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My son just said

You ruined my summer

Because of Eliezio all summer

“Can you do the dishes because I’m too sad to get up”

Crazy

I just broke it off with this guy and I’m crying and my sons response is that I’ll be sad for like a year...like when I was sad about you

Your an asshole

-Felicia 10/14/20

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Still missing you

Waiting for another call

What will I say

Come to me

Pleasure me and all my senses

Or what I prepared

What I need

Don’t call again

I cry everytime

I’m still not over you

I still long for you

The urge is sometimes still great

I think of our tender moments

Forehead to forehead

Gentle and slow

Breathless

Shaking

Laughing

Talking

Over and over for hours

Your smile

Or should I say your smirk

Your teasing

When you cared

You called and said when you where with me you got to be yourself

However,

I beg to differ

I knew nothing of your life as it pained me to know because I would fall more in love with you

I was jealous I could not be apart of your life

Jealous that you where rooting on someone else

Jealous that my son would never have long talks with you

Pitiful I was

Lame

Sad

Ugh

Don’t fucking call me

Jealousy makes you ugly

Bitterness makes you ugly

Longing and crying makes you ugly

As beautiful as you made me feel

As beautiful as you wanted me to feel

As comfortable as you made me feel

You where all along making me ugly

Stealing my shine

Stealing my bits of innocence

To keep for yourself

You will have them forever

You will never forget

When you look at her or her or her

You’ll always remember

That’s just how life is

Memory

Ditto

Asshole

-Felicia 8/26/20

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I cried and tExt you last night

Just things that I would tell you about life and me

Things I would not tell another person

I hate that about you

Anywho you suck

-Felicia 8/18/20

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Well now that is not fair... you can’t call me from an unknown number

Tell me I like it big

Turn me the fuck in like nobodies business just by your voice

And then nothing

Now I can’t stop thinking if you

Now your cock blocking me

6 months and you decide to call

Ugh wtf

What the fuck!

I was just starting to do ok

- felicia 7/29/0

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Um you just called me to say no hard feelings

My heart is pounding

Ugh

-Felicia 7/28/20

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I miss you still

I think of you daily still

It’s more of a faint melancholy now

I don’t want to let go

It was stupid

Idk

I miss your thoughts

I miss you

You

You you

Ugh

You suck

-felicia 7/15/20

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I don’t want anyone but you

My heart

It’s still you

Ugh

When is this going to end

Time

When

Be still

-felicia 7/9/20

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I hate missing you

it’s hard

Especially when everyone loves me

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I just miss you

-felicia 7/3/20

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I miss your calm

I miss your silence

I miss your patients

I miss when you would listen

I miss your words

I miss your thoughts

Also you still turn me on

But then again I’ve missed you since the day I met you

-felicia 7/2/20

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I miss telling you things

-felicia 6/29/20

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I needed your calm and seriousness in my life

-Felicia 6/27/20

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You always had an audio book or something hung playing in your car

I realize now you would turn it off

We would drive with silence

I never noticed it or thought about it till now

It was never weird the silence between us

It would make us smile

It was fun

It was never awkward

It was never a thing silence

I’m the silence there was our vibes

Our bubble

I miss you

I miss that comfort

I’m not good with silence

I got a massage and talked the entire time

When we layed in the grass in silence

I enjoyed silence with you

-Felicia 6/25/20

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Almost everyday

I miss you

Your thoughts

Your passion

-Felicia 6/25/20

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I was just putting away towels

And you pop up in my head

My chest turns heavy at the thought of you

If there was a switch I could just turn off it would be nice

I would choose to never think of you again

I would wipe you from my heart and mind

But it doesn’t work that way

I was just singing so happy and now I’m blah

Blah blah blah

You suck

And you don’t care

Not at all

You lied

You lied about everything

All of it

You exploited a women

In every aspect

You used me

Sexist pig is what people would call you if they knew

User of women

On our second date you brought me to the Clinton damn

You asked me if my hands where cold and put my hands on your cock...

As if that’s what I was asking for

That’s how you treat women

I never wanted that

You made it weird

- Felicia 6/24/20

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I started to work on boundaries for myself with people...especially when they feel overwhelming, negative, and drama filled

I have been realizing not everyone has to like me and that’s ok

I’ve been realizing sometimes I’m lazy and that’s ok...I’m imperfect

I’ve been saving

I’ve been investing in me, my son, and our home

I am getting jaden his passport and this September I am putting a deposit on a cruise

Anywho goodnight

-Felicia 6/19/20

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Fuck

I miss your thoughts

I miss your passion

I miss when you cared

-Felicia 6/19/20