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some jonghyun moments i never want to forget

standing up for lgbt students and minorities at large by amplifying their voices, but doing so respectfully (dec 2013)

reflecting on his appreciation for hero movies… ‘i have to protect my world’ (mar 2013)

receiving boxes of listerine after a joke comparing his deja-boo suit colors to listerine flavors went viral, during base promotions (feb 2015)

comforting a fan who was self-conscious about her name with a handwritten note at a shinee fansign (may 2015)

going to comfort a crying key during shinee’s concert at tokyo dome, but ending up crying himself (early 2015)

speaking playfully with a male listener on blue night radio (may 2015)

mentioning his gratitude for fans and listeners in creating a safe space with blue night radio (july 2015)

discussing his conversation with taemin about “gender roles, prejudices and negative views about artists, etc.” when writing pretty boy for taemin ft. kai on blue night radio  (aug 2015)

personally supporting radio guest baek young ok on blue night radio in her efforts to bring sanitary pads to low-income girls (mar 2017)

there are so many more moments to include but i wanted to hold onto these for sure. jonghyun, you were a celebrity like no other. i cant imagine a world without you. i wish you’d gotten to known how many hearts and minds you touched with your voice, your songwriting, and just by being yourself.

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I know I haven’t been active on here in years, but as someone that ran a kpop themed blog for a few years and was a fangirl of Jonghyun while I was a teenager I just feel like I need to come back to at least send him off with the rest of his grieving fans. 

I wasn’t really keeping up with kpop in general for the past couple of years. Not actively at least. Strangely enough, I found one of Jonghyun’s solo songs on spotify just a couple of months ago without knowing at first and realized this was *our* Jonghyun. As a fan, I was really happy. Happy that he must be doing well... I don’t think that keeping up with kpop one way or another that I ever would have guessed he would leave so exhausted and unhappy. I read the letter and tried understanding. I still do. I know what he felt. I can relate so well, yet even when he says he’s unwell and that he doesn’t have further reason to give for his pain I still question it. I’ve said similar things before, so I should get it, but it’s like.. you’re saying you tried seeking help and nobody listened. What happened? How could’ve we helped? You say that your story wasn’t good enough for them. Were they just disregarding your need for happiness all along? I feel like some lines were cryptic messages, written only to be understood completely by the person it was meant for.  I was really hurt when I found out T.O.P almost successfully left us too. He and Jonghyun were my two bias from my 2 favorite groups as a teen. 

Stigma around mental health and treatment kills people around the world, but in a country where suicide is the leading cause of death for age brackets of 10s, 20s, and 30s -- this attitude really needs to change. I hope that this outpour of concern and “I wish I could’ve been there for you” continues and evolves into a more open conversation about mental health. 

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Kim Jonghyun’s UFO reply to a fan

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(171219) @mblaq_bangmir: the hyung that always gave a bright smile left. i will remember your smile. now please rest in the place where you don’t need to worry. (source: daengnyiel)

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me: i’m not like other girls. other girls are ethereal creatures of magic and i am a piece of shit

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at this point, everything i do is a coping mechanism

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It’s about that time again.

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うみべの女の子 - Girl by the sea

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by shun izumi

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