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My love for you devours me. It fucking swallows me whole. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you. I adore you.

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who would i be without you?

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the last thing i need right now is somebody pretending they care about me

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It should not be comfortable but I can understand why it is, as another who finds comfort in the familiar even if its bad.

But please remember, Little Light, even angels and the divine are prone to mistakes. You do not have to be perfect, just be safe and true to yourself as you wish to be.

And actually, I am of the personal belief that imperfect is perfection. We were never meant to be what is viewed as true perfection.

It probably says a lot about me that I'm starting to find this place comfortable...

It feels like I'm back home walking on eggshells around angels and divines.

I have to do everything right. If I don't, then I may as well be dead. No second chances. Do it right. Do it right. Do it right.

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i hate when you leave me. i get restless. antsy. agitated. i need you here with me. that’s the only time im at peace.

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The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.

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I feel this sometimes. But I am more than happy to remind you.

Your joy, how you light up when you see something you like or when you are learning something, how you talk about it with energy that makes it fun even while listening to your beautiful voice.

And from that, your energy. You are like sunlight, though some days there are clouds and that is alright too. I just hope you are aware, when those clouds come in that I am here. Always. I am sure others are too. Please do not forget that, dear.

Your care, your warmth, your compassion and affection for others. Your desire to understand and learn others more.

Your playfulness, your gentleness.

Feels like I stopped being interesting to some people

Feels like my appeal has worn off

... What is my appeal?

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tell me i’m your favorite

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You’d be surprised the things you could get me to do for you when I’m obsessed with you.

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Destructive by Kayla Renee

Why must I sink my teeth in angels flesh?

Corrupting sanity-

Bleeding all hope- strength that is left

Until I feel nearer- nearer yet to Death

Born to play Devil’s advocate

I provoke venom from your mouth

Some view me as passionate

But I will slyly drain you- unperceived as is the mouse

Do not put your faith in me - your love

I devour souls uncontrollably

I detest this life of mud

It’s lonely being nature’s abnormality

I want to hold a hand that understands mine

That won’t get swallowed by the beast I carry inside

I want a clear divide between myself and the world

So that wounding the innocent would be out of my control

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always being desired sexually but never romantically is giving me irreversible psychic damage

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i hate sharing, im possessive and insane.

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A return to my origin.

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Ah.. yes, I did. I apologize if it felt invasive at all, dear. I just truly wanted you to know from me, my own thoughts.

I can. Relate. I suppose, from my own perspective. And again, I can only speak for myself but I assure you once more, I adore you as a person before anything else. You are so lovable, Aladriel.

Mm. I am very sorry and that is. Upsetting. To read and surely to experience for yourself, which is entirely unfair to you if there is no talk or prior agreement to said dynamic or relationship type.

And while it should be a good thing-- that pain will still be there, sweetheart. It is understandable that it hurts because you personally wished for more than objectification. It is okay to hurt.

I know I cannot defeat that voice in your mind for you but I do hope I can at least offer you the reassurance and comfort from my end, in letting you know that I personally do not believe that is all you are.

You are much more than that, Little Light.

You are a delight to be around when you are bright and cheerful, and energetic. But you are also a delight to be around when you are calm and relaxed, and are simply existing.

It is a joy to see your joy, over things small and large such as your favorite sun patches, flowers, little animals that make you smile or learning something new, like crocheting. So much more, even.

I love watching you be eager over new things, over new experiences. I love watching you make new friends and meet new people.

Your existence is a warmth that sometimes wavers out of fear but I do hope you know that I am here and I do want to assure you are more, to myself especially as that is who I can speak for.

I am happy just sitting with you, even simply looking at you and listening to your voice as you talk about your days or thoughts.

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"Matching my freak," and it's just us being obsessed with each other until the end of time

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You are much more than that, Little Light.

You are a delight to be around when you are bright and cheerful, and energetic. But you are also a delight to be around when you are calm and relaxed, and are simply existing.

It is a joy to see your joy, over things small and large such as your favorite sun patches, flowers, little animals that make you smile or learning something new, like crocheting. So much more, even.

I love watching you be eager over new things, over new experiences. I love watching you make new friends and meet new people.

Your existence is a warmth that sometimes wavers out of fear but I do hope you know that I am here and I do want to assure you are more, to myself especially as that is who I can speak for.

I am happy just sitting with you, even simply looking at you and listening to your voice as you talk about your days or thoughts.

I need to stop leaning into the thought that my only appeal to others is sexual.

I'm more than that

I can be more

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sometimes I feel like I’m not anything to anyone at all