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[goatgoesmbe]

In like.. 3 to 5 years

Hello, im at the point of not being able to go further any longer, so i.. finally will take the advice to take care of myself

I will be focusing on commissions fully and art stuff, but other than that i would distance myself fully

From both discord and tumblr, other than commissions, i wont be interacting, im sorry

Again, truly sorry for the delay, i didnt expect to get to this point when i opened comm.. but i shouldve known

For anyone who wanna talk to me for anything except for that, ill be on telegram and whatsapp.. for those who knows my telegram and whatsapp-

Nothing particularly bad happened, just the usual stuff, and for personal reasons

Thank you for being lovely and understanding, and im sorry for not replying many asks and some dms

[goatgoesmbe]

i think i can only be what considered normal when i get out of this abusive household

Hello, im at the point of not being able to go further any longer, so i.. finally will take the advice to take care of myself

I will be focusing on commissions fully and art stuff, but other than that i would distance myself fully

From both discord and tumblr, other than commissions, i wont be interacting, im sorry

Again, truly sorry for the delay, i didnt expect to get to this point when i opened comm.. but i shouldve known

For anyone who wanna talk to me for anything except for that, ill be on telegram and whatsapp.. for those who knows my telegram and whatsapp-

Nothing particularly bad happened, just the usual stuff, and for personal reasons

Thank you for being lovely and understanding, and im sorry for not replying many asks and some dms

[goatgoesmbe]

Hello, im at the point of not being able to go further any longer, so i.. finally will take the advice to take care of myself

I will be focusing on commissions fully and art stuff, but other than that i would distance myself fully

From both discord and tumblr, other than commissions, i wont be interacting, im sorry

Again, truly sorry for the delay, i didnt expect to get to this point when i opened comm.. but i shouldve known

For anyone who wanna talk to me for anything except for that, ill be on telegram and whatsapp.. for those who knows my telegram and whatsapp-

Nothing particularly bad happened, just the usual stuff, and for personal reasons

Thank you for being lovely and understanding, and im sorry for not replying many asks and some dms

[goatgoesmbe]

can't get enough of biker!ghost

[goatgoesmbe]

vent: nightmares, medications, depression

Idk how many days or nights passed without me having nightmares and waking up feeling really really bad

Ive been having lots of meltdown.. which makes me unproductive af.. and makes me upset of myself so much.. someone said its due to switch of medications, and everything gonna be alright in 2 weeks(?)

Hopefully, that's the case, i want to be normal again

And that's just sleep, let's not dwelve into eating and hygene yet lol-

[goatgoesmbe]

Hello!! I just came across your fic and wondering if there's a reason to use Gaz callsign instead of his name "Kyle" in the 141xreader fic? Since i see the others are using their names instead of callsign. Im curious /gen

I used Johnny and Kyle’s callings just to create a bit of distance between the reader and them since I’m focusing more on John x readers Simon. There was no deep meaning to it, or malice intent!

Edit: I did go back and reread it and there was one time that I used Johnny instead of soap so you’re totally right. I’ll fix that sorry!

EDIT AGAIN: AND ALSO I don’t understand when it’s the entire 141 x reader and they just leave out Kyle?!?!? Like there’s literally no reason. I understand if you want to ship the reader with certain characters idk but it feels so weird.

[goatgoesmbe]

The boomers are right, including my mom- its the damn phone- i need to get off of it and focus on responsibilities and capitalism

[goatgoesmbe]

Hello o(*￣︶￣*)o

just popping in to say that i'm not okay, never have.. and am not still.. but i will be- hopefully, i should be.. because yes.

Been having several meltdowns recently, probably due to switching medications- and also for various personal reasons going on- but again, i'll be fine.. hopefully i'll be back to how i should be on the date stated at pinned

Thank you to everyone who are still enjoying my posts- whether it's unhinged rb, writing, yapping, etc

I will be back..

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organizing my blog(?).. kind of- ill make it prettier.. sometime.. next year probably (hopefully)

made an rb exclusive sb too @mberbanything because.. yk i rb a lot lol

[goatgoesmbe]

ON HIATUS UNTIL DECEMBER 2025

Hello hello..! and welcome :3

Warning:

I RB/POST A LOT - might trauma dump, tagged #mbe vent - hyperfixating on COD atm - will post/rb dark content, tagged #cw: dark content (fauxcest, noncon, infidelity, piss kink, etc) - also yap about religious stuff, tagged #cw: religion - #cw: politics - selfship/yumeshipping: #cw: delulu - #oc x canon

So feel free to block said tags if you're against having them on your dash ❤️

I will block people who supports any kind of generative ai (including c.ai) and puritans.

reminder that hiding behind anon is as safe as turning on incognito mode. as long as you are online, you're never anonymous. so be kind :)

I mostly draw/write for myself so im not open to request atm.. u_u)/ (sorry)

If you feed my works to AI, i will find you and slurp the bone marrow out of your spine.

Feel free to write my ideas yourself though!! ^^)/ just be sure to tag me because i would love to read them :3c

fyi: #bacantar = read later, #bacalagi = read again

pronouns: any (he/they/she)

nb (gendervoid) | aroace | muslim | hijabi | 23 yo | 🇮🇩

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important: while i do write pure fluff sometimes, this is not a safe place for you— if you're avoiding smut, gore, darkfic, please refer to my sfw sideblog— where i would rb non freaky stuff from here to there → @doesntgombe

fyi: no need to follow me for my works coz i yap and rb a lot skdjsk- I don't wanna spam ur dash.. so you can follow my writing sb @mbewrithing or art sb @mbedrawsshits

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ayy i made an sb for writing archive thingy.. id still post here and all- but id rb my writing there

..i uh- too lazy to update masterlist

To archive fics from main @goatgoesmbe

request: closed

Warning: this blog has dark content tagged #cw: dark content (fauxcest, noncon, infidelity, piss kink, etc) - mostly #xreader - and #oc x canon

Important:

While i do write pure fluff sometimes, this is not a safe place for you— if you're avoiding smut, gore, darkfic, please refer to my sfw sideblog— where i would rb non freaky stuff from here to there → @doesntgombe

📖masterlist📖 🗣️blurbs list🗣️ 📜apply for taglist📜

#mbe write -> writing tag

If you feed my works to AI, i will find you and slurp the bone marrow out of your spine.

Feel free to write my ideas yourself though!! ^^)/ just be sure to tag me because i would love to read them :3c

just the tip plz- 🫙

[goatgoesmbe]

Speaking of, please tell me I'm not insane for feeling pissed off and incredibly annoyed when people (mostly white people or anyone who has a hate boner for Black people hidden in their pants brand-named 'you're being racist towards white people', but I suppose Black people do it too when they're seeking brownie points) equate 'Blackwashing' to white washing.

Like I'm sorry, but I'll never give a shit if someone makes fanart of a white/anime character being Black. It will NEVER have the same implications and historical weight and context as whitewashing a character about you as a person. One implies simply wanting to see a character you already love as is in your image rather than racism, the other looks like good ol' colourism.

Like okay, you want to experiment and make a POC character white? Okay, as I see it, it's similar to cosplaying.

But do I feel inclined to trust you😐❓❓ No. Do I need to trust you? No. Have I been disappointed too many times in offering my benefit of the doubt to people who've proven to have not deserved it? Maybe (and I still am very naive when it comes to wanting to putting faith into people, I suppose).

Sorry for not capitalizing it earlier btw, I'm still new to the whole "Capitalize Black" thing.

I always think of it as an "okay, how about this. You trade me all of the privilege and benefits and power that comes with being white, and I'll trade YOU the right to be angry at racism 👀" Like if you wanna complain like me then you should suffer like me! Come on! Give me all of your societal power and then I'll give you the right to complain about being powerless 👀 You don't get to have it all!

As for faith in people, yeah I feel you. For me, I keep that faith because I feel like part of not accepting this world as it is is not giving in to the idea that being a racist is immutable, that "this is how people are". This is NOT how "people ARE", this is how these people are CHOOSING TO BE. Especially when they're confronted with it- now that you know, and have the opportunity to change and don't, that's YOU! You always have the choice to do better. For every 100,000 antiblack racists, there are 10 people that actually want to do better- and my faith in those 10 make the rest of them look that much worse.

[goatgoesmbe]

..Fuck counting, imma hunt dem FBI agent/Chinese Spy in charge of my algorithm to get out of my wifi and get inside my cunt-

“Do not speak badly of yourself - for the warrior within hears your words and is lessened by them.”

— David Gemmell

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FBI agent and/or Chinese Spy in charge of my algorithm please.. lemme hit

I'm just going to throw it out there that insecurity sucks and it makes doing things so damn hard, and if you're managing to do them despite your lack of confidence then you're amazing and I wish you the best 💗

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don't judge a fic by its stats

[goatgoesmbe]

pastel plaid ao3 site skin

I felt like doing a pretty, colourful background for a skin and then I just kept going.

If this skin looks like one you'd like to try, you can find it (and instructions for how to use it) on my github.