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demonstrating breath-holding vs holding breath (pathologizing?)

implications of refresh

ci cd mental framework for living -- un-performing git add git commit git checkout in the pockets of my being

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April 25, 1928 Journals of Anais Nin 1927-1931  [volume 4]

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Stil-Life with Mushrooms  -   Janne Muusari , 1923

Finnish, 1886–1966

Oil on canvas, 51 x 60,5 cm.

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milk-box era

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sdxfcgvzdxfcgvhzdxfcgvhbjnkmlcgvhbjnk science

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**chokes as flashbacks of a three-year childhood hyperfixation flood back**

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My neighbour totoro, 1988

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rejected subs

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just me and my jar of queso sitting on my silly little roof writing down my silly little thoughts on medical imaging and epistemic virtue

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The haunted city

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“When identity is derived from projecting an image in the public realm, something is lost, some core of identity diluted, some sense of authority or interiority sacrificed. It is time to question the false equivalency between not being seen and hiding. And time to reevaluate the merits of the inconspicuous life, to search out some antidote to continuous exposure, and to reconsider the value of going unseen, undetected, or overlooked in this new world. Might invisibility be regarded not simply as refuge, but as a condition with its own meaning and power? Going unseen may be becoming a sign of decency and self-assurance. The impulse to escape notice is not about complacent isolation or senseless conformity, but about maintaining identity, propriety, autonomy, and voice. It is not about retreating from the digital world but about finding some genuine alternative to a life of perpetual display. It is not about mindless effacement but mindful awareness. Neither disgraceful nor discrediting, such obscurity can be vital to our very sense of being, a way of fitting in with the immediate social, cultural, or environmental landscape. Human endeavor can be something interior, private, and self-contained. We can gain, rather than suffer, from deep reserve.”

— Akiko Busch, How to Disappear: Notes on Invisibility in a Time of Transparency. [bold text added by me.]

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Acts of Care

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the fiery desire to erase all remnants of my known self from the interwebs ! the intimacy felt in exchange of apologetic rescheduling emails with attendings’ secretaries;; 

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Ada Limón interviewed by Lauren LeBlanc

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queer friendships as saviors; good mentors as saviors (?); << I am reminded of how deeply we need those we respect intellectually to really love us for our minds. It is more crucial to some of us than parental or romantic love. Good mentoring is the most powerful form of liberation I’ve known. >>

responded to a “call for storytellers,” almost instinctually; embracing visuospatial nomadism; cautiously rejecting the explicit demand for ability/affability/availability; imagining semi-synchronous passage

obsidian has become my site for play of choice -- it’s in its framework that I am relearning/discovering joyous aspects of care that medicine could house, the interconnectivity of it all