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this never fucking happened btw. but I'm at a tattoo shop rn and I just agreed yet again LMFAO so maybe if my brother gets his own fast enough THEN I'll be gettin mine. thumbs up!!!

bpdcore I just agreed to do a tattoo on the spot so now I have an appointment for next week. shrugs

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(could be ventish, I don't really know how to tag this. also kind of poetic-ish??? I dunno I'm just spilling my guts hoping someone understands this specific feeling.)

BPD culture is

since the day you were born you were my favourite person and I don't think I can ever get rid of that feeling— even though it's bittersweet at its core and I know it'll rot my teeth in the long run.

i will not dictate your life— you're growing. you don't deserve that, you never did. but sometimes I wish things were like before so you'd cling to me for the attention we gave each other when we were young.

but we're not. and you're growing. and you need a life— and I'll let you have that. I love you for what you are and I'll love you regardless of what you become, because you're still my sunshine.

but sometimes I can feel the sun dim. and see it drift away. and even though I know it's not my fault, it feels like so. because my childish self wants the attention from when we were young.

and anyway, at the end of the day, I'm still proud of you.

(I gotta say all this is strictly platonic. yahoo.)

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[goopymess]

BPD culture is “I Love You Like An Alcoholic” by The Taxpayers

Also just take a moment to appreciate that guitar in that song.

- 🎸🐺

ugh. yes. I wanna chew that song

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bpd culture is

"im getting bad again im so sorry"

"i'll love you through it"

ok but why?? i dont have??? any redeeming qualities??? i hurt you?? constsntly??? YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN ME ARE YOU INSANE YOU SWEET LOVABLE IDIOT

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[goopymess]

maybe if she gets the stencil fast I'll have it tomorrow though. giggles

bpdcore I just agreed to do a tattoo on the spot so now I have an appointment for next week. shrugs

[goopymess]

bpdcore I just agreed to do a tattoo on the spot so now I have an appointment for next week. shrugs

[goopymess]

BPD culture is Sally Bowles from Cabaret (shes BPD coded fr i swear)

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[goopymess]

I love being autistic! (I saw a negative comment about one of the only characters that makes me want to kms less and I physically feel sick. I just ate. I feel I will throw up any second.)

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I keep thinking about how yesterday I was about to get kicked from the bathroom because A TEACHER SAW ME GO IN AND WAITED TIL I STOPPED USING IT to scream at me and demand to tell her if I was a man and I am. genuinely scared now that I think about it. hm. what the hell.

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"don't think about that" as my arm itches from the blood spluttering out of it

[goopymess]

a hug from Scott Summers would fix me.

PROBABLY some therapy and medication too. or a bullet to the head. but y'know, I'll get what I can

[goopymess]

nah cuz this shit has made me feel so bad lmfao

[goopymess]

I don't like Lana Del Rey (just some specific songs) but when she said "nobody's son, nobody's daughter" that made my trans ass starts fucking crying

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[goopymess]

"I get my braces off this Thursday :)"

"your teeth are aligned?"

how about fuck you lmfaooo

[goopymess]

man I really am getting bad to the point of literally killing myself from the inside out👍🏻 I'll not make it to 25

[goopymess]

holy fuck my life's a joke. a fucking joke. I can't think straight I can just think about how all of this is just a bad fucking joke. I want to fucking cry. this is just a joke.