ezri

[ezri]

Just posted a 4k word Nam-gyu x reader sickfic on A03 for anybody interested (minors DNI)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/67338427/chapters/173966998

Will make a more official post about this later with a header and proper description but it's 3am and I'm half asleep

[ezri]

Would now be the worst time or the best time for me to finish the 2nd chapter of my Gi-hun x reader fic that's been sitting in my drafts 75% edited for 6 months???

[ezri]

If you consume fanfic on ao3 and are 18+ and American I need you to lock in and call your senators saying you oppose a federal porn ban. This would effectively ban ao3 and being queer in public, among many other things, due to the intentionally vague language of the bill. I’m counting on queer tumblr and fandom tumblr to help me get the word out that you have to call your senators

[ezri]

Does this count as Squid Game fanart? Lol

I made this for a future introduction/master list post for this blog. ❤️ I don't have a dedicated art account (yet) but I will.

[ezri]

Obsessively checking the word count as if this 400 word scene on its 2nd draft is going to turn into a 4 billion word chapter in the next few seconds.

[ezri]

Small reminder that you should really download your favorite fics off of AO3. We are seeing mass censorships well as the chance that anything, such as another severe DDoS attack can shut down the site making works unaccessible and possibly lost for good.

If you do not know how to download fics, it is a simple 2-button click. I've written a tutorial here.

You think your stuff is safe until it's suddenly not, and then often times it's too late.

This post starts with AO3, (because it seems to be the common denominator across all users on this website /joking) but I recommend extending preservation efforts to anything online if you can manage to download it.

I'm not saying panic and start buying tons of storage devices to hold immense amounts of stuff. A cheap usb can hold plenty of things. You don't have to stop using services still available if it's more convenient to read books on your phone than to fill your backpack with 7 of them.

But you should still get (either buying or creating) physical versions because nothing is guarantee that it will remain forever. From shows being pulled from streaming services, to banned books, to losing access to digital copies of media because the service doesn't support it anymore, the account is lost, or the company goes under. This goes for messaging platforms as well. Your role-plays with your friends on discord can be lost forever, your photos can too.

This doesn't even include media most vulnerable to censorship and how quickly it can be removed, and quietly.

You think it will not happen to you, it will. Do not wait for unforeseen circumstances. Go back up and preserve what you can, your future self will be happy that you did.

[ezri]

Seong Gi-hun is a broken man unsure of what to do next. You're a broke college student studying abroad. The two of you meet when Gi-hun passes out in the middle of a bakery and life gets complicated from there.

Marriage of convenience Gi-hun x reader fic written by me!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/62510173/chapters/159986134

[ezri]

Currently writing a Gi-hun x reader fanfic. Very excited. The first chapter is almost 4,000 words. ❤️ Might fuck around and post that shit tomorrow if I can finish it up quickly. (I've been working on it for a week)

[ezri]

So we all just don't know what to do rn, huh?

[ezri]

I was mid Nam-gyu edit when it happened LMAO

[ezri]

I made a playlist about this little shit if y'all wanna check it out~ I'm still adding to it. Trying to find music that encapsulates his vibe.

[ezri]

Nam-gyu is so Chase Atlantic coded but he WANTS to be Mindless Self Indulgence coded, idk.

[ezri]

Goals for the new year

[ezri]

In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.

There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.

I realized what happened after about two seconds.

The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.

For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.

I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.

[ezri]

“When you try to control everything, you enjoy nothing. Sometimes, you just need to relax, breathe, let go and live in the moment.”

— Unknown

[ezri]

You know when you’re on self destruction day 8 and it gets so fucking boring it’s almost unreal how boring it becomes honestly…. It used to feel so naughty and clandestine and now it’s like….. 👍🏽 Cool tomorrow let’s go on a nice two hour walk get our mind right deep clean house grocery shop listen to sweet affirmations read exfoliate play instrumentals in the kitchen while we cook. And it’s not like a desperate plan it’s just like it’s actually more exciting to live the Other Way. Even if it doesn’t answer every existential qualm I have at once it makes it all nicer. I want to swim and suntan. I want to restock my mango kefir

[ezri]

Me every day