goners15

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hi, im not using this account anymore. i don't agree with ANY of the things i've posted here. i'm still mentally ill, but i've removed myself from a large contributor of my poor psyche. please, i beg you not to stew in your most negative traits. i love you and i KNOW for a fact that with the right effort you too can get better and reach happiness. you dont need obsession or pain or fear to reach that.

stay safe now. do not remember me.

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i got really REALLY high the other night and started kneading my blanket >.>

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please don't have sex in disabled bathrooms if you're abled. we need somewhere to have sex too

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if you don't want me, then i'll just make you want me. you're fucking mine. you belong to me, not anyone else.

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Cat therian culture is hissing at things that just won't work properly or stay in one place

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watching a horror film and saying “us” whenever the slasher brutally murders someone

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do you like the color of my blood? ill show you all the love letters ive written for you in it if you'd like!

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"this character does this bad thing so liking them is morally wrong"

what if i also did a bad thing. notably stab. notably to you

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if youre mean to me this is who you're being mean to

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fuck off from here you dont see anything

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music is so good there's something so amazing listening to a song and feeling like lightning! like im gonna start shooting lightning from my fingers my chest just feels so full and happy and aaaaaaaaaaaa when i listen to a good good good song!

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Sir.

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gueeeeess whaaaaat

ooooough i wanna shave my head but i know id be soooooo fuxking upset if i did

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erm. something something feeling particularly beautiful about humanity in a way that feels separate, like i am something else entirely looking out upon human society and seeing it as something very cool and interesting and beautiful and lovely. something about appreciating the cultures humans have created and the music and artworks they hold so dear. the way humans love eachother and clearly care about eachother even if they dont know the other person. the care humans have for themselves and the things around them and the fact that those who only want to see themselves gain power and everything else die horribly are a minority of people and that collectively humans can do so much for eachother

something something enjoying BEING human. enjoying the breath in my lungs, and the way the grass and sticks and sandy dirt feel under my feet, the way water splashes against my skin and cools me off, the smells of nature and the enjoyment of just talking to another human and laughing with them. the way my body burns after running and the relief i feel taking a rest. oh and water! again! drinking cold water and feeling it go through my body and remembering that i am alive and that these simple things are just so wonderful and simple. even the pain of running across hot sand/pavement is worth it because of the feeling of cool water/grass.

oftentimes feeling like none of its worth it and that i just cant handle being alive but remembering how much enjoyment i can gather from even the most simple things. waking up in the early morning and hearing heavy rain, comfortable in bed barely processing anything yet other than the fact that my awakeness is fleeting and i cant care to start the day yet

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shes so borderline