grimdark-equius

[grimdark-equius]

I wish i could man up and deal with all this shit, i wish i could remember the happy moments with my Nepeta (Leijon) , i wish i could at least remember my time with her instead of her death, that's all i fucking want, why the fuck did Gamzee (Makara) have to take her away from me? why the only person who cared about me ? why not me? -Grimdark Equius Zahhak, Once again. <>

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[grimdark-equius]

I see so many nepetas apologising for not saving their equius' and it just makes me so upset to see that nepetas had to go what i went through seeing their moirails' corpse and knowing they could have saved them but couldn't. My Nepeta Leijon, if you by chance are reading this, (which you probably aren't, but, a troll can hope right?) I'm so sorry for not saving you, it's all my fault, I'm strong i was able to, but i didn't and I'm so sorry - Love, a grimdark Equius Zahhak <>

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[grimdark-equius]

Hey, it's me again, and damn, do I miss my Nepeta more than ever, she was so wonderful and so sweet to me when no one else was, it just makes me so upset, it's been months upon months since i've remembered her death and it just makes me sick to my stomach knowing I could have done something, if I had gotten to that clown freak a little quicker, she would have still been alive, its all my fault, but you know that funny part? I would still forgive gamzee for what he did. Love, Grimdark Equius. <>

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[grimdark-equius]

I remember being some-what close to gamzee before he went sober, which made it even more upsetting when he killed my nepeta- but- sadly- if he did feel remorse for what he did i would still forgive him and i hate myself for that

[grimdark-equius]

So i guess i’ll start to post my memories and what-not here