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If I am no longer anything but a body, barely a place in the sun and the instant that measures my breath, then I am released from all worries and fears. As well as regrets. Nothing matters. I attach myself only to this minute that my life is filling up.

- the instant, Simone De Beauvoir

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The taste, first delicious, now sickens me

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“Are you warm now?”

“I’m warm”

The only thing he had done to hurt me was to withdraw his affection.

- S.R

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I was thinking about leaving without saying hello to anyone, I could leave, I thought, and it felt good to think about- as if I were in control of my life again”

- Sally Rooney

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“Your death, it won’t happen to you,

It’ll happen to your family or your friends”

- Matty Healy

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We looked at one another as if we were already having a private conversation that couldn’t be overheard

- sally Rooney

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He looked over and I looked back? I felt a key turning inside my body, turning so forcefully that I could do nothing to stop it” - S.R

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“I felt my heart beat hard in the knowledge that I was being deceitful, but outwardly I was a capable liar, even a competitive one”

- Sally Rooney

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SADIE SINK “The Whale” red carpet at the 79th Venice International Film Festival | September 04, 2022

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Friends don’t look at each other like that

Stolen glances and almost dances 

He Kissed me once but it never lasted 

We always tried, but never got passed it 

We both lied and said we’re passive.

We’re too shy 

And it’s too drastic 

Looking back I should’ve took my chances 

Fuck whoever said what happens, happens 

because time only passes. 

Please say I’m not too late, 

Cus I’ve shown up at your gate,

With athousand unsaid things I need to say. 

I know it’s been like 5 long years,

And I’m the last person you expected 

I couldn’t help myself when I realised 

I left the one thing I really needed behind

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I took the day off to sit here crying 

I almost wonder what the neighbours think 

I made you my whole life and tested it away from myself like some sick joke

- m 

19/09/21

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Everyone is robbed of themselves by somebody else

- m 

16/09/21

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it feels like no one will truly understand me, not even myself 

at what point do you throw the towel in and ask someone for help?

- m 

16/08/21

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what could’ve been love

Hold the pieces before I fall apart, soften the blow so I don’t fall so hard. 

fall asleep on my shoulder blades, I'd give my arm to lay right here. 

Never in my life had I cried a happier tear. 

I didn’t know love could be so content. 

Guess I never put it in context. 

we’re growing apart, yet together

No one ever told me how it could get better.

- m 

14/08/21 

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phone calls from Dad

My dad keeps making excuses to call me 

Asking questions about my truck 

But I know that’s not why he’s calling 

We’re both just learning how to talk 

So I wanna say I love you 

Because I know that’s really why you called

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Nothingness

Sitting in my room going through the phases, 

Staring at the moon looking for hidden faces.

Cut my hair to change the way my face is 

even that makes me think of you these days. 

17/5/21