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hope you don’t mind but you definitely aren’t the only one! try taking an antacid, sounds like a stomach acid buildup. it happens to me all the time, i get it chronically, and when you don’t put food in your stomach for the acid to digest, well… eating bread/rice/a banana can also help.

am i the only one who gets the most unbearable cramps on the first day of a fast? like, midway through the day, around 2PM, I start getting the most unbearable stomach pains 😫

edit: ugh, add heartburn to the list.

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Do you ever correct your posture just because you think you look fat standing like that?

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i just think it’s funny that i can google “how much of x med do i need to take to overdose” and i will be told exactly how much. one of the most common drugs used in suicide and i can just. google how much i need. too bad i don’t have near enough.

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reason of the day for not killing myself: we have a guest over. that would be like. sooooo embarrassing.

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it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s ok i’m ok i’m ok everything is fine it’s fine i’m ok everything is good it’s alright i’ll be ok it’s ok it’s fine i’m fine it’s good everything is alright i’m ok it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine

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im flipping out because my friend posted a really yummy looking desert and im 15 hours into a fast and now im craving shit like pizza and burgers and sweets and my resolve is so little

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yknow if you say you have to be skinny to be anorexic? fuck you. every time i hear that i think of all the people with an overweight starting weight. i think of how you’re part of the reason they’re dying. how you’re part of the reason they feel like they can’t choose recovery because they “aren’t anorexic yet”.

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i don’t know how some of you can just. openly post your wishes of anorexia on others. you disgust me, please evaluate your life and work on being more compassionate.

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ok kids!! it’s time for another round of

Does Howl From Howl’s Moving Castle Give me Gender Envy, Skinny Envy, or is he Just Hot?

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f. first time i’ve achieved a 24 hour fast in like. two years. and it was on accident.

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🌻Good morning lovelies 🌻 I hope everyone has a good day today and remember I’m always here to talk if you need someone 💕

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glad im not the only one @whispered-tear-drops

does anyone else chew on their tongue or cheeks and clench their jaw super hard when they restrict?

its so annoying :(

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does anyone else chew on their tongue or cheeks and clench their jaw super hard when they restrict?

its so annoying :(

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i have to eat a lot of food today and it’s kind of making me panic :(

i know i’ll be fine because i’m doing super well, and one binge day which is kind of planned doesn’t mean i’m losing control but.

i offered to have dinner with my grandma and i’m excited but at the same time i feel sick. and i know i cant fast all day before dinner because that will just make me sick. tomorrow i’ll just have to do better, i guess.

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me: can i get a break?

life: oh yeah sure. here, your eating disorder is back with a vengeance!

me: ah. understood have a great day.

like ah. yes. what a wonderful break lol. every day sure is something new.

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as someone who struggles with binge eating, i want to share a little tip i always use to avoid overeating and going back into the binge-restrict cycle i was stuck in for a whole month.

try to feel good about what you just ate! even if you went over your limit/it had a lot of calories!

i know it’s kinda hypocritical to say because, yk, our whole disorders circle around the fact that we hate food/eating in general. BUT. if you feel extremely guilty and mentally crucify yourself because of what you just ate, your brain will literally just tell you “i already wrecked my plan. might as well just eat everything in the kitchen.” no!! you didn’t wreck anything!! you’re a human being who just ate something they were craving. end of story. i risked binging today and i managed to avoid it by reminding myself that there is a HUGE difference between eating a bit more than usual and going 2000 cals over what i burn daily. i’m still in a deficit and so are you!! and even if you aren’t, i promise that a 200 calories surplus and a 2000 calories surplus aren’t the same at all. you’ll literally burn the food you ate the next day in like three hours. if you binge, you’ll have to fast/restrict a lot to lose it right away and that will risk leading to more binges.

in fact, i dare say it’s even good to eat more from time to time, especially for us. if you completely cut something you like off, you will FOR SURE binge on it the next chance you get. if you allow it to yourself every now and then, you won’t crave it as much. oatmeal is one of my favourite food and sadly also one of my fear foods, because i like to make a big bowl and then fill it with all kinds of things, like fruit, almonds, hazelnuts, marmalade, honey, chocolate... you get it. so a medium bowl can mount up to even 300-500 cals. normally, i would have just eliminated it completely. but if i eat it like once a week/once every ten days, i:

1- prevent binging

2- eat something i really like and makes me happy

3- prevent. BINGING!!

so eat up bitches, and please try to be as safe as you can. drink a lot of water, eat lots of veggies and take your meds. if you ever need someone to talk to ill be happy to listen :) i’ve been told many times i’m a good listener. i love you all