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you.

I'm obsessed.

i think about you constantly, your even in my dreams. 

so much emotion i want to scream. 

i think about whether you think about me too. 

but i break at the thought it might not be the same for you. 

i feel butterflies when we lock eyes-

literal buzzing in my soul.

being this close everyday really took its toll. 

i try so hard to act like you don’t phase me.

but your smile unlocks me like a key.

but i can feel you walk into the room- feel you look back when i face the other way. 

i can feel the desire, your eyes begging for me to say;

I've never felt this way before. 

its like you've given me wings and I've learned to soar.

love at first sight may be true. 

i swear I've felt it- since they first day that i met you. 

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Never leave anything that is broken without giving it a chance.

Poets Love Her (via poetsloveher)

please try. 

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wake me up

she opened her eyes- and there she was. 

in the same bed, with the same boy,

in the same neighbourhood, hanging with the same crowd, 

she's in college now and she does know what she wants.

nothings changed so she closed her eyes.

she opened her eyes- and there she was.

in the same house, with the same man.

on the same street, doing the same thing every night.

she's working now but she still doesn't know what she wants.

 nothings changed- so she closed her eyes.

she opened her eyes- and there she was.

in the same room, with the same dude, 

wearing the same clothes, with the same songs playing.

she's got a baby now, yet she still doesn't know what she wants.

nothings changed - so she closed her eyes.

she opened her eyes= and these she was.

in the same place, with the same guy, 

in the same life, with the same feelings.

she's a lot older now and she knows what she's always wanted.

the freedom to be different- to be her own individual self.

 nothings changed- so she closed her eyes.

they haven't opened since.

-rs

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what is this feeling.

i need to do something. 

i am missing out on something

something is just not happening. 

i dont understand why i feel unfulfilled.

the dreams are the same - the future is still my desire. 

but right now- in this moment- i need something else. 

something is missing. 

i need to figure it out. 

-RS

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Break

i needed a break, 

turns out unleashing my inner demon, 

is more than i can take.

 i though it was only you,

anxiety beast, 

but its self-hate and fear too.

not only them, 

wishes and daydreams take me, 

they tell me to forget the day,

blind me with promises of being free.

but i see today 

what these demons can do.

this path i will not stay,

this is my battlefield to fight through,

this is my canvas to unleash, 

this is my world, 

to conquer these beasts. 

-R.S.

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13 reasons why.

just watched it, it gave me a lot to think about.

like how people treat you sometimes and it doesn't seem to be something too bad to you but to them its just another in a series of unfortunate events that slowly wear them down to a painful destruction. 

ive realized maybe i should create my own list and reflect on all these little things in my head that changed me into this anxious, paranoid beast instead of the free spirit i was. 

i never gave a fuck, i never held on to stuff, 

i was out in the world, and my head was in the stars. 

i will play with my own reasons why, to reflect.

then burn them and move the fuck on.

updates coming soon. lol 

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BE A LIGHTHOUSE. not a sponge.

try to be positive. 

try like harder than ever before,

even though it feels like everyone is judging and staring at you, 

try to be positive.

try to be a lighthouse, 

spreading light and happy and good into everything and everyone around you.

light up this whole room, this whole goddamn life.

dont be a sponge anymore.

let all their shit go, it’s theirs. 

be a lighthouse, not a sponge.

radiate positivity and make your own goddamn self happy.

you’ve done it once before, 

you will again.

BE A FUCKING LIGHT HOUSE.

-R.S.

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Dreams.

lately I've been dreaming more, 

about the tiny spaces we could explore.

we could live among the trees, 

be drifters in the breeze, 

-R.S. 

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3.10.17.

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last night’s dream

last night i slept at his house, i honestly sleep the best next to him. 

hes so warm, literally a heater at night and he always holds me, how can i not sleep soundly?

i dreamt we were in his room, the one we slept in, in the basement of his mothers home...but one wall had been torn down and the room was much bigger, there was a crib in the extended corner, and a washing machine, deep sink and changing table filed with baby supplies against one wall. i heard the baby cry, and he rolled out of bed without opening his eyes and held the little bundle. it really warmed my heart, he never holds babies because he's so scared cause they are so tiny, but he always assured me he'd hold ours. it was such a small bundle he could hold with one hand, with the other he reached to combine some milk. 

i was watching all of this from my side of the bed, when i realized i was watching. it wasn't me there, he hadn't even looked at me this whole time. i called his name and he didn't even flinch. 

i wasn't a part of this world. 

i woke with a deep sadness, how can i have these feelings ? why am i so anxious and sad? i want a future, i want to be a part of that future, with him, and our bundle, i want to argue over who will get up, i want him to turn and smile to me when i call his name. 

i want us. 

its so scary.

but I'm so sure, its literally my dreams. 

i wish i could always hold that warm feeling of when he picked up that bundle, i think thats all i need to remember those good things in life. to slow down and breathe to enjoy them, to be healthy to be around to see them, to be happy and motivated so that i can achieve them. 

I'm feeling good today. 

i will get shit done today. 

-R.S. 

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Now your just somebody that i used to know...

Every look at old photos,

like memories of a dead friend ?

-R.S

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I promise to do better.

old ways won’t open new doors. 

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It’s the light we should fear; 

whispering make believes 

in dreamers ears 

-R.S.

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The hardest thing about caring for people is when they stop caring and you still do. The effort stops. The nice words stop. Everything changes but you still care. You make sure to tell the person how much you care even when they don’t say it back. Everything they did to make you care for them has stopped and yet you still care. And you’ll always care even when they don’t recognize it or appreciate it. You know people take your kind heart for granted but you keep caring for them cause you don’t know how to stop

Words-and-Feelings (via words-and-feelings)

the worst thoughts at night - “why did they stop?

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Can anyone hear me?

or are the screams just in my head