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okay so, it might not be the tablets it might just be that my anaemia is Very Severe and that's why i'm so unwell right now, so i have to take tomorrow off work as well to go to the GP surgery for further testing.... it's possible i have to go to hospital for transfusions if it's that bad sooooo we'll see how it goes... unfortunately at this rate i may yet again have to postpone this week's Horror Thursday which sucks ASS but my health does need to come first rn....

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I think that when people say "we should get together for lunch sometime" it should mean that they want to get together for lunch sometime. Instead of being a generic pleasantry that is said without regard for a desire to eat lunch together.

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feeling very mentally unhinged today........ i don't like being home alone all day with my thoughts when i'm too tired and feeling to unwell to do anything other than just sit and rest. i'd play a chilled video game but steam is updating stuff so i have to wait and sit with my thoughts instead... mum figured it might be my insane prescribed iron tablets that are making me feel sick, though it's a 1 in 10 chance, with my luck I'd be the 1 of course... + my heart is racing and i've already had a meltdown over a friend who's finally messaged me back after a month of radio silence. they're typing as far as i'm aware and i feel so sick, i almost don't want to receive a notification from them at all even though i miss them a lot.... generally feeling very useless and untethered again and i'm soooo tired of it i want a proper trained therapist to fucking help me so bad rn

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5am again and y'all i feel like SHITT and so i crawled out of bed to inform my mum and we had a..... conversation about it. she's of course frustrated i'm unwell and feels my mind and body sabotage me, and all i'm thinking is "fuck i want sleep or i'm gonna hurl" so you can imagine the conversation was..... rough. she won't force me anywhere if i'm unwell (i'm not feverish but i am actually undercooled rn, so my body can't regulate temp well) but she's just so annoyed about it. yeah girl me too, no one gets angrier about the state of my body than me. ugh :(

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This is Henry but also there’s no way to tell so also just some guy

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hans capon from kingdom come deliverance? 🤔

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boss makes a dollar, i make a dime, i shit myself silly on company time

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y'all i slept like SHIT i got like 3 hours of sleep because i was SWEATING and now i feel like i might throw up and i wanna cry so badly i don't wanna go to work they're gonna put me on the fucking guillotine again i feel it in my bones

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TONIGHT'S STREAM WAS NUTS BECAUSE SIR DOENNY HIMSELF FUCKING RAIDED ME???? WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK I FEEL INSANE I FEEL SO INSANE I GOT RAIDED T W I C E WHAT'S HAPPENING AT THE MOMENT I COULDN'T CATCH A BREAK IT WAS JUST BOOM RAID BOOM ANOTHER RAID HERE'S 60 PEOPLE HERE'S 20 MORE AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH THAT???? SIR DOENNY THANK YOU I'M SORRY I WAS SO AWKWARD 😭😭😭😭

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KCD2 stream will be starting in a short while on my twitch!! link in my bio, i've missed my boy so much!!!

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Good morning! It's the first day of Tolkien OC Week! The prompt for today is Family Members and we're looking forward to seeing what y'all produce - make sure to @ us in your post or add the tag tolkienocweek so we can reblog your lovely works (and if we miss you, feel free to message one of us mods)!

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chilling in a pals GTA V stream and y'all I have never been so excited to watch someone customise cars. he let me customise my own and now someone else is going one and it's so so fucking fun!!! true community is letting your chat pick your car visuals fr

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thinking of doing a cheeky Saturday evening stream later similar to last week and just chill and hang out..... my energy levels are still low-ish but much better than earlier in the week so it would be nice to talk and play games again tbh. considering some red dead for tonight, i've missed my horses a lot

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sorry twitch fam but i can't manage tonight's Horror Thursday stream, i'm just absolutely shattered. been on my feet pretty much the entirety of all my shifts this week at work and it's taken a real toll on my body and mind so I'm shifting this week's schedule to next week, Mad Father will happen i promise!

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hey google, how do i stop myself from hating my job and feeling the overwhelming and dread feeling of "I do not want to fucking go there I do NOT WANT TO FUCKING GO THERE" because actually it's not making me feel good at 5:45 in the morning

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OC commission 🔵

alt version under the cut 👇

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lovelies i am so fucking tired. after a hot dinner and an ever hotter shower, i am completely useless and as such i am actually cancelling tonight's KCD2 stream sorry :(( @impmansloot rightly called me out on my bullshit and Gently Recommend that I don't stream, which is smart. i might still do some smithing work for the soul for myself but maybe i'll fall asleep before that happens so 🤷 i'll make up for it later in the week most likely!