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Drew this 2 years ago, can’t believe I never posted😩

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A sketch from my old resident evil Donna Beneviento/ reader fic I did last year I lowkey miss my artstyle being more like this

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Me when I catch myself thinking "I wonder what it's like to be chosen by somebody" but then I remember my best friend chooses to be my best friend and my mutuals choose to follow me and the minimum wage employee chooses to give me sincere kindness that I remember years later because I was going through a hard time and it meant a lot

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Doodled this at work. I’m rly proud of it despite the proportions bc it was pure train of thought, no pencil first and I was immensely stoned. I was also working the front desk lol.

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characters apologizing for things they have no control over. mumbling sorry while losing consciousness. feeling ashamed of a bleeding wound. embarrassed when an infection sets in. deep seated feverish guilt when they need to be carried, when their legs won't keep them upright anymore and they lean heavy on a friend, slurring apologies..........

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Me, actively, everyday:

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No cause that’s so real. I’ll never not see myself in her and I’ll never not see myself in all that garbage that’s posted about her here. Anya’s situation is such a hopeless and helpless place.

It was healing to open up about my own experiences through my own take on her with fanfiction, and it is sickening to see how other people feel about victims like her, victims LIKE ME AND PEOPLE I LOVE because they think they can hide behind the whole ‘it’s a fictional character’ thing.

people can make whatever content they want and go "mouthwashing is fictional, anya isn't a real survivor" but to me, the fandom overall is a metric of how people view survivors of assault and abuse, particularly women who have experienced these atrocities. and the fact is that if you take away the sci-fi and ridiculousness of 1 fuckzillion bottles of mouthwash, you're left with a harrowing story about a woman being abused in ways that countless real women are abused on the daily. that is real, that is the discussion that mouthwashing has opened up

so like, she's real in that i know women like her, that i am a woman like her. she's a realistic portrayal of actual victims. and if people aren't willing to respectfully handle a fictional woman's abuse and trauma, then i realllly don't want to see how those same people view real actual victims & survivors

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I was sitting on the floor scratching a mosquito bite on my ankle (riveting stuff btw) and I was hit by such an intense wave of nostalgia from days when I was covered with mosquito bites growing up next to a pond. The bite began to look like it might bleed so I put a star bandaid on it and I love stars so it delighted me to no end.

I was sober for once, and in that 1 hour period a day I didn’t feel like I was dying, then and there I was re-introduced to a kind of simple, quiet joy that doesn’t exist in an altered mind. I timidly thought maybe I should stay sober bc imagine a world where I can be delighted by a bandaid in a sober way. That and I would have ripped a hole in my leg if I wasn’t sober and instead I had a cool bandaid and almost no damage done.

Somewhere out there there’s a mosquito that almost inspired my sobriety journey.

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I couldn't help myself, I made another one.

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Quick sketch of Lord Beneviento I did a while back reading ‘Your Heart in a Headlock’ by @cookiekitten91 HIGHLY RECOMMEND BTW they are genuinely my one of my favorite authors in the fandom

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Got high and drew Lord Beneviento in a tree? Idk it was supposed to be symbolic but I took one hit too many and lost the plot. Genuinely all I can remember is a vague train of thought like:

‘Lord Beneviento does shit with pollen… plants… she likes plants in those fanfics at least… tree? Why… dolls can be made out of wood… yeah that’s deep… her tiddies:.. oh fire I’m not drawing clothes over that

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Lady Beneviento with her youngest daughter, Donna, circa 1990

(click for better quality)

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Finished that little sword. Immediately gave it to the creepy puppet.

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me every time someone posts something donna related

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Guys I found this on my desk after cleaning Lord Beneviento’s house😭

“Dear y/n,

I would like to thank you for all your hard work. The estate has never looked so clean and lively.

Yours truly,

Lord Beneviento.”

"P.s. the garden looks lovely <3"