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Turn Wilbur into Егор Летов

Я не знаю имеет ли это хоть какой-то смысл, но у меня есть хед, что Ревайвбур зарос патлами и при попытке их расчесать раздаётся СкрипКамня.mp3

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Wasn't gonna drink tonight but I'm missing c!clingy duo like a mf....

Listen I do not care about the dsmp but them?? They stay in my heart eurueueuru

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nightmare about guilt

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Pretend he said something super duper funny

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We don't talk about the feeling of "misrepresenting" our source enough, despite it being a decently common thing from what we've encountered. Especially within the factid community (and even more so within the "identifying as" part of the factid community), which is what this post is going to focus on, despite it by no means being an exclusive experience. We've just seen it tenfold there, likely due to a lot of discourse that comes from just having a factual identity.

The feeling of misrepresenting your source is something we've experienced a lot. That feeling of double guessing "am I doing this right?". Of "would my source feel this way?", "would my source say that?", "do I match up enough to count?". This goes double if part of your identity *doesn't* align. Maybe it's a different gender. Maybe it's a different partner/feelings about the partner you had in source. The guilt, the feelings of being invalid, of double guessing "is this even really an identity of mine?". They creep up out of nowhere. It's easy to get lost in it, especially when you're still new, but honestly it can come just as strong years in. And it takes over everything. It's one of those feelings that just engulfs your brain, making you double guess *everything*.

Like I said, it's something we're familiar with. Especially since we have such close interaction with so many of our sources. Hell we're friends with some of ours. It's easy to get caught up in that questioning of being similar enough. We find this is truest for our factives (not many folks with other factional types have fronted enough to confirm beyond factives) compared to our fictives, who seem to be able to handle the feeling a lot better. Something about just being a factive of another person makes us feel like we have to represent them correctly. We have to be a copy of them, and we can't have any deviations. Maybe it's because we're held to such higher standards by the alterhuman community. We either have to 100% source separate or be 100% the same. There's no room for anything else. Maybe it's because we're afraid they'll see we're different and get mad at us for, being us?

But that's the trick to all of this. You can't misrepresent someone by existing as yourself. A part of having a source (and identifying "as") is you're a version of them, not an exact copy. This doesn't make your identity any less real, but it does mean things will just naturally be different at times. And that's okay. It's okay to have a different typing style, a different gender, a different partner. Because in the end we're us. We can be our own person while still being/having our source, and that doesn't invalidate our identity at all. And of course it's easier said than done. Dealing with feelings, especially when there's so much outside influence, always is. But that bit has been a good base to fall back on when we need it honestly, so we're hoping it'll help someone else too.

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are you free tonight

i woul do anything to be free

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Update on my #flip.coins tag! Everything we’ve coined on this blog has been officially posted on Pluralpedia :3

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★ . CRUCIFIER

A crucifier is different from an avenger and inherently persecutory. Crucifiers are typically misguided and seek retribution. They may act bitterly or violently toward others that they believe have wronged them or the system. Headmates that are crucifiers might be antagonistic and aggressive in nature, but aren’t inherently so.

What sets crucifiers apart from avengers is that they take judgement into their own hands and typically respond disproportionately to the situation. They aren’t inherently interested in the safety of the collective and instead operate on their own system of judgement.

Crucifiers can be considered an opposite or parallel to avengers; both roles carry a sense of anger and seek revenge, but crucifiers are inherently persecutors and seek to cause harm to the perpetrator while avengers are inherently protectors and seek to protect the system through their actions.

This behaviour can be exhibited both internally and externally.

The name crucifier comes from the crucifix and ancient torture/murder method of nailing somebody to a cross.

I am comfortable with this term being uploaded onto Pluralpedia, as long as proper credit is given. Message me before uploading it onto any other website.

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Definition and name by: @flipsided-oilbh / @oil-bh

Original coining date: mid to late 2021, exact date unknown.

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Bi polar disorder be like brr its cold, wait, now its warm. Please click the link in my bio it will send you to a page where you can buy dropshipped blankets. The blankets are dropshipped and are unethically sourced

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might seem like a harmless quirk but once you start typing in exclusively lowercase you can never capitalize anything again outside the designated midsentence Gay Emphasis Zones or anyone following you for longer than a week will think you’re about to commit murder

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Nonna you will always be famous to me. I love my alters so much

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fuck y’all if you laid up with your lil boo rn i hope the ceiling fan fall on y'all

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hey dude, idk how much you remember from the party last night but- yeah, everyone saw your want. yeah no it was pretty late and winding down so it was quiet enough that every single person there saw it throbbing and twitching in your chest and so wet with hunger it was glistening under the kitchen light. they said it looked like it was reaching for something

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"You're losing blood" no I know exactly where it is. The floor. Don't ever underestimate me.