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WHY ARE MOMS SO SOFT?? LIKE WHY ARE YOU SO WARM AND SOFT TO TOUCH AND WHY DO YOU FEEL SO CUDDLY?! AND WHY DO I WANT TO FALL ASLEEP HUDDLED INSIDE OF YOU AND WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I CAN HIDE IN YOUR SOFT HUG??!

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✨manifesting a partner like that✨

- Zindagi Gulzar hai (2012)

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At what age does body dysmorphia go away? Asking for a friend

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Update: getting home did fix it but definitely did not fix it. Geddit??

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I need an escape. I'm not sure where is it that i want to run away to but i know for a fact that this place is where i want to run away from. I want to go home or to a place that feels safe and quet and home-like... Just somewhere that is not here.

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I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm tired of living on campus. I'm tired of waking up everyday. I'm tired of eating the same food. I'm tired of looking at the same scenery. I'm tired of walking down the same road. I'm tired of people around me. I'm tired of staring at the laptop screen too tired to type or work. I'm tired of studying even though I haven't started. I'm tired of looking at my messy table. I'm tired of staring at my own tired face in the mirror. I'm tired of myself.

I just want to go home with hope that it'll fix everything.

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Funny how i haven't gotten that reading high (inhaling one book after the other) in sooooo long only for it to come back when I'm the most stressed and have got deadlines and assignments and semester end exams coming up

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It feels like there is a hole, a cavity inside of me made of nothing but hollowness (not huge and consuming rather it's a small part of me) and just refuses to fill itself up. It's been a month and it feels like i still have a deficiency that needs to be fulfilled but i don't know how to do that, nothing seems to fix it and the only hope that i have right now is when i go home it will no longer be there because home is my safe space but I'm also scared of the question that what if it doesn't fill even then?

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Try reading hardcore smut while your roommate laughs hysterically and sings on FaceTime in the background at 1 a.m.

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Oh lord the waterworks have started and the floodgates have been opened after a dry spell of 7 days to be exact. And i don't even have a reason this time tbh🥲

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When you let down all your walls for that one person, why is it so difficult and why does it take so long to build those up again when they leave?

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I don't miss him. I miss the feeling and i miss the romaticised version of him that i had created inside my head which he most definitely was not.

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Therapy isn't enough i need to dance alone in front of the mirror of my dim lit room pretending to be the main character about whom the song is written

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Yk what's ironic? As soon as June started my Instagram feed and explore page filled up with postive quotes, poems and random posts about how amazing this month is going to be but on a personal level It's been the worst month so far (and we're only 9 days into it) and i cried 5 times already until the point i couldn't breathe for a good 15-20 minutes.

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I just need this root canal done as soon as possible and with as little pain possible please dearest universe and mother nature have mercy upon my soullllllllllll

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I wanna go homeeeeeeeee

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Manifestating prayers and all of the good karma I've collected till date so that i don't have to suffer in my dentist appointment today✨✨