groovy-booty

[groovy-booty]

tuesday, october 10. 2023

today was a rough day. i had a doctor's appointment at 9 this morning, and i have really awful medical anxiety. i got some orders for more testing and stuff too. it was pretty scary and brought up a lot of troubling thoughts for me.

afterward i went to my musical theater class, where we discussed different career opportunities. i caught up with a friend in the parking lot and then came back home and made myself a small bowl of mac and cheese while i finished my annotated bibliography for my psych class.

once i ate and finished my bibliography i went to work at 5. at work during my free time i finished 3 other homework assignments and my sociology exit exam for graduation in the spring. i also applied for graduation. (did you know you have to apply for college graduation?)

i also got to hang out with my friends at work and one of them showed me a cool app to look at some accurate astrology readings for myself, which are really accurate.

i got off work at 10 and rode a lime scooter home, which is always fun because those things go way too fast. it is awesome. i recommend it.

now im sitting here feeling sad and watching a movie on the floor. i am hoping that i feel better soon. things are really difficult right now.

i wish i had gotten the chance to work out today, but there just was not enough time. i do not like when i miss a day of working out, especially because i had that bowl of mac and cheese today.

i will do some crunches though before bed! and tomorrow i have spin class again which is good.

anyway, i suppose i should go wash my face and brush my teeth. get ready for bedtime.

love always,

xoxo

a

[groovy-booty]

introduction;

greetings! this is my blog where i post my daily life, & things i encounter & lessons i learn.

im a uni student studying psychology & sociology & theater.

i am hoping to get into graduate school to become a counselor.

i also write music and play instruments. i have been songwriting with guitar and vocals since i was nine years old. i’ve been acting on and off my whole life. i’ve always loved performing arts. it’s my safe place

i love to write too. whether it’s poetry, stories, songs, or just dumb blogs or journal entries. maybe i will share some poetry on here someday.

im pretty into health and fitness. i have been a distance runner my whole life, and was a track and xc athlete in high school. i still like to run distance now, but also incorporate weight lifting, hiking, and cycling into my daily routine.

also, im a virgo :) my pronouns are she/they

this blog is mainly for me.

love always;

a

[groovy-booty]

monday, october 9. 2023

this morning i woke up feeling quite chaotic. i ran around my apartment trying to tidy up and stressing about how crazy everything is right now.

for breakfast i had my bloom and some tea. i did my morning crunches, then i had to get dressed and head to my classes. i had camera performance in the morning, then on my break i went to a coffee shop to work on my bibliography for my psychology senior seminar. after this, i went back to campus for my early theater history class.

i came home and ate chicken meatballs with lingonberry, and half a power bar. i watched two episodes of a show i am currently watching called everything sucks. its pretty cute, i highly recommend so far.

then, i got ready for my spin class and walked over, since it’s just down the street from me.

i felt really sad today, so before class i sat in the park and listened to some poetry.

it was a great class. really intense, but in the best way. i always feel better after spin. after class i hot girl walked back home to the song versace hottie by princess nokia. now THAT’S a powerful catwalk song.

when i got home i had to quickly get dressed again and then headed back to campus for about 4 hours to work on a show that i’m costume assisting for. we are also building a large piece of cloth for the set, so a majority of the night was spent measuring and sorting. we took a break and went to starbucks where i got a pink drink and a chocolate croissant.

i got back to my apartment around 10, and washed my face, brushed my teeth, and took my vitamins. now i’m just laying in bed typing all this out.

it’s always late at night when i begin to feel really low, and life just feels like it’s too much. it’s almost like i feel nauseous. however, i know it’s just because i’m going through a weird spot right now mentally.

there is a grave loneliness that seems to follow me everywhere i go. i always feel really outcasted and unable to fit in truly to my surroundings. it’s like everyone knows the rules except me.

loneliness is the key word to my experience right now. maybe i need to feel lonely right now.

but i had a good, full, and productive day. i got to see my friends, the sun was shining, and beyoncé exists.

for these things i am grateful. life is a gift, even though sometimes it doesn’t feel good. im glad that i am someone able to feel and experience such strong emotions.

anyways, love always;

a