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Batkids sleepover

Wayne Family Adventures

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“But God is only a white cold eye, a quarter-moon poised above the smoke, blinking, blinking, as the city is gradually pounded to dust.”

— Anthony Doerr, All the Light We Cannot See

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benji

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Around here we usually say that we bury our children under our most beautiful trees, but not even the best among us can find a tree beautiful enough to watch over Benjamin Ovich. So we grow new ones, all around the stone bearing his name, we let Alicia and other children plant them in the soil so that they grow up around him. Until he is no longer sleeping in a churchyard, but where he was always safest and hap-piest. In a forest.

Words?

This hurts too much.

— Fredrik Backman, The winners

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just finished the winners by frederik backman how the fuck am i supposed to cope

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Ofc it hits him in the heart. He was all heart!!!! SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. MY BOY DESERVED THE WORLD AND THEN SOME MORE

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how fitting yet so unfair that Benji Ovich dies in an ice rink. How he left Beartown to find himself, to figure out who he was without hockey as his only identifier. How he comes back and still feels so painfully at home on the ice. How he’s somehow closer but also further away from knowing who and what he wants to be in this world. How the universe decides it for him with a bang. Benji Ovich dies in an ice rink protecting a little girl who will one day wear his name and number on her back, who will go on to live the life so many wanted for him … the life he deserved. Benji Ovich dies in an ice rink that was once his safe haven, in a locker room that used to be his, and surrounded by a team he was supposed to lead. A life of what-ifs that he was finally making peace with. He could be something more than just a hockey player. Alicia was proof of that. Benji Ovich dies in an ice rink … and maybe in death, he can finally be able to just play.

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Ajeeb, bahut ajeeb, bahut ajeeb, hota ja raha hu mai

Sochta sirf ye hu ki ye kya banta ja raha hu mai,

Na khud ka reh pa raha hu na tera ho pa raha hu mai, 

Dooriyan badhti ja rahi hai masle khatam nahi ho rahe

Besabri peecha nahi chhodti, bekhayali khud se nahi, jodti, harf kam pad jate hai, faasle phir badh jate hai,

Lekin,

Yaad sab kuch rakh raha hu phir bhi sabse anjaan banta ja raha hu mai..

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Faasle by kaawish at 3 AM brings out all my unhealed trauma.

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what cute little kids i sure hope nothing bad happens to them ever

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i hope love never finds me ever again

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i hope love never finds me ever again

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i hope love never finds me ever again

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i hope love never finds me ever again

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i hope love never finds me ever again