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I just started a page on Instagram for my poetry! Check it out and send me some love if you’d like. 

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I’ve been loving Wholesome Culture’s cute, eco-friendly tees. Check out their t-shirts, tank tops and sweatshirts! You can even save 10% on your purchase if you use my link! 

Click here to check out their new arrivals and summer clearance! 

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“You’re the narrator, the protagonist, and the sidekick. You’re the storyteller and the story told. You are somebody’s something, but you are also your you.”

Turtles All the Way Down by John Green

nanly © | goodreads // instagram ♡

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When the fat girl says her lunch was a clementine and her breakfast was black coffee, no one blinks an eye. When the fat girl spends three hours at the gym and comes home to crawl into bed without dinner, no one leaves a plate for her. When the fat girl becomes the skinny girl, her body falling apart like ashes from a cigarette, everyone calls her pretty. I have spent the past ten years trying to convince myself that I can be both the fat girl and the pretty girl. I have tried to lessen the weight of these adjectives by surrounding myself with bright people who do not care about numbers or sizes. I’m on a plane coming home from Florida, and it’s late and raining outside as I turn on a movie about eating disorders. Here’s the thing, I never said I had an eating disorder. When the fat girl skips meals, people call it power. When the fat girl never stops running, people call it strength. I am on this plane watching this girl turn into tissue paper. I can feel the bathroom tiles beneath my knees, the shame of not being able to make myself sick. When the fat girl starts to turn to dust, people compare her to glitter. When the fat girl self-destructs, people say she’s like fireworks. The fat girl is dying, but at least she’s so pretty. I am watching this girl in this movie and thinking that I know that feeling, the feeling of water on an empty stomach, the taste of saltines for the first time all day, the shame that you’re eating anything today. And suddenly I am not watching the movie. I am thirteen years old, sitting in a doctor’s office, talking about how I need to stop eating. I am taking long bike rides to avoid meals and only eating Fiber One brownies. I am fifteen years old, tracking calories for a health project, trying to keep the number below five hundred. I am watching myself in the mirror, turning and sucking and pulling until I am red all over. I am seventeen years old, letting my body auction itself off to an illness just so I won’t have to be its keeper. I never said I had an eating disorder. Now, though, on this plane, in this seat by the window, I see my reflection in this girl’s face in this movie about eating disorders. And I am crying. It’s like I am the haunted house, and anorexia is the ghost that will not go. No matter who comes to visit or even who comes to stay, she is always there, waiting and watching. I am out at dinner with a nice boy, but my hands are shaking each time I pick up my fork. I have a salad in front of me while he eats steak bigger than my eyes, and yet, I still feel too large. When he tells me that I am beautiful and stunning and gorgeous, the words feel like paper, weightless against me. I have never been allowed to be the canvas for such descriptions, and this ghost will not let them stick. I never said I had an eating disorder, and even if I had, I would have said I was well past it. But even as I get off this plane, with the movie long finished and done, I am counting calories like tally marks, each one cutting into my skin. When the fat girl stops eating, no one ever notices. When the fat girl relapses, no one ever notices.

(via late-night-contemplations)

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Which of these famous YouTubers at NerdCon can answer the most questions in 25 seconds? Watch my video to find out!

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If you missed our animated piece in the NerdCon: Nerdfighteria closing ceremony, or just want to watch it again, here it is! DFTBA.

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John Green & Hannah Hart @ Nerdcon:Nerdfighteria

(Not my photo - found on Instagram - user “bottledthestars)

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10 years of Vlogbrothers!!

Thank you for everything, John and Hank <3 Here’s to many more years! Hard to imagine what life would be like without the Vlogbrothers!

I’ve been wanting to do a nerdfighter collage for ages (I’ve started making yearly ones a while back)

Looking forward to celebrating Nerdfighteria IRL at Nerdcon: Nerdfighteria next month!

(I was supposed to finish this a month ago, but…life, y’know?)

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Hannah at the opening ceremony and women’s panel

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I got to meet Hannah Hart today! She’s so amazing and nice. I came all the way from Michigan for those three minutes, and it was 100% worth it.

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We proudly present EVERY NERDFIGHTER HAS A STORY, a collection of Nerdfighter stories from the last ten years. This film was originally screened at @nerdconnerdfighteria. 

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we’re all registered! can’t wait for tomorrow!

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New video, in which John Green, Hannah Hart, Rosianna Halse Rojas, Michael Buckley, and I talk about mental health at NerdCon: Nerdfighteria! 

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Hey guys, hope everyone who went had fun at Nerd Con!

Send in any stories or photos you want us to share!

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New French the Llama vinyl toy! Add more cuteness to your DFTBA collection. 

Get yours here: http://store.dftba.com/products/french-llama-figurine

Designed by Jeremy Edelblut 

Check out his website here:  http://jeremyedelblut.com/