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I found myself again.

It’s was catching up to me trying to chase you.

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False alarm!

The love of my life

My everything

The purpose who gave purpose

My heartbeat

The joy inside of me

My answer to life

The void of happiness

My light

The creator of my love emotion

My theory of everything.

Is..

[fmtayh]

The love of my life

My everything

The purpose who gave purpose

My heartbeat

The joy inside of me

My answer to life

The void of happiness

My light

The creator of my love emotion

My theory of everything.

Is..

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Ain’t no pain pill for the type of your pain.

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You can betray me everyday. And just think an apology can wash it away. Cause if I did OH I swear that’ll be the end of the day. Without a word you’ll turn around and just start walking away. But this is you. You think cool and it can float at the bay. But now I tell you fuck it all. And watch the shit that you say. Cause I don’t need it. If you loved me. You wouldn’t try it my way. Now you is mad cause you is sad. And not have your way. I learned a lesson. who you are I can finally say grace.

True color make you blind

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MODE

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Exactly why. Mf lie every day.

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To realize everything was a lie.

To know if I would knew things before I would be here right now.

To accept that I won’t be here much longer.

To understand that you did this and I can’t blame myself.

Don’t you forget.

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I fucking wish I did everything I could’ve.

Only Allah stopped me to see there’s no excuse.

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Kill me pierce me scrape me.

Soon it will come when this is read in the future you’ll understand. What I hid. My time gone is a celebration not a second to be sad.. I made it. Yes I’ll miss the feeling of human but what if it’s a upgrade what if I can see you and you can’t see me. What if I can guide you without you knowing. I am here to leave a message and a story my book will never be finished. And yours won’t either it’s called life

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This will be it.. today I will do it. I accept my time here ..I did what I needed to do. I only see death as a gateway to another chapter of the universal experience. At times I would question the true nature of happiness and sadness.. is it really real or just a construct we build as a collective. I might turn my emotions for things you might smile at so tell me is that really true. We live on a rock that is premature itself. One can travel to a distant planet in the Franck of space and know everything I did for 30 years in 18 mins. Is this true time or borrowed for our liking… I guess we find out at the end. I wish I can send a message back to tell you I made it or rather the details of my trip. After all we all come into this world with one thing promised and what makes us equal and that’s death so who are you to tell me when I should accept it

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Dead

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Booba

For some time I been thinking where am I; to asking myself where were was you.

Honestly I don’t think i came to the conclusion yet. I knew lost myself tryna find the person I truly was. I came to the end thinking it was the end but pushing futher I noticed it was a detour showing me everything I went through was to learn, that all the steps I took in the past was only pushing me to the wrong direction so I stopped! I made the person I didn’t want to be. As well I took the only person who was there watching my every step to lose there way. I am all to blame for that and I understand it. The one who should’ve lead the path was the one watching my every step. I wasn’t the leader in this part of my life , you were. I ignored it. And now I’m paying for it. I look at myself everyday wondering where am I going next and how do I wanna get there.. and it’s always you. The one who never gave up, the one who always was there. The one who know my true destination. I give up taking the lead cause that’s not me right now that’s you. And I know I can never get that time back. But I can always improve on where I wanna go ahead. I need you like we needed eachother and I want you like we wanted to be so now it’s your turn. My time to play follow the leader..

we great power comes with great responsibility. maybe your the web that keeps all this held together..

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Gone boy

I am disappearing I am going off the radar I am at a point where I don’t wanna be with around no one no more. I been through everything in my life. I have to access my life. I can’t be happy nomore I have to find myself. This had cause me pain. I love too hard. And love can kill

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You.. the one who gave me a choice to love or live

You.. the one who taught me the value of family and bond.

You the one who guided me through self value. I am in debt forever by your presence you are the one who has changed me into a man a father, family man and a gaurdian. Your name is etched in my heart for enernity. You deserve the world because the world doesn’t deserve you. We’ve taught eachother the foundation of the opposite of upbringing to learn and understand that we are still one I love you forever. I love you infinity.

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Consciousness is only a field realitive to knowledge one can’t use all are brains because the foundation you are centered by will only give you the data implied with implication. -CLC 

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What Lead You Here.

Time has its balance it’s give you delays, moves fast in the mind with relaxation, it even slows with things remind you of your every own reality. Time. I granted myself the comfort to complete the task of a man to grow and show others anyone can change. It gave value to what life meant.

The secret: something may be hidden to hold off the pain of other to make things normal to bring everyone around safe and protected. I chose that instead of worry. I chose time with a secret to flow as it always been. The hour glass has been friendly to me and I am grateful. Although it poisened me just like the very bulllet in my heart, But this is my choice to live in the now and not in the past to look to the future without doubt. Allah gave me a choice and I chose the best one for everyone.