essiekoneill

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I feel like I can't trust anyone and I feel like everyone is out to get me - any advice? Not joking at all!

can relate!

Might be an annoying answer but try to logically pinpoint people who have broken your trust, their reasons as to why, how it deeply hurt you. Then maybe start to find ways you don’t trust you... or ways you’ve kind of neglected or went against yourself... that takes time to realise and heal and mend!

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Don’t fix something that isn’t broken, neoliberalism works kind of well?

you wanna be one of the billions working in a factory/mining raw materials for next to nothing a day? 80+ hours a week? 

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Do you believe there is a new world order/Illuminati group controlling the media? Thoughts?

I think the powers that be, or those in control of most of the earth’s resources, have every incentive for things to stay that way. I feel like world system theory proves the elite classes have been colluding for centries upon centries... controlling trade routes and prices for essentials, etc.

I’m obsessed with “social engineering” type topics haha, absolutely loved Red Scare’s recent pod interviewing Mark Crispin all things modern propaganda   https://redscarepodcast.libsyn.com/propaganda-w-mark-crispin-miller

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Who should make the first move, girl or guy?

I’m traditional and vain in the sense that I’d way prefer the other person to initiate the intial intimate moments. But I’ve definitely made the first move lots and lots of times :) I also think in terms of kissing you can really position yourself in conversation and with small things like hand touching to encourage what you want to happen 

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Could you elaborate on monogamy?

The belief that true love is tied to only one person, and in our current culture that’s only one person at one time, linearly... I believe we can love multiple people simultaneously, in ways that benefit and enhance the connections, and of course the connection to Self. 

But I still love the idea of a family unit and defined roles like primary partner etc. I just think there are so many different layers to connection and intimacy. 

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You’ve said we often do what we were told to value real young. Do you reckon we can change our core values? I was told to value beauty/style and kInDnEsS over anything else

of course we can! I think it’s in our nature to be reflective/reflexive beings. 

But lol beauty/style and kInDnEsS I’m still so deeply attached... lately it’s been “it’s better to be soft-spoken and reserved”, as if my natural excited pace and natural choice of words are somehow just never “good enough”. 

I think awareness through relationships and reflections helps identify, relate and then kind of spot them out.. like where is this coming from, where did I learn it, what do I want to value... x

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What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

Monogamy

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'Whenever I get anxious about not being on social media..0I ask myself… why do I feel the need to ‘connected’ online like so… I have my friends numbers… why am I wanting more time online and less in person… Am I anxious around the suppressed realisation that take away social media, and I'm left to face my not so great real life connections…' - You wrote this when you quit. I felt/feel this so much :(

 Damn just reading that I’m taken back to how painful that realisation was and the aftermath... but trust me, the more honest you can be with yourself right now, slowly but surely you’ll find that connected feeling... and the contrast will be worth it. 

Give yourself comfort for realising/being clear on this... you are feeling the desire for more stimulating/effortless connection.

And I feel we all fill our lives with lots of things... we reach for anything to help to cover the aches... help us feel safer here. A multitude of relationships are essential for sanity... most alive are starved for it but don’t realise. 

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What is the quality you most like in a person?

openness. willing to share about themselves, their opinions, their past, their desired future. 

Most funny people are just really open I’ve found. 

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loving this scorpio and his depth of research, his guest here, Kirah Tabourn is also really interesting :) 

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Your blog just vibes with me - i am currently questioning humand kind so much again, like theres so much things happening that seem to make no sense at all. We have more than enough food on this earth, yet people currently are starving or having severe problems through the economical crisis. But if money wouldn`t play a role we would have more than enough resources for everyone (and woulndn`t destruct the planet as much as we do, because of a growth and profit driven system). Thoughts?

my thoughts are I agree completely, feels like your into the same argument Eric Weinstein makes about our collective “EGO” problem - “embedded growth obligation”

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How have you gotten through COVID?

finding my kindergarten <3 it’s been the best forming relationships with young children... like never experienced such job satisfaction before! And so cool how you can work in this field whilst studying! 

This is the course I’m doing online: Diploma of Early Childhood Education and Care

Planning on transitioning into the kindergarten teaching degree after I finish the Diploma (so I can plan the curriculum more and get paid far fairer). Also just adore studying the Early Years Learning Framework 

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So happy to have found that you’re back online! I used to follow you back in the day when I first went vegan and you were a huge inspiration to me. So cool to see now your current views, especially about consumerism, social media, UBI etc. as my views are very similar (especially so since all this coronavirus stuff has happened). Anyway there’s no point to this message but happy you’re back !!

!!!! thank u !!!! so cool your into that stuff too!!!

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It so strange, I would never have believed that you would have any ‘problems’ in your life if I saw your old Instagram account... And I know that your private life is no ones business, but damn it’s so good to know that Instagrams is not real life. 🤍

I remember feeling that exact way about celebs and a few people online when I was younger... insane how we want to believe in perfection in others.

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“How one treats one’s body and psyche speaks volumes about one’s self-esteem: abusing body or soul with harmful chemicals, behaviors, work overload, lack of personal time and space all denote poor self-regard. All of these behaviors and attitudes reveal a fundamental stance towards the self that is conditional and devoid of true self respect. Self-esteem based on achievement has been called contingent self-esteem or acquired self-esteem. Unlike contingent self-esteem, true self-esteem has nothing to do with a self-evaluation on the basis of achievement or the lack of it. A person truly comfortable in his own skin doesn’t say, ‘I am a worthy human being because I can do such and such,’ but says, ‘I am a worthy human being whether or not I can do such and such.’ Contingent self-esteem evaluates; true self-esteem accepts.”

-Gabor Maté, Scattered