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[goldie1]

Have you ever been stimming by tapping and hitting the wall to make Wall Thunks™ And then you innevitably start thinking "man should i really be doing this? If i desensitize my parents to the sound of banging on walls, how will i alert them when something happens to me and im too weak to call out? Like, say, i get my throat slit or something" And this thought scares you and makes you want to stop hitting the wall and stop getting those sweet sweet Wall Thunks™, but your hand keeps moving and you cant stop yourself because youre autistic or is that just meHave you ever been stimming by tapping and hitting the wall to make Wall Thunks™ And then you innevitably start thinking "man should i really be doing this? If i desensitize my parents to the sound of banging on walls, how will i alert them when something happens to me and im too weak to call out? Like, say, i get my throat slit or something" And this thought scares you and makes you want to stop hitting the wall and stop getting those sweet sweet Wall Thunks™, but your hand keeps moving and you cant stop yourself because youre autistic or is that just me

[goldie1]

stop fucking using the word psychotic to describe bad behaviour and violence already god fucking damn it

[goldie1]

I want a story about a king whose son is prophesied to kill him so the king is like “whatever what am I supposed to do, kill my own kid wtf is wrong with you” so he just raises him as normal, doesn’t even tell him about the prophecy, and instead of some convoluted twist of events that leads to the king’s murder the son grows up and when the king is very old and dying and in excruciating pain the kid is just like alright I'mma put him out of his misery.

[goldie1]

Virtues vs. Vices:

Patience -> stagnation/Inaction

Allways waiting and never doing.

"Sure, it looks like this is a good opportunity to act, but what if a better one comes by? There's always a better moment if you just keep on WAITING, right?"

Kindness -> Blind Faith/Self-hatred

Caring only about others and never yourself.

"Why take care of yourself? Thats just wasting effort that could be spent on helping OTHERS. But still, you're never enough, right?"

Integrity -> Brutal Honesty/Distrust

Never filtering your words and always assuming others are lying.

"Why be careful about what you say? If someone is hurt by your honest words, they must just be LIARS who are afraid of the truth, right?"

Bravery -> Foolishness/Ignorance

Acting without thinking, running head first into a brick wall.

"Who cares about consequences? Consequences are for weak people and COWARDS, right?"

Justice -> Retribution/Vengeance

Going far beyond justice, being obsessed with the suffering of the wrongdoer, even after their 'debt' has been paid and then some.

"Its never enough for you, is it? Will it ever end? Will your rage ever be satiated? They must SUFFER even more for what they did to you, right?"

Persevereance -> inflexibility/Overachievement

Allways piling on more and more responsibility, leading to monumental amounts of stress, and self blame when you inevitably fail. But never willing to yeild regardless. Refusing to change and being stuck in your ways.

"Its always seems to be YOUR fault, doesn't it? But that doesn't stop you, you still have to keep doing what your doing, because change is scary, right?"

Determination -> Overzealous/Cruelty

Constantly reaching higher and higher, without any care for who you have to bring down to get there

"Who cares what others think about what you're doing? Who cares who you hurt in the process? Afterall, you can do whatever you want, as long as you have enough CONVICTION, right?"

Sure, You need be true to yourself, and your traits are good to have, but get lost in them, and they'll become twisted and destructive. Never focus too hard on one specific aspect. Just let yourself be who you are and the rest will automatically be taken care of.

[goldie1]

There are two ways of looking at "nothing matters."

"Nothing matters, so i can do anything!"

And

"Nothing matters, so why do anything?"

One way of thinking leads to happiness, while the other leads to depression. Ive realized this, and had to switch my way of thinking, and ive been somewhat happier ever since. I mean, im still dealing with depression, so i still have my bad days, but now i dont spiral like i used to