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Seeing the alpha in 28 years later

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every time I mention how many days sober I am I appreciate people congratulating me and telling me to keep up the good work. it is nice. but I also wish that milestones in addiction recovery weren’t still so pinned to length of sobriety/abstinence

yeah yeah I’m 50 days sober who cares. how about the fact that, when I do drink, it tends to be nipped in the bud after two days nowadays instead of weeks or months? how about the fact that drinking has been condensed to a six pack because I’m at the end of my tether, instead of browning out every night? how about my friend who has decided to stop drinking alone, and is actually sticking to that? recovery doesn’t always look like sobriety and I wish it was more normal to talk about that. yknow. when addiction is normal to talk about at all

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scout my beloved

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the way they looked at each other in this short scene, WE WERE SO ROBBED OF THEM AS A FRIEND GROUP LOOK AT THEM I’M SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM (no I’m not and never will be)

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Body awareness is absolute shit for chronic illness. “Become aware of your body. Pay attention to how your body feels” great now I’m noticing the bone aching soreness that is permeating my entire body, thanks for that. My mind was automatically filtering that out for my but I sure am aware of it now!

I need like the opposite. I need “leave your body entirely and forget it exists” meditation.

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Soo, uh *hypothetically* if I see someone openly state they're a minor and they're posting... THOSE types of pics of themselves, is it wise to just block and report or should I try to contact tumblr directly??

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every single fucking thing on earth exists solely to put a dent in your newly applied nail polish

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the problem with water is like. it's the cleaning fluid right. that's the obvious part. you stop drinking and you stop peeing and your kidneys are like ough. ough. ough. ough. but you don't die. unless you're not drinking anything At All and not eating watery food either. so all it is is you pee less but you're okay. kind of.

BUT THEN when it gets too hot it starts being the coolant! and suddenly there are so many ways it can get out! you have so many sweat glands and so much skin and they all need to be cooled down before you DIE.

but then. you realize the least obvious one. it's the transmission fluid. it's the fucking transmission fluid. you can't transmit SHIT without your fliud. which is still fucking water somehow.

so now you're LEAKING your transmission fluid out of every goddamn pore and your kidneys are like hey. gimme that cleaning fluid cmon dude. while your pores are like ITS COOLANT. NEED COOLANT. FOR THE FIRE. NEED MORE COOLANT. SO MUCH FIRE. KILL IT. KILL IT MORE. MORE COOLANT. and then. the rest of you. that uses all that fluid to transmit things. it's like hey. hey. hey what the fuck.. i need that. hello? can anyone hear me? hello? it's so dark in here..

and then you drink more water or you die.

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happy pride to my favorite gif in the world

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Throwing out and donating my ex-roommate's stuff because I'm tired of begging a grown man for my own. 🤭 Like, fine. What you have of mine wasn't that important to me anyway. Let someone else enjoy your childhood millennium falcon figure that you said you've treasured since!

You refuse to give me back a single item of my own, why should I go out my way to give you yours??

This post is about the same dude!! I can't be bothered to be the bigger person anymore. If I'm vaguing about someone, then they've pushed me past my normal coping mechanisms.

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“Avoidance comes in many forms, perhaps the most potent of which are intellectualisation and fantasy. With the former, we talk about DID, we read about DID, we research DID, we hypothesise about DID. Anything other than facing the trauma, and working it through. We try to drown out the trauma with a multitude of words. With fantasy, we live in a complex world of ‘alters’ and ‘littles’ and ‘systems’ and ‘hosts’, elaborating what is undeniably real - the polyfragmentation of DID and complex trauma - until our self-representation becomes in itself a form of avoidance.”

- Recovery Is My Best Revenge, by Carolyn Spring.

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I'm only saying this for your sake, but objectively, it's not a smart idea to bring politics into normal hobbies. You might lose supporters of your blog just because of your political stance, and that would be terrible since you're so amazing!! It's only a suggestion, but I really reccomend not bringing politics into anything.

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it’s good to be challenged it’s good to be scared it’s good to be challenged it’s good to be scared it’s good to be challenged it’s good to be scared

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I always hear "separate art from artist" when they do something really fucked up. I can't do that because a lot of the time, their art becomes entwined with them as a person.

However, I have a hard time enjoying some art, such as songs, when it's a different genre than I'm used to from said artist. So, my idea is if I view it as another song from a different artist, it helps me deconstruct what I "expect" from them and I end up liking it even more!

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*heavy southern accent*: terfs aint got no friends