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"No no, go on. Try to safe word. I want you to. Yea there you go that's it. No I'm not stopping, you're so smart! I'm raping you. I've been raping you this whole time. Awe, it's too late to struggle now sweetie."

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hmmm... thinking about someone forcibly taking care of you. bathing you by hand, brushing your hair for you, dressing you and grooming you, brushing your teeth for you, hand feeding you etc etc. not just as a form of affection but also to assert control over your every breathing moment...

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Apologetic CNC but flipping the script. Instead of "I'm sorry, I need this" it's "I know you need this, it's okay."

"Therrrre you go, tell me how much you hate it and how disgusting I am." "Go ahead and cry for me, let's get it all out." Holding you still and making you take it while we get those emotions out.

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oh to be raped until i go i love you i love you i love you

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rape and nonconsensual touching but it extends into the aftercare.

youre angry at them and scared and flinching and after what they just did to your body you can barely stand on your own but when you can you try to shuffle and crawl away from them. you dont WANT them to bathe you, theyre probably just trying to wash evidence off but youre weak and shaking, you cant really fight them off. they grab you by the crook of your elbow and drag you to your feet, hauling you into the bathroom while you stumble or even drag uselessly behind them. you curse at them half heartedly when they drop you into their shower. you sputter as the water comes on, too cold and unexpected. they set up a chair near where youre sitting and roll up their sleeves, take a handful of your now wet hair and drag you to them. you shake and flinch as they drag you over, hands covering your face like theyre going to hit you. instead they just start to wash your hair. you freeze under the gentle touching, struggle to connect this behavior with everything else thats happened tonight. the water is warm now and theyre cooing at you and telling you you were good, you didnt behave yourself but you still made them feel so good and youre such a good pet, or you will be once they break you a little further. you sit there dumbfounded and humiliated as they talk to you like a child or a scared animal. you dont notice your shoulders relax or how youve started leaning into their hands, but they do. they mutter vague sounds of approval at your submission, the first time youve behaved all fucking night. as soon as they finish with your hair they move to your body, gently lathering you with soap while you try to hide yourself. one smack to one of your bruised wrists is all it takes to get you to stop covering up now. the violence, the violation, the beating, the tears, and now the warm water, the whiplash, the soft touching, the confusion, its all made you so pliant. you dont say anything when they take extra care to wash your holes. you only shoot them a look when they say “good as new, like nothing ever happened.” they turn off the water and wrap you in a soft, fluffy towel. you look shell shocked and they cant help but laugh that now and only now is when you want to disconnect from your body. once it feels safe. they scoop you up and take you back to the bed you were just violated on. talking down to you as they put you in pajamas and bottle feed you water like a sick lamb, first manhandling your limp spacey body into some underwear youve never seen before (did they have that waiting for you? how long have they planned to do this to you), then a tshirt. they chide you when you dont move to help get it on yourself. clicking their tongue and telling you “arms up” like a child. you move sluggishly and hesitantly but do as they say. they put the shirt on you and kiss your head, thanking you for being so good. you feel sick. they maneuver you into their bed finally so that they can hold you to their chest. as you start to drift off in spite of yourself, they whisper “dont even think about running off tonight. you havent seen anything yet.” in your ear

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"suicidal guardian angel" is Such an important character concept to me

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starting to think i might be kind of a perv :/

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god i love love love when someone is obsessed with me in like, a predator way. Like, what do you MEAN you fantasize about biting my tits. Oh you're getting hard just thinking about the noises I make? Do you want my home address? That's crazy, you're really thinking about fucking me while I'm in tears and begging for you to stop??? I'm swooning. Jesus christ.

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"bunnies dont make sounds" NOT TRUE!!! we make plenty of sounds like "ghkghkghk" "uh uh uh uh uh" "no not there!!!" "owwwww" "its too big!!!" and, my personal favorite, "pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease"

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“Fighting that leads to sex” this “fighting then making out” that

Fighting that leads nowhere. Fighting fully clothed, then dragging our tired asses out for a strong drink and some trash diner food. Not talking much. Maybe one of us breaks the silence and says ‘man, I kinda liked that’, and then the other says ‘shut up, jackass’

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Some kind of fast art, I don’t really like it, but it doesn’t matter.

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My illustration for the BTD zine with a beer dinosaur.

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There’s a lot of talk of mean sadists.. but what about chipper and friendly ones?

Sadists that laugh and give you faux comfort when they’re raping you.

Sadists that offer you a beer before they start cutting into you.

Sadists that talk to you like you’re a kid so you’ll understand what they’re about to do to you.

Sadists that let you lay in their lap after torturing you for hours.

Sadists that are so charismatic and friendly that no one would ever suspect they have someone locked in their house!