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how does one even begin to forgive another?

By remembering how it felt the last time you made a mistake.

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Boston Manor - The Day That I Ruined Your Life

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i feel so distant from my friends. all i do is work and sleep. my mum makes all my food for me and cleans and does my dishes because i literally just walk my dog, then sit around and wait until i have the energy go shower and go to bed. i feel like shit all the time. the only thing good in my life right now, apart from my pets, is the kids at work. they make my days. i’m dreading what i’m going to do once this week is over and i don’t have work for almost a month. i cannot be alone for long times, or i literally go insane. my mind does not stop and i can’t control my impulses to self harm or do destructive shit. and my paranoia................. lmao... god i wish i died in my sleep

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to be honest i think i’m gonna go off my meds and hopefully regain the guts to try and kill myself

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i’m never going to date again. i don’t want to get close to anyone ever or even have another human being that’s not my 3 friends acknowledge my existence. will be moving out to a forest somewhere far away and live off the land without technology. hope i freeze to death this winter bye

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this girl i follow on twitter posted a story about how she and her husband were breaking up, but couldn’t stay away from one another, and spent weekends together in hotels or anywhere they could go just, and they always cried saying goodbye in the morning bc every time was supposed to be their last time. they just couldn’t make it work. then she got pregnant w his kid, but they decided to stay split up, and she was even married to somebody else for a while after her kid was born, but then the two of them finally found a way to work it out and got back together and now their child is three years old and the parents are married and rly happy together. i hope we can work it out like that too. i’m never giving up.

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trophy eyes - heaven sent please don’t remove source x

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he’s my best friend. i feel so safe and happy with him. still, i can’t fucking trust him. how does that even make sense??? i don’t understand my brain

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i have so, so, so much love for him. but the more i think about it, the more i feel that us being together won’t work in the long run. i can’t spend my life with somebody who’s done those things to me. i can’t trust him. it feels like i’m suffocating when i’m with him sometimes, because i want it to work so bad, yet it just feels wrong and i can’t change that and i hate it and i hate myself for not being able to just let it go

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