finaceappreciationblog

[finaceappreciationblog]

It really can’t be overstated how much I love my fiancé. Every single day I count my blessings that I get to call someone like him mine. In all my life I have never felt so seen, so loved, so cherished, so desired, so wanted. He makes me feel like I can just be, like I don’t have to change anything about myself to be worthy of love and compassion and comfort. He doesn’t just enable me to do whatever I want, though, he gently pushes me to heal the broken and traumatized parts of me, to face the fears that paralyze me, to change the habits that keep me stuck in places I don’t want to be, all the while he supports and loves and cheers me on. I can be stupid and silly and make no sense, I can be inconsolable and sobbing, I can be tearing my hair out angry, I can be out of my mind with horniness begging for him, and anything and everything in between. He never makes me feel judged or wrong or shamed. Even when I’m having a day where I just want to hide away from the rest of the world, where I feel so lost in the dark that the light doesn’t even exist anymore, I still just want to be with him. He makes me laugh on my worst days, he makes me feel proud of myself on my best. I truly love him with my entire being, mind body and soul. I would not trade my relationship with him for anything or anyone in the universe. A few years ago, I was ready to just be done with relationships all together, I wanted nothing to do with love. Now I’m so glad I didn’t give up on it. If I could go back and tell myself something, I’d say “don’t worry, you have something so beautiful coming to you. Just hold on.”

I love my love, so much there almost aren’t even words. 💕

[finaceappreciationblog]

I can’t believe how lucky I am to get to call them mine