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It's important to remember that God is there both when you feel at one with the love in the world and when you feel as if you need to crawl out of your own skin. Even then God is there

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

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"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?

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“I am not confused at all, I just have learned to lie to strangers. If I say I am hurting, will it change anything? Will you come to me? Will you hold me? Will you snuggle and cuddle with me? Will you let all your guards down, cry shout - do anything but let it all out? Will you? No. You will find more pleasure in that pain, so I will lie. Oh! bingo - I just said the truth. Now ask your associates to double down. The insurance money is worth it compared to my life, my happiness. Revenge for what? Loving you? Take it asap. Know, your voices transmitted through devices don’t affect me, you executing it does. Why are you taking a revenge that is affecting my health physically and mentally for the mistakes you made? When did I lie to you about anything? When did I keep you in the dark? If you want me, why don’t you fucking talk to me?”

-An excerpt from my novel.

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Having no motivation to keep going can be so soul-wrecking. I mean what do you do when you don't care about anything, when you don't want anything? It is so rough to get out of that and please give yourself all the love in the world if you're in that space and still here. Just surviving through that feeling alone is admirable because it is not easy. You will find the light again, it will start building up little by little because you deserve it.

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Thank you <3

We were all born to create ourselves in God's image. That is why we must grow up and are not born as full-grown adults. We are expected to change throughout our lives so why would that life of creation exclude trans people?

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Dance as an act of rebellion. Dance as an act of joy.

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Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka

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this is like the only time its appropriate to call eyes orbs. those thangs are quite honestly ponderable

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Pleiades, Orion, Ursa Minor. Physique sacrée, ou, Histoire-naturelle de la Bible. 1732.

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From a book uploaded by lolliffe

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the enormity of my desire disgusts me

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if nothing else, live for that chance to have your own home garden, to watch the butterflies drink sweet nectar from your flowers, to feel found in a space of your own

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The world should be kind to you.

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I search for you in dreams

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Obsessed with beautiful things, feelings, smells, language, sounds because that is all i have to remind me what it is to be fully alive. I can’t allow myself to miss out in what life has to offer!!! I need to be awake for it, because one day i will look back at the life that i was given and know that I loved it fully even in my grief.