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“i think people forget that sometimes the person who tries to fix everyone needs fixing too”

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Every person who reblog this will get a random fandom quote without context in their inbox

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Dean & Castiel - Twist & Shout - Can't help falling in love with you

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If yeet yote then yeet yeeteth the yote

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wow destiel references aren’t even casual anymore huh

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Me trying to be a happy person despite stress and depression

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Peter: If I cut off your head, will your body regrow your head, or will you grow a new body?

Deadpool: I don’t know. Cut off my head and find out.

Peter: Will that hurt?

Deadpool: Oh it’s gonna hurt like a bitch, but we’re doing this for science!

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castiel: i would die for you

dean: i’d die for you too

castiel, suddenly very emotional: please don’t do that

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Harry wasn’t pleased…

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Dear CW,

LET DEAN WINCHESTER KISS BOYS GODDAMN IT 

Sincerely, a hoe who knows that Dean is bisexual

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|￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣￣| |     I’m still rooting for      | |              destiel               | |____________________|                     (\__/) ||                       (•ㅅ•) ||                       / 　 づ

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Okay I think I got it.

There’s a very important reason as to why Twist and Shout resonated so deeply with the SPN fanbase compared to how any other fanfiction resonates with any other fanbase.

(Note I am, literally, writing this in tears because of how deeply that story hit me when I read it)

Twist and Shout isn’t just a fanfiction about Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in some 60s AU, Twist and Shout talks about queer history in a way that not a lot of media does. It focuses on how hard and painful it was to be queer in the past, how the fear of being outed, disowned, beaten, or even killed loomed over the older people from our community. Being unable to show your love to anyone, not friends, not family, being unable to shout who and what you are like we do nowadays on the internet, with nothing to stop us. There was little to no pride in being queer, there was fear, hiding, hushed whispers, lord knows what would happen to you or your partner if the police was contacted about your “unholy activities.”

Not only that, Twist and Shout also touches on the subject of war. It talks about how war changes people, how it takes a soul full of life, dreams, aspirations, and warps it, twists and breaks, shatters every ounce of will in it, until that person is barely an echo of what they were before. Being forced away from your family, being forced into a war that you never waged, being forced to end lives you never knew, and then shoved back into the home you were ripped from, months or years later, with nothing to show for that time you vanished but a blood soaked story and too many scars, too many memories that will haunt you forever. And the consequences of those memories are never accounted for by the government that stripped you from your will, and you suffer and your suffering makes the people around you suffer, because what is PTSD? This is the 60s, you’re a hero, how dare you be traumatized by saving your country? Not a thought it given to how heavy is the burden that the soldiers who survive carry. No one knows who they are anymore, not their families, not their lovers, not themselves.

And at last, Twist and Shout touches again on queer history, on the heaviest, most painful memory our elders hold; the AIDS epidemic. Ever since the epidemic began, to this day, AIDS killed over 22 million people. In about 20 years of epidemic, since the 1980s, AIDS killed over 500 thousand people in the US alone. No one knew what it was. The older queer people remember watching their friends and lovers disappear one by one, powerless, ignorant, not even the doctors knew what was happening. Queer people that were outed by their own deaths (”died of that new gay cancer”) were disowned by their parents, who never bothered to bury their own children. In the community, people lived in fear - who would die next? Me, my neighbor, my lover, my friend? It was horrifying, and not knowing what was cutting so many lives short added to the horror. The AIDS epidemic is a sour, horrible memory of our history, and we still bear the scars to this day, it wasn’t that long ago after all.

Twist and Shout isn’t just a “Destiel fanfiction,” (although that should never take away any story’s seriousness, fanfiction is, has been, and will forever be an important part of worldwide culture and fanfiction writers should be taken just as serious as any published author) Twist and Shout is what introduced me to the reality and seriousness of queer history, my history, in a way no history class had, it taught teenage me about the loss of life and mind that happened with our brothers and sisters and siblings during those wretched times, and it humanized traumatized soldiers in a way that no other YA novel about the war did for me.

Twist and Shout is currently being edited into a novel, and will be published in hardcover, paperback, and e-book format. And damn, I’ll get my hands on the hardcover format of one of the most life-changing pieces of literature I’ve ever laid my eyes upon if it’s the last thing I do.

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