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I actually think I’m tired of niggas.

Happy birthday to me. 25 on the 3rd.

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Truth.

I’m tired of every nigga I’m currently talking to and the ones that are trying to be on that list.

OVER IT!

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A sprinkle of ratchet ✨😜 Photo from 9.23.17

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💔

Somehow I stumbled upon my old emails tonight but one specific email made my heart ache.

I don’t remember what I was feeling or experiencing when I wrote it but WOW.

That’s actually the subject line of the email.

Note to women: never make your home inside the space of another human. Be your own safe haven. Tell yourself daily you are enough and you deserve blessings/goodness in your life.

It’s ironic that I found this email tonight because I was sharing pieces of my story earlier today and how I’ve been through some shit.

I was really in a bad space but thank God for Jesus.

Jesus is the only answer I have for being as whole as I am today. For such a long time I gave pieces of myself to the point I broken and trying to fill that space with someone else’s pieces. That’s not how God designed me to be. I am whole and complete within myself.

That email really messed me up. Smh.

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5AM.

I️ knew I️ was worth it when I️ decline the offer to trade my goals for the partnership of a man. Every blue moon I️ reflect back on the what ifs but I️ know I️ had to choose me.

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I’ve lost hope in church, again.

I don’t want to go.

I’m unbothered by all things concerning it.

I remove myself from conversations pertaining to it.

I empathize with those who don’t like church.

I still love God.

I still read my bible.

I just can’t deal with the gathering of believers at this moment.

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Life,

Is beating the hell out of me this week.

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I was working hard during the time this picture was taken. My face had slimmed down (along with everything else) and honestly I was cute! 💁🏾 Ima get my life together and get back on track soon. I was REALLY cute this night. 😍 GO ME !

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12:51am

I have moments that I miss you terribly. 

Those moments have happened frequently lately. 

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Update on Peace:

I decided I was over it. 

Peace is still calming and intriguing I just choose not to entertain it any longer. 

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I Can ...

Develop a behavioral plan 

Coordinate services based on mental health needs

Organize an event from top to bottom

Multitask 

Run a studio session (ProTools)

Tell you the yes and no’s of your brand

Run a business meeting

Develop solutions 

Just to name a few.... 

How does this all fit into one life...

I have no idea and its truly an experiment. My mind never sleeps. 

Why am I getting a MBA degree? To hang it on the wall and sign my name with “MBA” at the end, honestly. 

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Chipotle & Krispy Kreme

Happy Saturday, people! 😌

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Thankful

"May have some scars but I'm still healed. Disappointments but I'm still healed." With a thankful heart I praise God. Never thought I would be in this space (like ever) but I'm thankful that God felt the need to heal me even when I didn't want to be. That's legit love. I never wanted to let go and I never thought I could but I did. I'm not even sure when it happened but I'm fully aware that it did because I have my heart back. A few battle wounds but I'm still healed. You've had to have been there to fully understand the significance of this post and if you were, thank you. 😭❤️ I'm better. 🙌🏾 2011-2017. ✌🏾

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804.

Tread lightly.

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Psalms 147

He Heals the Brokenhearted.

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Nights.

Divorced parents ain't sweet. Not having a relationship with your biological dad ain't sweet. Accepting that your grandparents won't live forever ain't sweet. Worrying about your family ain't sweet. Sometimes life ain't sweet.