “

“ quit hiding, asshole. i’m not letting you get out of this. “

“ i am not a weapon. “

“ the strong will destroy the weak. that’s the way of the world! “

“ you can hear it, can’t you? someone’s waiting for you. “

“ i told you to leave it alone, ____. “

“ just give up. flesh and blood will never win against me! “

“ i’ve spent a lifetime creating this moment… and you try to take it away from me? “

“ i will take what is due. “

“ my desires will be fulfilled! “

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i live again!!

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“Ah? Nah, it was nothing really.” He chuckles, waving a hand slightly. Ever the modest one, he was. “I’ve sorta had to get into parkour lately for uh…well…” A small pause as he trails, tries to think of a way to phrase this somewhat ambiguously, “Personal reasons…– But anyway, yeah, it’s been pretty helpful with that kind of thing! Really gotta figure out how to push your limits like that, you know?”

“You’ve got time to probably get even better than me, to be honest. You still seem pretty young, meanwhile I’m out of school and I have terrible posture…” He snorts, taking a small shot at himself in the meanwhile to lighten the mood. “Definitely hasn’t helped along the way.”

“Personal reasons, huh? Sounds interesting.”

There’s a bit of a twinkle in Enna’s eyes as she speaks, and a somewhat sly grin on her face, too. Either she didn’t pick up on the fact that Adam clearly doesn’t want to talk about those reasons, or she just doesn’t care.

“Is there a story behind that?”