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mom: says she knows me better than anyone after almost 30 years

also mom: repeats herself at me in a lecture when i’ve expressed that i hate being repeated at and lectured

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Ted Hughes, describing his wife Sylvia Plath in "Birthday Letters"

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how do people manage life as a person who is so deeply embedded in alternative culture and lifestyle, yet cannot bring themselves to create, live, or seek their own desires? i want to make music so unbelievably bad but the thought of it makes me want to die, but more so the threat of never being able to is equally terrifying and paralysing.

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have any of you ever been in such deep thought that you adjust your leg or something then get scared because you forgot you had a body elsewhere

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all rock shows can and should feel like softcore pornography even when everybody is wearing three layers of clothing and nobody is touching each other

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i love falling asleep to the entirety of perverts on repeat until i wake up. it doesn’t frighten me, it welcomes me. maybe it has successfully tricked me into a false sense of security, or has converted me. but, with lack of better phrasing, it does feel good.

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cats being capable of understanding accidents and even giving you a little head bonk to let you know you're still cool makes it infinitely funnier that they don't understand when you're trying to help them

cats when you step on their tail: i'll admit that was rather ouchie, but given the lifetime of goodwill and trust between us, one must conclude this booboo is but a fluke.

cats when you try to get their claws unstuck from the couch covering: this nefarious bitch has never had a single honorable intention in their dishonest and shameful life, this must be one of their sinister plots or perhaps even an attempt on my life,

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Taking anti-depressant pills?? Seeing a therapist??? Journaling???? No need babe, my fav writer just dropped another x reader fic.

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horrible news guys…. i want to be in love

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ghost x waitstaff!reader where he comes in every week at a specific time bc he knows they will be there, orders the same thing to the point where they just have to ask if he wants a drink, and the other staff know to let them take out the food, and if its busy he would wait to order and watch them rush around enjoying the way they manage the rush, but also making sure to come in when its quiet so that they talk to him bc its easy to tell that not many people do talk to him, like has no clue what the place is called but knows exactly where soap wants to go when he says "the place with the pretty lass/fella", just simon becoming a regular somewhere. should i expand ????

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It’s October! You know what that means... 🎃 (via kxvo)

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when satyajit ray said “the dirt was on my face but i kept wiping the mirror"and when he said if you keep wearing other people’s faces you won’t have yours anymore and when he said there’s a sort of insanity in choosing to define yourself with something because it Will be your downfall and when he said women are sort of enchantresses because they have to go through such an insane ordeal to simply make it out of infancy, the magic is in existing and when he said if you keep one look for yourself, the look will overtake you and when he said that faith is madness but mostly it’s protection and even when it’s fake it’s protection. and when he said faith protests alll, especially the ones giving it and when he-

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The earth is littered with the ruins of empires that believed they were eternal.

-Camille Paglia

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“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life, and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black