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paper dolls

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please I love you

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please don't go

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im sorry

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please do

check out my YouTube teehee

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ART VS ARTIST 2024

happy with how much I’ve produced this year !!! These r some of my faves. Who knows maybe I’ll make a cooler painting before December’s over but !!! Love these 2024 pieces!! And proud of myself!!

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work in progress :)

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The Phone Goes Both Ways (And I’m Done Picking Up) [2024]

Acrylic paint on 24x36in stretched canvas

completed within 16-24 hours total

The end of the year approaches and I find myself wondering where I’ve succeeded, and recognize it is in my journey of no contact with my parents. It’s been a hard journey, a tough love adventure. Not talking to my parents has brought me peace and clarity, but it’s brought me guilt and pain as well. My parents call me often, and I never pick up, because at this point it causes me too much stress to talk to them. I don’t have the heart to block them anywhere. I want them to be able to see into my life still but on my own terms. They can know me via social media as a person, but they will never have the privilege of knowing me as their son in their own reality. I have grown miles since I moved out of their home at age 14, I have moved mountains and sprouted trees and grown gardens for myself. Cutting them off has brought me more clarity than anything. I know my parents' cycles, and have never let myself fall into them myself again this year. That’s big for me. I used to fawn for them every chance I needed to. Now my boundaries are firm. I am my own person. If they want to talk to me, they have to acknowledge my pain. The phone keeps ringing, but I am done picking up. The line has been cut anyway, they wouldn’t understand my words, so hopefully they understand silence.  

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Aspen and Alec

Characters I made in 2015 and hold close to my heart

Aspen is Alec’s guardian angel.

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the choice belongs to me (2025)

having some struggles in my personal life and been turning to tarot for guidance, these cards keep persistently coming up. reversed ace of swords, the six of cups, and reversed six of swords. im resisting a transition. im cycling again based on nostaligia and theres nothing but chaos with it. i hope i can stand my ground and make a choice soon. struggling but finding my light.

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CLOWNFISH TRIPTYCH (2025)

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GETHSEMANE (2025)

Acrylic paint on 3ft by 2ft stretched canvas

Made with a lot of love; 24 hours or more. I really love the new song and connect with it.

“There’s nothing left to offer to restore what has been taken. Your body is a temple but your holy wounds are aching.” these lyrics spoke to me in a way that really made me connect to the song. I feel like as someone with religious trauma, trauma in general, and an immense sense of identity issues, this song was made for me. I have a lot of trouble seeing my life through a lens that isn’t trauma related. I’ve compartmentalized so far to the point of having DID and now while I try to accept that, my wounds ache as I start to reveal and see them. I love the lyrics in this song as well that repeat “You’re only wearing my skin!” as that can be a part of my systems feelings at times. Overall, the song Gethsemane really influenced this paintings direction; different symbols of trauma, truth, and compartmentalizations fill the piece. Learning to accept the fires instead of trying to put them all out.

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empty feelings (2025)

12x16in study for my final painting project of this semester

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THE NEEDLE - CHASE PETRA

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Morgul the Friendly Drebl (TDOV 2025)

I have not much to say for this. JUST NEED TO STAY ALIVE NOW JUST NEED TO STAY ALIVE NOW JUST NEED TO FUCKIN STAY ALIVE!!!

lyrics from The Official Bard of Baldwin County

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Forget Not The Child (2025)

Acrylic paint on 24x24in stretched canvas; circle canvases; ESKI-board teeth

description of the work

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Deep Down I’m Really Mark Smith (2025)

Acrylic on 48x24in stretched canvas

Based on a song by Crywank