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IVE BEEN SO BAD ABT BEING ON KOTAS ACCT pls like this nd i’ll pm u abt plotting with him

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september 17th, 1999 elias michael park was born in victoria australia, he’d have a hell of a life ahead of him.

     when chaesoo and eric had their one and only son their whole world changed. chaesoo stayed at home, taking care of him everyday with joy in her eyes. eric did what he loved, he advertised for essentially every big brand he could. his company had plenty of money and eric was paid well enough. the small family of three was more than well off in there studio apartment.      as elias grew from a crying infant to an inquisitive toddler, his mother found his hands busy in paint, the reds, blues, greens, and every other color of the rainbow covered the walls. she one day after her son had been put to bed and eric was working late sat and admired those tiny hand prints in the plethora of colors and wept. it wasn’t because the pristine white walls had been varnished, but because they had been perfected. when eric came home and found his wife sobbing he was more than concerned, but when she sobbed out in joy he too, wept.      the young parents loved their son to death, even through the terrible twos. as a two year old elias began babbling and throwing things. this escalated the painting with hands on the wall to channeling his inner jackson pollock and throwing the paint on the walls. the artist and her husband didn’t really mind the wild colors, it only added to the stories of that apartment. they weren’t too worried about a security deposit. as he went from two to three elias strayed from the paint and turned to music, banging on the xylophone, hitting pots and pans, and making noise on just about anything he could. his mother, after finding a violin instructor willing to teach someone so young, took away all the paint.      middle school was when his skill in music truly grew, even with the move to korea and the divorce of his parents. he never let his fathers disinterest from him and his mother get in the way. elias loved the way the metal strings felt in his hand, the way the bow fit perfectly in his hands. he’d spend every afternoon in one of the schools practice rooms, working on scales, solo pieces, ensemble pieces, anything that could help him practice.      in korea he lost the violin a bit, most of his time being dedicated to rapping and dancing, working hard towards a debut. his violin sat in its case and went wherever he did, so he could practice as he needed too. but now with being debuted he hardly ever had time for the passion he once held so dear… had he truly changed so much he forgot his passion?

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fmdxvivi:

* ♡ ˙ ˖ +  ◜- sooyeon was usually the talker in friendships, so people were usually surprised to find she was a pretty decent listener. nodding at his words, she grinned at him. “hey, at least you can write properly. i almost wrote my own name wrongly on a test. plus, if you need help with speaking it, i’m more than willing to help.” she picked up the spoken language quickly, but writing and reading was a different story. originally, she’d been apprehensive about the transfer, but the people at her old school were just getting too much for her to handle. she couldn’t go an hour in school without someone making a snide remark. “yeah, i’ll tell them to blaze the dank memes, and dab afterward.” she grinned. “hey, isn’t that, like, the first thing you ever heard me say?”

“am i supposed to be happy or sad no one’s asking about strawberries and cream?” she grinned. on one hand, she was glad not a lot of people her age liked the cute concept, and were more focused on the sexy concept, but it was also the reason she was upset. “i’ve been a legend since birth, eli! of course you love me, i’m iconic.” she blew him a sarcastic kiss. she looked around their surroundings, and her eyes lit up as she spotted a cafe. “there!” grabbing his bag, she dragged him into the small coffee place. “i’m paying this time, so you better carry the stuff back to the charm dorm. there’s a new episode of buzzfeed unsolved.”

elias looked at sooyeon and laughed, remembering back to the cafteria at bc, where when he first saw sooyeon and where he felt almost a lust, but not in the sexual way. a lust for friendship. granted, he always had a tiny crush on anyone who was nice to him but with sooyeon there relationship had gone past crush and was more or less a very sibling like relationship. elias was more than grateful for that, sooyeon had helped him with so much related to hyejung it was a little ridiculous. she always had tried to play matchmaker between the two but elias was always nervous about anything related to relationships.

“ its about half and half, you should be a little happy and a little sad. ” he spoke with a chuckle, popping his knuckles as the two walked. when sooyeon blew the kiss he quickly flicked it away, groaning in distress. “ ew~ ! cooties ! ” he teased and belly laughed. when she grabbed his bag he jumped. “is there?? we better hurry because i’ve missed watching it okay, if you talk fast like you normally do we should be in and out in... 10 minutes tops?” he picked up his walking pace to quickly get to the cafe. once he was in the familiar aroma of coffee, teas, and pastries quickly made him feel at home. “ gah, why does it feel like its been ages since we’ve been here ? ”

after school; e&s

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i’d like to apologize in advanced for my next muses bio... in pages its nearly 3 full pages long, im gonna try nd condense it

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hhhh hi guys !! so ive been kinda Way down in the depression lately but im getting back up !! nd im honestly rlly excited bc i have ideas for a second muse !!!! its one of my older muses so like, he’ll be easier than a newer muse like elias here !! im thinking of a couple fcs... jangjun from golcha... jihoon from svt... maybe yongguk or someone like that... I CANT DISCLOSE WHAT HTE CHARACTER IS YET hehehe !! thats not the point!! i’d like to know where you guys would like to have spots filled. like what groups and positions would you like to see !!! jsu reply to this or somthin !!! i’d rlly love to hear what everyone wants !! (also if u have a wanted connection thats not on the list but its one u want filled pls pm me !!)

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&&.. hyejung:

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setting: bc entertainment practice room, september 2017

there weren’t supposed to be any problems tonight.

hyejung was the most content and comfortable she’d felt all week, bundled up in an oversized hoodie and leggings in one of the older practice rooms that she’d spent the majority of her tween years in. she had snacks that her manager would kill her for eating on one side of her, and on the other? there was elias, who just being there made her heartbeat quicken and smile bloom across her face. h&h promotions were relenting and she had no pressing schedules tomorrow since her drama filming had to be rescheduled. hyejung is able to be a teenager, at least for a little bit.

it’s the first time in years they’ve been able to just giggle about stupid jokes and hyejung isn’t completely freaking out. she’s a bit worn down and all she wants is to rest- and elias is allowing her that. they’re scrolling through their phones and showing each other memes and talking about mindless things. she’s comfortable- until she isn’t. 

their conversation had turned to their jobs and social circles and somehow turned to impulse, or more specifically, jaeho. even hearing his name made her tense up, go silent. she’s staring at the ground intently now, and she knows her eyes have gone foggy as elias talks about how jaeho seemed to value his own popularity over his group members or something along the lines of that. she doesn’t even realize her mind has gone back one year and thinking of the kisses and secrets until hyejung hears “don’t you agree?” and hyejung is brought back to reality.

“oh, uhm, sure. yeah, uh- yeah.” she internally grimaces at how awkward her words were, but she’s more concerned about how flustered she is now. 

the relaxing nature that always came from hanging out with hyejung always made elias happy. the two had basically been inseparable from the moment elias arrived at bc. elias’ korean wasn’t perfect when he arrived so he clung to anyone that understood english. elias still tended to talk in english most of the time, the fear of him messing up his korean always lingering in the back of his head. hyejung always assured him in his korean and it always made him just feel at ease knowing she believed in him.

from the broken korean to giggles hidden behind loud music, the two basically grew up together. elias had always felt so comfortable around hyejung until he realized that looking at her made his heart speed up and his hands get clammy. ( not just clammy, but his hands were always cold. ) the sitting in the practice room where the two had spent so much of their life almost drove his heart insane. after about thirty minutes or so he was calmed down, and bouncing back and forth between topics like he normally did. the conversation had switched to idols that elias felt didn’t appreciate their fans enough, because there was nothing elias wouldn’t do for his fans. when he hear hyejung stuttered response and turned to face her completely, crossing his legs in his lap. “ hyejungie, you sound nervous ? why ? ” with a cock to his head and an eyebrow raised he questioned her. thankfully one of the best things of having known hyejung for a while he could tell when something was wrong, even if he had no clue what. “ jaeho just... irks me- he just doesn’t seem to put all of his passion into his work. ” he spoke as he fiddled with his hands.

only fools fall.

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petition to bring back black haired eli (´∀｀)♡

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                                          you’re allowed to scream                                              you’re allowed to cry                                       but you’re not allowed to give up

i’ve been doing a lot of color theory lately in my classes so i decided to play with that while at the same time !! making a lil thing. these all have their meanings so bare with me

the blue of the ocean: it reminds elias of home, going to the beach with his mom and dad for a weekend and spending the whole time lounging by the waves, eating at seafood restaurants, hunting for seashells. 

shadows: elias, being the creative kid he is, sees life in shadows. if he’d hanging out with his friends he will stop them to look at the shadows, and even snap a photo of it.

cats: elias never had pets as a kid, but he always adored his friends cats, his neighbor had a kitten he would cat sit if they had to go on a business trip.

everybody - logic: this album, while only new out, has helped elias find who he is as a person. every song on it helps him develop his music and refine his tastes.

coffee and cameras: elias adores going and sitting in the coffee shops in seoul, they’ve always mesmerized him. the peaceful aura has always allowed him to relax in ways he never thought possible.

graffiti: the rebellion of spray painting something or glueing something to a wall always intrigued the creative eye in elias. of course he’s always been too scared to try and do it himself, but he always admired anyone who could do it.

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&&.. kangjun:

a thursday night, and kangjun was out, a face mask covering his face and a cap donned on his bed of blonde hair, despite it being 9PM, all sun well out of sight. kangjun found it uncomfortable, honestly — he would never be able to understand those who wore things like these willingly. (unless it was winter, of course, then that was a whole different story.) why’d you want to suffocate yourself, he complains under his breath, as he shifts the mask up to cover more of his face. a small price to pay for wanting to go out with elias in public like this, kangjun muses. he’d even ended up wearing a plain black tee shirt and ripped jeans instead of his usual neon fashion, much to his dismay. (he could never understand why people liked ripped jeans either, even if they were what he wore most of the time when at performances or fansigns, thanks to his stylist. why would you want to pay more to tear your clothes? what?) 

the two of them were at shawn mendes’ concert, kangjun having bought tickets for the both of them through an older friend of his, who had a credit card and money of his own…. unlike both kangjun and elias who had yet to finish paying bc back for their idol debt. elias had mentioned in passing that he was a fan of said singer, and upon hearing news that shawn was coming to south korea for a concert, kangjun had made it his own personal duty to bring elias to his concert as a treat for his hard work. (and also because kangjun himself had wanted to see shawn mendes, but never mind!)

on hindsight, though, perhaps it wasn’t the best of ideas to do this behind their manager’s back, because the crowd tonight at the arena was much larger than kangjun had expected. (really though, why hadn’t kangjun anticipated it? it was shawn mendes!) “it’s no problem, hyung’s wanted to bring you out for a while now!” kangjun flashes a reassuring smile at elias, before grabbing his hand to head out out of the concert venue as soon as possible now that it had ended. the camera flashes all around had put him slightly on edge, worried that something would go wrong, so he wanted to head back without any mishaps occuring.

elias had honestly never had a better concert experience in his life. mendes had always been one of his favorite artists. he was extremely talented and put out nothing but bops. (elias also had a secret crush on the singer.) exiting the venue left elias with that feeling that so many people had experience. the post concert depression was starting to kick in, and it seemed too early for it. his hearing was muffled due to the loud band and screaming fans. before he knew it the crowd of people had been moving until everyone was in the lobby of the arena, elias was clung onto kangjun, scared to lose him still. 

the teens were surrounded by more than enough people to recognize them, and especially with elias silver hair that was hid under the snapback- wait... where was his snapback? elias frantically ran his hand through the hair, panicking as he looked around. ❝ hyung ! my hat ! ❞ elias knew that the colored hair was quick to be a giveaway that he was an idol, and the facemasks he and kangjun were wearing were not exactly helping hide the fact that they were incognito. the snapback must’ve fallen off in the craziness of the concert, and elias didn’t notice. he was growing more nervous by the second. he frantically was looking around when he locked eyes with a girl who obviously thought she recognized him, and before he knew it she was walking toward the two with a fervor he had only seen in a fangirls walk. ❝ h-hy-hyung ! ❞ he tugged on kangjun’s sleeve. ❝ we need to hurry ! now ! ❞

concert season; e&k

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ok so... im thinking abt bringing in another muse to the rp when im able... hmmmm.... i talked to amanda abt it nd we liked woozi. BUT i wanna hear what male fc’s u guys want !! also what positions u’d like filled !!!

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hwiyoung gif pack

     under the cut you will find 100+ 100x100 rp gif icons of the adorable and handsome kim youngkyun(hwiyoung) of sf9! i did not make any of these gifs! i simply put a psd (here) and cropped them!! if you’re going to use these please reblog this post it took a lot to do all of these!! if you have any issues send me an ask! thx! -link☆

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HHH OKAy so the rough draft of my senior project paper (3-4 pages) is due tomorrow by 1:20 and i only have the intro done so ooo the next day or so i’ll prbly be on mobile or that !! im working on some gifs rn !! (im thiniing abt starting a resources blog bc tbh making psds nd gifs is my favorite thing to do) im gonna respond to pms in a sec !! also im still getting sick, i dont think its gotten any better but i just took some nyquil so i probably will only be on for about an hour more !!! 

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visual prince eli

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fmdjace;

jace: oh, so you friendzoned yourself. no wonder you’re bitter.

jace: you aren’t pining, but you’ve liked her for years now? okay, whatever you want aussie boy

jace: honestly i have no idea how she hasn’t noticed- you’re obvious as hell.

[ elias → asshole hyung ]: youre using aussie boy as an insult? im very proud to be australian, plus all the girls love the accent.

[ elias → asshole hyung ]: pining after her would mean im constantly going after her and trying to be with her all the time, when i’ve respected her no matter the time in her life.

messaging: ???

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miaxfmd:

hyejung isn’t going to deny that seeing elias pout like that was extremely cute, or that she might have been holding a breath upon seeing him look like a kicked puppy. i mean, hyejung did find anything he did adorable but that especially. god, she really was a mess for this guy. hyejung smiles again, nodding. “yeah, pizza would be great.” she says, biting on her lower lip again. wait, if they were having pizza together alone would that be considered a date? did they just agree to go on a date? no, he was just offering to go as friends. she was over thinking again- never assume things. she had to remember that. hyejung realizes she’s been going on in an internal debate for a second too long, her face gone blank so she smiles a bit too enthusiastically, especially given that she was having a break down about having to perform minutes before. “i’ll see you soon, alright?” she forces the words out, patting him on the shoulder a bit before running after the PD and her facial expressions dropping into a sigh.

did she just pat him on the shoulder? what the hell? she didn’t have to touch him at all- what if he was uncomfortable with physical contact? what was she thinking? hyejung is on autopilot as she follows another PD that directs her, half jogging in her heels as they make their way to the stage. she’s completely forgotten about the outfit she’s wearing or who she’ll be performing for until she’s on the steps behind the stage, and she can hear them and hyejung remembers. right- that’s why she didn’t want to perform. she’s looking around for hanli, or the PD, but neither of them are around her and it’s just her, the set, and the crowd. hyejung is left breathless for an entirely different reason.

when her hand hit his shoulder elias tensed, what was that? he was frozen in his spot, he barely muttered out a yeah. once hyejung was out of the room he let out a sigh of relief. he was alone in the dressing room except for a few makeup artists cleaning up their stations. he walked over, politely asking if they needed any help. they asked him to just wipe things down and he obliged. he would’ve felt bad had he just stood there and done nothing while the people worked. 

after wiping down all the chairs and tables elias heard the start of ma boy and instantly turned his attention to the tv. he watched as hyejung and hanli danced. whenever he saw her dance he couldn’t help but smile, he knew it was something she was passionate about and it always made him happy to see her happy. as he continued watching though he noticed she wasn’t as happy as she usually was when she danced. she seemed more tense, and less like her usual self. he wanted to chalk it up to nerves but he knew her better than that. he reminded himself to ask her what really was wrong, but for the time being he enjoyed the song and the dancing of hyejung and hanli.

not like this.

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fmdjace;

jace: how long have you been pining after her again? 

jace: no, instead you’re probably thinking with your second head.

jace: you’ve heard the phrase, right? boys have two heads, but can only think with one at a time?

jace: i think that explains your non-existent relationship with hyejung.

[ elias → asshole hyung ]: she is beautiful but no, i’m not thinking with my dick.

[ elias → asshole hyung ]: i havent been pining after her either, i’ve been her friend, something you obviously don’t no how to do.

messaging: ???