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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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very very evil to be a child in 2008 and an adult in 2025

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im going to explode in the kiln

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Can’t you come back

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shirt that says my childhood drags behind me like a dead body

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i will never get over the way time and the environment behaved so differently when i was a kid. a saturday afternoon felt so vast and long. i could get absorbed into the colours and atmosphere of a tv show. even the food was better. even the air

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from Autopsy by Donte Collins

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be careful with what series you watch/read during emotional points in your life because they will forever contain a ghost of your past self within it now

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uh oh i miss something i can’t name again. i want to go home to something that doesn’t exist again. does anyone have a gun

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Jenny Slate, Little Weirds

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actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty then to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do.

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Katherine May, from Wintering: How I learned to Flourish when Life became Frozen 

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i love things that come in glass jars because once its over the glass jar is mine

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Dig, Bryan Borland

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in this house we do grandma activities

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