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tthings have once again been nuts. I did start working on rufus since its a little easier than remaking a multimuse where I want to get muse pages out, I'm done completely with English, but also uh

i need to replace my car engine :^) more on that later because someone from my insurance should be helping me figure things out. its been a long two weeks.

ive also been trying to get back into creative writing I guess? and I'm leaning more towards enjoying things with my own original characters. so doing more work for them when I have time and am not shutting down from stress

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hiatus + moving blogs

(tl;dr -- severe anxiety, im not happy bc i started writing my muses in a way that fit what other people wanted, i'll remake when i feel like it)

yeah tbh this was gonna happen but like, When. i didn't realize how bad the stress related to this blog had gotten until i started having literal anxiety about logging on. I've been trying not to turn this into a long infodump so in short:

I kept trying to rewrite muses to other people's liking, and then i wasn't happy! i was writing in a way people wanted, making major rewrites and just feeling disconnected. also too much personal life stuff! i have like.. major fear of being stalked bc of prior Situations. it keeps stacking. too many bad friends. car issues, work issues. this is a hobby that currently, i'm not enjoying.

some of my current rp experiences (and i think the anxiety it's induced?) has intensified my obsessive compulsive tendencies and the wound care is not fun lol.

i am remaking my rp blogs! but like, not until after my summer semester is over because i'm once again dreaming about medical codes. rufus might be the exception. BUT. im giving the url out to folks, you're welcome to ask if you have me on discord ! you can try here but i don't have intentions of logging back in tbh. i have a personal blog over @/riversinners but im not super active

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hiatus + moving blogs

(tl;dr -- severe anxiety, im not happy bc i started writing my muses in a way that fit what other people wanted, i'll remake when i feel like it)

yeah tbh this was gonna happen but like, When. i didn't realize how bad the stress related to this blog had gotten until i started having literal anxiety about logging on. I've been trying not to turn this into a long infodump so in short:

I kept trying to rewrite muses to other people's liking, and then i wasn't happy! i was writing in a way people wanted, making major rewrites and just feeling disconnected. also too much personal life stuff! i have like.. major fear of being stalked bc of prior Situations. it keeps stacking. too many bad friends. car issues, work issues. this is a hobby that currently, i'm not enjoying.

some of my current rp experiences (and i think the anxiety it's induced?) has intensified my obsessive compulsive tendencies and the wound care is not fun lol.

i am remaking my rp blogs! but like, not until after my summer semester is over because i'm once again dreaming about medical codes. rufus might be the exception. BUT. im giving the url out to folks, you're welcome to ask if you have me on discord ! you can try here but i don't have intentions of logging back in tbh. i have a personal blog over @/riversinners but im not super active

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hiatus + moving blogs

(tl;dr -- severe anxiety, im not happy bc i started writing my muses in a way that fit what other people wanted, i'll remake when i feel like it)

yeah tbh this was gonna happen but like, When. i didn't realize how bad the stress related to this blog had gotten until i started having literal anxiety about logging on. I've been trying not to turn this into a long infodump so in short:

I kept trying to rewrite muses to other people's liking, and then i wasn't happy! i was writing in a way people wanted, making major rewrites and just feeling disconnected. also too much personal life stuff! i have like.. major fear of being stalked bc of prior Situations. it keeps stacking. too many bad friends. car issues, work issues. this is a hobby that currently, i'm not enjoying.

some of my current rp experiences (and i think the anxiety it's induced?) has intensified my obsessive compulsive tendencies and the wound care is not fun lol.

i am remaking my rp blogs! but like, not until after my summer semester is over because i'm once again dreaming about medical codes. rufus might be the exception. BUT. im giving the url out to folks, you're welcome to ask if you have me on discord ! you can try here but i don't have intentions of logging back in tbh. i have a personal blog over @/riversinners but im not super active

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tthings have once again been nuts. I did start working on rufus since its a little easier than remaking a multimuse where I want to get muse pages out, I'm done completely with English, but also uh

i need to replace my car engine :^) more on that later because someone from my insurance should be helping me figure things out. its been a long two weeks.

ive also been trying to get back into creative writing I guess? and I'm leaning more towards enjoying things with my own original characters. so doing more work for them when I have time and am not shutting down from stress

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"i'm not arguing with a man with a fat ass. whatever you say, cake boss."

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i love sketching in highlighter and basically just always inevitably drawing my idiot---

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highly advise anyone living out east/affected by the heat wave to stay hydrated, stay in the shade, get electrolyte drink mixes/get electroltes, foods with water. stay in the shade as much as possible

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college update --

i'm stupid, actually, and it's only my english class that's eight weeks (though i think the summer semester as a whole is shorter? everything else ends mid august but started in may, so i am sincerely not sure) GOOD NEWS. once english it out of the way, significanlty smaller workload and i'd have a litttle more free time? my brain has been super fried though and i haven't been able to do much.

i've been TRYING to remake this blog because the tags on this blog aare so,, so messed up, and i've wanted to write so many muses on here but ,, look. the ideas may have been fun but i am Stupid. i need to get it out of my system sometimes. i know im dumb. might switch gears back to rufus or my ocs? but i'll still be around until i get things more situated

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tumblr stop being broken challenge

sidenote: the more i write for this english class the more im ready to riot

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college update --

i'm stupid, actually, and it's only my english class that's eight weeks (though i think the summer semester as a whole is shorter? everything else ends mid august but started in may, so i am sincerely not sure) GOOD NEWS. once english it out of the way, significanlty smaller workload and i'd have a litttle more free time? my brain has been super fried though and i haven't been able to do much.

i've been TRYING to remake this blog because the tags on this blog aare so,, so messed up, and i've wanted to write so many muses on here but ,, look. the ideas may have been fun but i am Stupid. i need to get it out of my system sometimes. i know im dumb. might switch gears back to rufus or my ocs? but i'll still be around until i get things more situated

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college update --

i'm stupid, actually, and it's only my english class that's eight weeks (though i think the summer semester as a whole is shorter? everything else ends mid august but started in may, so i am sincerely not sure) GOOD NEWS. once english it out of the way, significanlty smaller workload and i'd have a litttle more free time? my brain has been super fried though and i haven't been able to do much.

i've been TRYING to remake this blog because the tags on this blog aare so,, so messed up, and i've wanted to write so many muses on here but ,, look. the ideas may have been fun but i am Stupid. i need to get it out of my system sometimes. i know im dumb. might switch gears back to rufus or my ocs? but i'll still be around until i get things more situated

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college update --

i'm stupid, actually, and it's only my english class that's eight weeks (though i think the summer semester as a whole is shorter? everything else ends mid august but started in may, so i am sincerely not sure) GOOD NEWS. once english it out of the way, significanlty smaller workload and i'd have a litttle more free time? my brain has been super fried though and i haven't been able to do much.

i've been TRYING to remake this blog because the tags on this blog aare so,, so messed up, and i've wanted to write so many muses on here but ,, look. the ideas may have been fun but i am Stupid. i need to get it out of my system sometimes. i know im dumb. might switch gears back to rufus or my ocs? but i'll still be around until i get things more situated

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awful confident in my ability to write for someone who:

has said "what the fuck is mitosis" doing homework

bullshit their way into getting a b on two assignments

forgot what an adenocarcinoma was despite having it on loop for 3 weeks

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staring very hard at my homework,,, thinking about my aerith,,,

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forgoet munday look at my idiot

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happy to give my discord out to anyone who asks! i.. really dont feel good today. i havent even been able to work on college assignments and i ama bout to Lose it (content warning? pet death talk under the cut_

i put my cat down earlier today. everything hurts and im so burnt out.