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@tiberiusmadhouse | Abel

To say that she had gotten carried away would have been an understatement. She didn’t even remember what she saw that made that switch flip, she just remembered coming to, hands slick with her most recent target’s blood. Was it sweat that was causing her hair to stick to her forehead and cheeks or something else? (She knew the answer to that, her face feeling unusually warm from the splatter). The tight bun that had pulled her hair back and out of her face was long gone, lost during the struggle. Yelena finally relaxed, her body shaking for just a second as she let the breath she’d been holding in for what seemed like an eternity out in a ragged sigh, eyes still fixed on her hands, what remained of the man a blurry, bloody mess in the background.

Getting home had been easy enough, now that she’d come to her senses - at least enough to sneak through the shadows and avoid the street lights and any busy sidewalks. It took her longer than she would have liked, especially still covered in someone else’s blood, but it had been simple. Do everything she had been trained to do, move without drawing attention to herself.

But then she stood in front of her door, fingers fumbling for the keys, overly cautious that now would be the time she’d get caught, unable to unlock the door because she hadn’t had a clear enough mind to clean her hands before leaving. Another held in breath escaping her as she finally got the key into the lock, turning it and slinking inside, hastily wiping the doorknob before entering, trying to remove the red smudges she’d left behind. She’d do a better job later, once her hands were finally washed clean again.

It was dark; eerily quiet. Welcoming. She’d half expected Abel to be sprawled out on the couch, waiting for her to get back. But it made it easier for her to tiptoe her way toward the bathroom, not bothering to flip on any lights, even as she stopped at the sink, her hands resting at the edge of the sink, leaving behind more blood to clean up when her mind cleared. Yelena stared at where her reflection would be waiting while her eyes adjusted to the dark. And, finally, lights from the city slowly illuminating everything around her, including each spot of blood along her face and neck, staining her blonde hair red.

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needless to say, i did not get anything done today, except for redoing my muse page again and cutting my numbers down bc i am a psycho who can’t say ‘no’ to a new muse idea.

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i’m sort of clearing out my drafts. a lot of that stuff is months old (like from may-ish) and i just need a fresh start. you can also sort of see my all of my uses here for now. there isn’t any info up yet but i’m going to try and work on that tonight. at least for the ocs or any extremely canon divergent characters.

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hey. i’m still here. kind of.

things are being done on my days off this week, including a new muse page with everything updated and correct. currently working on the theme and page to make them matchy matchy.

but i’m here.

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Starters for old gods  Hozier and Florence + The Machine starter list, feel free to change pronouns or anything else to make it fit your character better!

❝ Never knew I was a dancer till [Name] showed me how. ❞

❝ I’m gonna be free and I’m gonna be fine. ❞

❝ How could anything bad ever happen to you? ❞

❝ You make a fool of death with your beauty and, for a moment, I forget to worry ❞

❝ The loneliness never left me, I always took it with me, but I can put it down in the pleasure of your company. ❞

❝ I had been lost to you, sunlight, and flew like a moth to you ❞

❝ Hold me, carry me slowly, my sunlight. ❞

❝ A soul that’s born in cold and rain knows sunlight. ❞

❝ Hey, you’re ok, you seem to be still standing. ❞

❝ What I’ve seen so far, the good ones always seem to break. ❞

❝ All my stumbling phrases never amounted to anything worth this feeling. ❞

❝ You left me in the dark. No dawn, no day, I’m always in this twilight ❞

❝ I tried to find the sound, but then it stopped, and I was in the darkness so darkness I became. ❞

❝ I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map and knew that somehow I could find my way back. ❞

❝ Every version of me, dead and buried in the yard outside. ❞

❝ So deep in the swirl with the most familiar swine for reasons wretched and divine ❞

❝ I need to be youthfully felt, ‘cause God I never felt young. ❞

❝ What a waste to say the heart could feel apart or feel complete. ❞

❝ Why would you make out of words a cage for your own bird? ❞ 

❝ Your secret is safe with me. And if secrets were like seeds, when I’m lying under marble, marvel at flowers you’ll have made. ❞ 

❝ How big the hourglass, how deep the sand? I shouldn’t hope to know, but here I stand. ❞ 

❝ There will be darkness again. ❞

❝ I called your name ‘til my fever broke. ❞

❝ This is as good a place to fall as any. ❞ 

❝ Will you build our altar here? ❞ 

❝ Such selfish prayers, and I can’t get enough. ❞

❝ I’m not here looking for absolution. ❞

❝ I knew from the first look of mischief in your eyes. ❞

❝ I’d suffer Hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❞

❝ My beloved was weighed down, my arms around his neck, my fingers laced a crown. ❞

❝ Are you strong enough to stand protecting both your heart and mine? ❞

❝ Who is the betrayer? ❞

❝ My love has concrete feet, my love’s an iron ball. ❞

❝ This will be my last confession, “I love you” never felt like any blessing. Whispering like it’s a secret only to condemn the one who hears it with a heavy heart. ❞

❝ I love you so much I’m going to let you kill me. ❞

❝ We’ve opened the door, now it’s all coming through. Tell me you see it too? ❞

❝ It’s a different kind of danger. ❞

❝ These chains never leave me, I keep dragging them around ❞

❝ I will not ask you where you came from, I will not ask and neither should you. ❞

❝ I will not ask you why you are creeping, in some sad way I already know. ❞

❝ There’s something tragic about you, something so magic about you. ❞

❝ Innocence died screaming, ask me I should know. ❞

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welp. for the forseeable future, i shall be on a semi-hiatus. there’ll be days here or there where i’ll have the time to jump on and reply to things but a lot of stuff is happening all at once so i’m being pulled in a few different directions.

as always, feel free to message me if you want to reach out or i will gladly add you on discord.

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schitt’s creek sentence meme / episodes 3.11 – 3.13 feel free to change pronouns, tenses, wording, etc etc for your muse.

“In my defense, I did not know he was a substitute teacher.”

“Please don’t go down that path again.”

“She doesn’t look like a horse, she just talks about them a lot.”

“You gotta go to the store and get something to deal with that now!”

“This is the last time I take a pity selfie with ________.”

“Your hair’s in a ponytail that’s.. fantastic!”

“I’m not used to that level of kindness.”

“I’m going to ignore that passive aggression.”

“Mama Oprah would be very proud of us.”

“What about a platonic sleepover?”

“That is almost entirely correct.”

“I know that town beautification is kind of your thing.”

“I’m flattered beyond all reason.”

“The whole town is named after me.”

“As much as I’d love to contribute to the population growth of this town by way of teen pregnancies, I must decline.”

“I truly appreciate the gesture.”

“It’s liquid moisturizer for your body so, um, no. You can’t drink them.”

“What do we think body milk is, if not milk for your body?”

“We have way too much work to do today for me to feel attacked by way of an imbalanced social dynamic.”

“You’ve been domesticated beyond recognition.”

“It’s not like you haven’t overreacted to bad news in the past.”

“This is probably the most intimate thing I’ve ever done.”

“For some reason, I pictured you living underground.”

“I don’t recall you ever telling me about that chapter in your life.”

“I’m sorry, but is that a soft but affirm indication that you miss me?”

“I just see two de-shelled hard-boiled eggs in a bag. Should I be scared for you?”

“The vodka’s in the freezer.”

“As much as I love the spotlight, sometimes it’s just best to step aside.”

“I know this isn’t what you wanted, but I think it’ll make him really happy to make you happy.”

“I shouldn’t have eaten those eggs.”

“I can’t believe I’m trapped under a blanket with you knowing you ate those eggs.”

“Unlike you and I, he’s extremely generous without any ulterior motive.”

“I’d rather not attach my name to a gift I had no hand in selecting.”

“Some people have nice, clean mouths and others have sloppy mouths.”

“Rarely has that been a recipe for success.”

“We should be able to have an adult kiss from time to time.”

“I had to delete groupon from my phone, because three vacuums is enough vacuums.”

“You’d think there’d be more of a market for oversized portraits of other people’s families.”

“I was just verbally assaulted by a woman in the line outside.”

“This says foot cream on it. What happens if I put it on my hands?”

“Don’t waste your time thinking about those human vultures.”

“I didn’t tell you because I don’t want you to come.”

“Has your family ever forgotten your birthday?”

“I plan on popping a pill, crying in bed, and falling asleep early.”

“I like having you here.”

“I’m gonna have to look at those photos before you share them or post them.”

“I was getting scared that I was going to let you leave without us having kissed. So, thank you, for letting that happen.”

“We can talk whenever you’d like, just preferably not before 10am.”

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Holliday Grainger as Lucrezia Borgia in 02.01

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Nikolai (@rcliicta​) said “I didn’t want to sleep because I didn’t want to wake.” | between you and these bones starters

The hum in the back of her throat builds, slightly, just enough to be heard over the sound of their breathing; the sound of the furnace creaking as it fought to stave off the subzero temperatures just on the other side of the concrete wall. It was mostly failing, her fingers were numb through the gloves. But it wouldn’t be much longer until the politician or writer or whoever the target was this time reared his ugly head from the seedy motel and they could grab him and be back home; where it might only be a little bit warmer.

But her partner’s words stirred her, dark eyes quickly darting from the window back to Nikolai. Had he meant to let those words slip out? Did some imaginary voice in her head make her think he had said it? The look on his face wasn’t any different than before, before she had taken over the watch for him, but there was something there, a sadness, maybe? There was plenty to be said about her mental stability (or lack thereof) but had that thought ever crossed her mind like it had with him? Probably not; and if it did, the part of her that only cared about new, shiny things would have killed it in a heartbeat.

“I could fix that for you,” she replied, louder than she probably should have said it. With a shift in her seat, Oksana turned her attention back to the window but kept Nikolai in her peripheral. “If you aren’t going to sleep, at least be alert. I won’t have you ruining my reputation.” Laughable, really.

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For those asking, yes I’m a certified angel

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Sentence Starters from Season Four of ‘Justified’ (Pt. 1)

**  please feel free to change any pronouns or words to fit your character.  adult themes, language, references to violence, guns, etc. are present.

“It’s from Lebowski. Netflix it. You can be one of the cool kids.”

“Yes, the most overrated of the nuts.”

“You know what your problem is? You got no self-awareness.”

“You ever hear the saying, ‘You run into an asshole in the morning, you ran into an asshole. You run into assholes all day, you’re the asshole’.”

“Well, I ain’t covering that up with the smell of baking cookies.”

“You stay frosty.”

“What’s he gonna do, tell everyone that he was shot at a whorehouse wearing a bear costume?”

“You know, I’ve been told I got a screw loose but this is just crazy.”

“You got $10,000 stuck up your ass?”

“I’m not the one handcuffed in the back of a car, asshole!”

“You ever hear the expression, 'a woman needs a reason, all a man needs is a place’.”

“I know it’s not as pressing as catching a fugitive but a bar without booze is a sad place.”

“I want you to stay right there, just like that.”

“I’m probably gonna walk out that door but if I don’t leave, do you think you could make me?”

“Not a matter of if that powder keg is gonna blow but when.”

“Boss doesn’t drive. Unless he wants to. And I don’t want to.”

“You’re keeping addict hours. You come in late, you leave early, you’re haggard.”

“The smart money in the office pool is on exotic dancing.”

“Speak of the devil and he shall appear.”

“I don’t even trust the way you just now said I could trust you.”

“That’s mighty Christian of you.”

“Your days are more interesting than most.”

“I can be any number of kind of girls, depending on what the situation calls for.”

“I was just thinking we could lock that door and have some fun on this here bar.”

“In the right light, you could be considered attractive.”

“I wouldn’t kick you out of bed for eating crackers.”

“Unlike the rest of these sorry souls around here, we’re not afraid of you.”

“If he beat the shit out of some guy for just rubbing on you, how’s he gonna react when he finds out what we’ve been doing?”

“Carrot didn’t work, means it’s time for the stick.”

“It was late, we were in my bedroom, so we didn’t talk as much as we should’ve.”

“I meet bad people for a living.”

“Let’s think hard about the next few seconds. You wanna live through 'em, you need to keep your hands out to the side and do everything slow.”

“A good investigator assumes nothing but observes everything.”

“You look oddly out of place in a house of iniquity.”

“You keep putting that little blade near my face, I’m gonna take it away from you and see who’s singing who a lullaby.”

“You know, a girl walks out on me, usually I can count on a letter or something.”

“You always talk this much when you fight?”

“I knew you liked me.”

“End of the day, when it’s all done, she’s still kinda worth it though, isn’t she?”

“Feels good, going home.”

“Now I just sit out in the sun, warm my belly like an old dog.”

“You got that honor amongst dumbass theives thing?”

“'Dumbass’? Coming from the man sitting tied up next to me?”

“Whole world’s a tree, I’m just a squirrel looking to get a nut.”

“I’d whistle the theme song to 'Deliverance’ if I thought you had a better sense of humor.”

“What are you talking about no sense of humor? This is funny, I know I’m laughing.”

“You got a saw? You’re gonna need a saw.”

“I bet you haven’t gotten as rich as you are without ruining a lot of people’s days so I’m sure you’ll be able to forgive my transgression.”

“Is there any particular reason you’re treating us like a couple of bleached assholes?”

“Trust me that this bird in the hand is gonna be worth ten in the bush.”

“Repeating a lie don’t make it true.”

“I believe it’s customary to knock before you come into a room.”

“That’s what assholes do. They get old and die from being assholes.”

“You’re doing that thing that makes me believe you don’t have high hopes.”

“Who do I know, and you know, could scare you into shutting up?”

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You’re an idiot, Steve Harrington.

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Natasha (@chrmtica​) said “Don’t tell me you can’t handle a little sparring.” | physical contact starters

It, of course, wasn’t ‘a little sparring’ when it came to these two. It never would be. It could start out simply as sparring but it quickly became a contest; aggressive in nature. Probably on Yelena’s end, still wanting to have the upper hand against her predecessor. Still desiring to be the best, even after all these years, after months away from Russia, trying her hand at being a hero like Natasha had.

“Natalia Alianovna,” pausing, only just to admire the reaction her formal, Russian name can cause the redhead. “Even you can admit to needing to stop and catch your breath sometimes.” Water bottle clutched in one hand, Yelena leaned forward on the bench, elbows perched on her knees. “Or can you go all day and all night?”

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this is me telling myself to not watch season six of justified and do the sentence starters tomorrow. to save that for sunday. because i only have one more reply in my queue and need to get caught up bc my man friend is coming home on the 13th and i shall not be around for a couple days when he gets back. um and no one asked for it but i'm gonna do the accent challenge bc why not? my accent's been sounding even more southern the last couple days.