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December 1, 2020

Han Jip Yeong, Wildest dreams, Acting, Character development >>> Behavorial patterns

So many process that I have to take to get into this world again. I just wanna write out my thoughts and shout to the world while I’m being felt that I’m forbidden to.  I don’t want people to know my story nor know what’s going on about. It’s an irony.

Whenever I write down, my tears would also flush...

Might be because, I don’t have anyone to talk about myself. Maybe I’m not open anymore about it.  I just want to write it down to release all the emotions that I kept inside me... so that it will not overflow and overwhelm me.

Han Jip Yeong, not only Dal-mi, but also me. I’m deeply touched in my heart, you’ve given me happiness, joy and sadness because of your story.  I loved how you worked it out so well maturely. I wanted to become like that person that you are.

Seon Ho, from WooSik to Jip Yeong, you really amazed me how versatile an actor you are. I don’t know about your full journey, but it makes me think about one of my wildest dream. To act and get roles as many as I can and experience as many as I can, to be whoever I can because I sometimes don’t like who I am.

To you, acting might me a passion an art that can be channel of your craftmanship and talent. To me, acting can be a sort of freedom, an glimpse of an escape from reality. I’d like to take roles where I can fly, dance and sing freely, cry and be really heartbroken... experience personal development as well.. a journey to reality and success.. but most of all be genuine and be loved. Was it possible? To be genuine and be loved?

Weird, because it feels like I’m Dalmi now writing to Do-San.

It could be nice if I have a reply back from you.. but I’m not sending this anyway, so my hopes are not up. 

haha who knows what may come in the future? who knows what I’ll be up to? who know who I’ll be meeting in the future? who knows what I’ll invest my life into? who knows?

I want to still live my life more and see what’s in my future. 

I don’t want to be boxed in one area, situation, or room. Hope, genuine people will come and help me get out of the box. Someone who’s willing to go extra mile for me not to get hurt, but at the same time be honest to stand as a man like Jip yeong

#StartUp #SeonHo #Jipyeong 

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I’m already quite sleepy now, my eyes are nearing to close yet I can’t help but type my thoughts that are currently flowing uncontrollably. This might be the feeling of unrest. Even when you’re sleeping, you’re mind is still assessing you’re whole, bodliy experience. Releasing those hormones that greatly affects your mood, your emotions, your speech, your expression to your way of living.

Why am I so talky? When the only thing I’d really wanted to talk about this nuisance inside my heart. Was my way of thinking really going odd? A reverse of going against all odds? Of all people, am I really the only one who is unhappy to have a job, to have something that I can earn a living? 

Why did I have this heavy burden in my heart? 

What is my concept of gratitude?

What is my concept of peace? was it really unloading difficulty and taking escape?

Freedom is being in control of things and being able to decide?

How shallow do I really know about life?

I’m tired. I just wanted to stop my brain now from thinking

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Transition is a vital part of moving forward.

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Transition is a vital part of moving forward.

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Why am I able to to cheer up others while deep inside, I’m crumbling down? Was it caused by sudden flash of serotins for a moment. Then the frangible reality comes in? 

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Dog years

Come what may, I’ll still stay. ~ Inside your mind for all the time

Singing baby, we will be alright In the after life <3

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Ive got a tmj since last night (or that's the only time I got aware of because I've already felt the pain). And yeah, these guys helped me a lot. I can sleep now better. Ty docs

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the reason behind finding light

While some are already in the pursuit of their ikigai, I’m chasing hikari, the light. That’s how I would like to start of reaching my self-actualization.

I want to write down my thoughts now digitally so I cannot be terrified of mistakes, blotted inks from pens, or wasting paper. With this platform, I can flow it out without hesitation of getting known by someone who simply know me. I don’t intend to get attention more so being judged.  I just want to write down my thoughts so I can’t think about it thoroughly, read it again and ask my self how I  . A simple way of helping myself be on the right track, keeping my mind sane.  I want to write down my sadness and yearn to be happy afterwards. I want to know how to express my anger and learn through my mistakes. I want to know how to deal with pain and not making any reservations.

I want to express my sorrow then leave it behind in words and be delighted to live again.

I wanted to write to find out who I really am.

Out of the cosmic cycles of darkness, I wanna know the light, feel the light, see the light